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Joined: December 3, 2014
Posted: August 4, 2015, 9:59 PM
Hi Shell
That's no good. Just keep trying and reaching out. I'm not in a good place either, I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. My therapists agrees. I've worked almost 13 years straight with 1 week off, had to battle the wds the whole way through. I'm in a partnership with work and can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's been almost 7 months clean now, but my anxiety is terrible. Today is the first time in a long time I feel like using.. I don't sleep anymore and making silly mistakes. I have this feeling something really bad is going to happen. | ||
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Joined: August 11, 2012
Posted: August 5, 2015, 9:25 AM
Don't let one bad day take away all you have worked so hard for. They say relapse happens way before it actually happens. Look deep inside and find out what's really hurting inside of you. This too shall pass.
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Joined: December 3, 2014
Posted: August 6, 2015, 7:23 PM
Crash.
Slit my wrists last night. Bummer woke up in hospital | ||
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Joined: October 23, 2011
Posted: August 6, 2015, 8:18 PM
That's where I was in 1989, Mike ... gun to my head after a failed attempt with pills.
I did a 90 day recovery home treatment and straight into AA/NA. It sounds like you are one of us (as described in AA's Big Book). The 12 Steps are just the ticket. I don't think anyone tried harder than you did. Now's the time to try the way millions of others do each day in our daily reprieve from addiction. As the home page of this website states: Recovery is a lifelong process. Peer group support systems like 12 step programs are critical for most. I wish you the best. Bob R This post has been edited by Papa Bear on August 6, 2015, 8:23 PM -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Joined: August 11, 2012
Posted: August 6, 2015, 9:42 PM
I hope you get the help that you need Mike.
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Joined: August 17, 2014
Posted: August 7, 2015, 1:38 PM
Hi Mike,
sorry your not doing good - hang in there - you are not alone Mike - let us know how you are doing - we are all rooting for you - all the best - | ||
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Posted: September 16, 2015, 4:30 PM
Hi Mike,
How are you doing? Thinking about you and hope your well!! Shellxx | ||
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Joined: October 23, 2011
Posted: September 16, 2015, 5:07 PM
I hope Mike is at a meeting.
Lots of meetings. All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Joined: October 21, 2015
Posted: October 21, 2015, 5:16 AM
Good day all. I am new to this page...well I have been following it for some time but just never plucked up the courage to join. I turned 37 this year, I am a single mother to a beautiful little girl. Just about the time of her birth I suffered a nervous break down. I'd lost my best friend to suicide and my boss was really trying to break me, which succeeded. Eventually ended up at a Psychiatrist who managed to treat my panic attacks and depression. I left my job, my relationship fell apart, and so I started using Codiene, for headaches at first (as I do suffer from migraines as well) but eventually it became my coping mechanism. I used it when I was happy, sad, nervous or stressed. After 5 years of using it on a daily basis I've decided that I need to quit. We come from a good upbringing, although, I have 2 siblings who are also addicts, but not to the same drug. I've tried quiting before and somehow just kept going back...putting it on the back burner as I just felt that will all the problems I'm facing, I couldn't deal with this too. I'm currently using 8 a day, it went up to as much as 12 and managed to bring it back down to 8. I tried tapering and it doesn't work for me. I am currently unemployed and in the process of moving, so I can not seek professional advise as I can not afford it. After reading some of your posts I've decided, today or never! I'm so nervous for what the withdrawls will bring and will be looking forward to as much support from the group as possible as I feel I will need it to get through. Thank you for sharing your stories as it has given me the courage to sign up, and join in to kick this habit. Much love to you all ;)
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Posted: November 3, 2015, 1:34 AM
9 months off Nurofen Plus. Thank god. Suboxone saved me and although i have to come off it eventually it is better than getting an other peptic ulcer.
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