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Posted: November 2, 2015, 10:16 AM
Hi
My husband and I got married a month ago. When we met 5 years ago, he was loving and sweet but sometimes got moody and depressed. I noticed his pupils were really small. So I asked him about drugs. He explained that he was on a methadone maintenance program as the injuries he suffered 10 years prior led to an oxy addiction. He was married then with children and did not want to lose time from work, so the doctors suggested methadone. I was shocked that any doctor would keep a person on methadone that long. I questioned him and got him to another doctor, who got him off the methadone and on suboxone. Big difference. no more mood swings, just his wonderful self all the time. The doctor said he would give him about a year on suboxone while weaning him down. At the time he was working so hard and not taking care of his health that he got diabetes. I said for him to take a leave of absence and eat properly and rest. His doctor said this would be a good time to stop the subs as he was going to stop working for a while. It gave him a month til the wedding. It was nervewracking because he wanted to give me a wonderful wedding. so he pushed through. We got married and it was terrific. But I know he is still not feeling too well. Lack of sleep, depression, not feeling motivated and he is feeling the pain of his injuries. He told me he does not feel any craving for drugs. But he said he feels the suboxone helped regulate the pain and made him emotionally feel happier. He has gotten the diabetes in better control with diet, and is back to work. He said if he does not feel better in a month he wants to consider going back on suboxone. He said he is 50 and does not want to lead a life where he feels depressed. He admitted that he felt better on Suboxone than even prior to the accident when he was never on anything. I do not know what to say. To me it seems like he finally broke free from meds and if he is not craving medication why go back on a drug for that?? I am really confused. I love him and want him to be happy but want him to give his body a chance to heal. Any thoughts or advice? I am really concerned. thanks! | ||
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Posted: November 3, 2015, 7:51 AM
Hi Kat -
I'm new to this site, but not to Suboxone. Since your husband says he does not crave using, I cannot stress enough how important I feel it is to not go back on once off. Very addictive! I would however, suggest he see a doctor or therapist about how he feels. I am sure there is some way to help him without the form of addictive medication. You may also want to make sure he actually isn't using. I've never been off of Suboxone but I am fairly certain that I wouldn't want to go back on it if I succeeded getting off of it. Unless of course, I was using or wanted to use. A psychiatrist can prescribe medication and assist him emotionally. That would be my first step. Best of luck to you and your husband. | ||
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Posted: November 5, 2015, 11:22 AM
Hi Kat,
This is my experience. Everyone is different and has differing opinions and experiences, but hopefully this will help. I had been on Suboxone for about 15 months. I took anywhere from 2 to 4 mgs per day. I am now on day 18 off Suboxone after tapering to a little under 2mgs a day for a month. Long term suboxone use (in my experience) is something that I highly discourage. It can be a very effective way to get off opiates (short term) as I did not feel the urge to take opiates while using suboxone. It also seemed like a miracle drug to help me sleep. But it shut down any drive I had. I was a different person and it has taken me the last 18 days of pure unadulterated hell to find that out. My legs are still shaking as I write this after 18 days, but I am past the worst part (I hope). If I had a different job than I have (I am my own boss) I do not think I could have gotten off it. Although your husband is not going to get high off suboxone and if he had an opiate issue, it is a less expensive and less destructive habit than opiates. But if you think trying to get off opiates is difficult, try getting off suboxone. I never did the research. I didn't want to. I felt better. It got rid of chronic pain. And I slept like a baby. I don't blame the medical profession for my utter stupidity and naivety in not doing research. It also killed my sex drive, my desire to work out, my desire to work, and I was a different person. Im not saying it didn't help me at first, but after a while its just another addiction with a catch. The catch is.... Can you endure the 2 week to 2 month of utter hell you are going to go through to get off this crap. At this point I don't want to take suboxone. I just want to feel normal. I want to sleep. I want to stop having to change my clothes 4 times a day and take two hot baths at night to prepare myself for the misery of not being able to sleep. But its not just that. At points you can't even sit down. You don't just have restless legs, you have restless body syndrome. And there is nothing better than taking a Benzo like Klonopin to help you sleep. Imagine your body now being on a drug that is trying to make you sleep, but you can't get comfortable enough to stop moving your body parts. Hell! If this has scared you than I did my job. I have selfishly put my wife through 18 days of hell and a year and a half of being a different man than she had married. Last night was the first night I was able to sleep in my bed and not have to get up and leave for my nightly shadow boxing matches. Drugs are selfish. And addicts brains are rewired to not think or care of the consequences that they cause others. Even if we acknowledge what we are doing we can't stop unless the decision is made by the user. In my opinion there is no amount of "How much someone loves you" or "Do this for your kids" that effects most users. That person that would look into his soul and change is not there anymore. And unless he can find himself, he may never be him or herself again. I don't know why I decided to stop taking suboxone. But I can tell you this. If I knew how hard the 18 days I just went through were going to be and maybe even the next 18 days are going to be I can tell you one thing: I still woulda done it. Because I am an addict. If he can' t or doesn't help himself you will never be able to help him. I wish you the best! This post has been edited by Doochie on November 5, 2015, 11:25 AM | ||
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