Posted: April 8, 2014, 2:15 PM
hello people third try at getting the post to send excuse the writeing I lost thre letters at 2 hours long as im slow my user name is oweing as im allways oweing ive been a coke head for 11 years and trust me I hate that word it reminds me of that type of person that I didn't really like into I become one shame real shame please don't be offended any one ive just come down from a 7 day bender day an night and spent just over a 1000 pound ive been through 2 houses and just like lassie I keep moveing on and seem to do womens houses up as a peace offering just before they relize im a lieng but not cheating coke head ive exploited every one I meet and very good with words I make sure u hear what u want or make u fell good before I ruin there lifes as well as mine I cant stop coke and spend every penny ive stole been to prison been rehab and I no every thought process every mood swing and see how fake and crafty ive become I no how to lie to bosses partners and every excuse to cover up the devil in my head or powder up my nose I can tell u why u might be doing what your doing and were this might take u im a pro but but please im very grounded and street wize im not flash and are not boasting ok so don't get me wrong any way back to the 7 day bender I end up at a house I can remember the start and the end but not the middle I cant go out forget that after a while im to paronid on it now I don't drink on it that's right u heard don't drink hello crrrrraaaannnkkkk so im doing 150 to 200 a day for seven days and im looking at the curtain telling them ino your standing there watching me behind it two floors up looking at the other curtain thinking some ones watching me through the window I don't window twitch any more but afer not one line I have to do a half or a gramm in one line now I cant find a answer to my addiction its not just drugs its every thing I take to the extreme its all or nothing for me allways has been im addicted to porn when im on it but just flick because I think theres something better on th enext page ther never is I need help and just to finish by saying ive allways made a point of going with that motherly figure because im frail in my mind I walk the walk and talk the talk I dress smart because I hide underneath my cloths like a cape and toany one in a relationship were your both doing gear it never works if theres one of me there I don't no when to stop so after your little session lol be nice to each other the next day its just the Charlie blues I nned serious help even my brain is starting to go now thanks for listening to me in no shape or form do I glorify drugs its taken 3 of my best friends ive got two left one I don't see so much hes on the drink the other is straight thank the lordthnks allways oweing