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Posted: May 14, 2013, 9:22 AM
So I set about accepting my alcoholism and sank deeper into the quagmire, all the while wondering when I would die. I didn't know I had to come to a decision point where strength was gone, intellect was gone, dignity was gone, and the light was fading. I was, in all aspects, insane. Like Legion, the man in the story, I was a man of many personalities. Happy drunk, mad drunk, a restless, irritable and discontent dry drunk, stupid drunk, you-name-it-drunk. Alcohol had become a rapacious creditor and I was a shivering, drooling, shuddering denizen of his mad realm. And I have been restored (although I'm not sure I ever WAS sane) to a loving and caring husband, father, sponsor and friend. Through AA and letting go, surrendering my will and my ideas to hire a new pilot, I've found serenity and been rocketed (although it seems more like kite-flying because it hasn't come fast enough) into a new dimension of spiritual life. God is good and He will do it. Ask me how I know. -------------------- Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation. | ||
Posted: May 15, 2013, 6:53 AM
So I set about accepting my alcoholism and sank deeper into the quagmire, all the while wondering when I would die.
I can relate to all of your post but especially to this one particular sentence... I vividly remember just before daybreak one morning out on my patio drinking port wine as my straightener for the morning and wondering how many more of these would I have to down before it was all over.....by God's Grace and much help from people he put in my life to help me I don't have to wonder today.... -------------------- Thank God for what you have. Trust God for what you need |
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