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Posted: May 9, 2016, 12:44 PM
I am 3 days in going cold turkey from Codeine. I took 28+ 30mg pills each day. 60mg if ordered online. Today is the worst. How can it get any better. I want to die! I'm freezing (it's warm outside). I keep having to go upstairs to cry. Touch wood the restless legs haven't been bad. This is the 4th time I have gone through this in 16 years. It is taking me everything I've got to not go buy OTC and do a cold water extraction. I've lost my job because of this. Working in Pharmacy was probably not a good idea, but I was clean for ages and thought I could ignore it. I yearn for that warm opiate hug. It doesn't get better. I am filled with rage today. I could literally rip my hair out.
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Posted: May 9, 2016, 1:57 PM
What you're feeling is going to pass. Just try to get thru a few days. Get some Imodium and chamomile tea. Find a good book for something to take your mind off how you feel. A few days of hell is worth it to get to the other side. Good luck to you. You are strong enough to do this.
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Posted: May 9, 2016, 2:11 PM
Thankyou. I'm racked with guilt. I have Imodium and am drinking gallons. I've had a red hot shower which has helped. I am a mother and I feel terrible that I let this addiction get me again. It's like it wants me and won't let go until I give in. Doctors need to look at their prescribing rituals, I saw one 2 weeks ago who said this is rare! Rare?! Never done cold turkey before properly. I've weaned. I don't want to wean. Tomorrow is day 4. Fingers crossed.
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Posted: May 9, 2016, 5:42 PM
Getting clean/sober is hard. Staying clean/sober is very hard.
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Posted: May 10, 2016, 3:23 PM
Hi freeatlast
I completely understand what is happening to you, I was in the same position with codeine (700-800mgs) per day! I went cold turkey 3 times and I am never going back. It is the most terrible thing to go through, but please stay strong the awful depression and anxiety will eventually go and you will be back to normal. Its 2 weeks of hell but it will be worth it. I know every hour seems like a day. But hang in there and it will get better. I feel for you, you are not alone. Good luck and keep posting. Nick xx | ||
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Posted: May 10, 2016, 6:24 PM
hello
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Posted: May 10, 2016, 6:49 PM
Thankyou. I feel a bit better today. Never again will I touch the stuff!
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