Day 110
Posted: July 12, 2011, 10:23 AM

Posts: 3005
Joined: January 11, 2006

Hit the early meeting. It was about humility and not being the center of the universe. Wish I could do that. At least now I know what I am striving for. My sponsor told me everyday look in the mirror and say I am just as good as anyone else. When you begin to believe that. Add to it I am better than no one. Alot of times I think I am better. That humbling to admit. It think I am better than my ex husband, my mom, my sister and most of the important relationships in my life. Because I quit using my drug of choice "I am not as sick as them" That is the most untrue thing. I have probably gotten a ltitle sicker and then better and then sicker. Just like everyone else. I read through some of my success stories to see how I have either progressed or stood still in my recovery since bieng on this board. It was intresting to see. I wrote this wich surprised me..
I listen to my intuition and pray and leave my mind open to my possibilities.
I know I don't do that right now. I wonder if I really used to or if I wrote it because it sounded good... Either way. I want to do that again. Open my mind to the possibilites. Lately I have been arranging outcomes. When the truth is I don't know and that is a good thing. I will leave it with God for now.

My success story

Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy.
Human beings have the awesome ability
to take any experience of their lives
and create a meaning that disempowers them
or one that can literally save their lives.

- Anthony Robbins

Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says,
"This is going to take more than one night."

"Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."
-Leonard Cohen

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Posted: July 18, 2011, 11:40 AM

Posts: 20396
Joined: February 12, 2004

Thanks for the eye opener..I believe that I'm a little stuck. Common? I wonder.

So, you are using the steps to quit smoking? Sigh..I need to do them anyway, might as well make it about something that is actually killing me again.

Thanks Jane and congrats on not proud of you.

I used Drugs to forget, I got clean to remember.
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