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Posted: January 11, 2014, 11:36 AM
Hi Everyone I am a "high functioning" alcoholic. I was at my bottom 10 years ago and I quit drinking for 8 years, then I decided I wasn't an alcoholic and started drinking again...it was ok for a long time, but a year later it is really messing with my head.
I was wondering if anyone has a similar situation as me...I get up feeling great (when I am not hungover)...I am so strong and so happy to be sober. I work hard all day and feel very satisfied with myself and the at 4pm...I don't know what happens...it is like I have a split personality...my inner voice starts telling me things like - "you're not an alcoholic, look at the hard day of work you just put in, you can have a glass of wine". "you are too stressed out and on edge, have a glass of wine and de-stress". Unfortunately, I AM AN ALCOHOLIC! I cannot drink one glass or two glasses of wine, I drink a lot and always feel like crap the next morning...I get up and swear I will not drink again, which is pretty easy on the day I feel like crap...however the next day I am right back to listening to my little voice at 4pm... I have looked for a meeting at 4pm...I have been to AA, but only open meetings. I don't like to go out at night time and there just don't seem to be many closed ones around me and NONE at 4pm. I don't mind the open ones, I just really think I need a sponsor and you can't really get one of those at the open meetings (at least I haven't been able to do so). Anybody like me? | ||
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Posted: January 11, 2014, 7:04 PM
Yep, try the AA + sponsor thing. I quit every morning. I just couldn't stop starting... You are on the right path--going to meetings is the beginning.
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Posted: January 12, 2014, 12:10 AM
Hi Liz
Welcome to the world of the alcoholic. Go to AA meetings. If it is a speaker meeting, grab the chairperson before or after the meeting and tell them you want their help to get a sponsor. If it is a discussion meeting ask for help during your chance to share. Do what you need to do and what is important to you. Keep coming back here. You will get good advice. If you follow it you will stay sober. It has worked for millions of us! Good Luck. E. -------------------- Let me love and serve and teach, Those who come within my reach. For miracles begin that way! Author: Sally Deford | ||
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Posted: January 12, 2014, 10:07 AM
Thanks skg and Seagull. I plan to keep coming back here. I get a lot from just reading and since I don't feel like I have a lot to contribute right now, I just view. I will take your advice Seagull and get a sponsor.
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Posted: January 12, 2014, 1:11 PM
Please Google and read/re-read "AA HOW IT WORKS". Pretty well everything you will need to know for the foreseeable future is in that simple 1 page document.
Get a sponsor and a home group. When you have questions about HOW IT WORKS just ask for sponsor or the Group's good oldtimers. All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: January 12, 2014, 10:10 PM
Hi Liz. Yup I am the same as you too. sober now for 3 years , accomplished that by becoming a member of AA, getting a sponsor and going to a treatment . One is too many a thousand not enough....the world of alcoholism.....keep coming back , you are not alone,...
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