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All the broken pieces

The more I drank the heavier my burdens became.. each drunk brought me more mistakes,more shame, more regret ,more remorse and more self loathing,then I would drink more to forget. It was a vicious cycle. I was broken. In recovery the pieces of my life are being put back together, by the program of AA ,by a loving and Kind God of my understanding and when I began to see myself as a child of his then I learned to have self love and was able to forgive myself for my mistakes..I see evidence of this God every day in my recovery life from the people whom he put in my life to the beauty that is around me..I may have been broken but today I can use my brokenness to help others which is why I come here to give support as well as find it... If I can help one person with my music then all my broken pieces were worth it. There is no need to suffer, there is no need to be broken. You CAN have all your broken pieces put back together..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZdSlbOTrCo

You raise me up.

Sometimes my past comes back to haunt me.. It is at times like that when I work my program to the fullest and the 4th and 5th step is something that I redo on several occasions... but it keeps me sober. Thank God for the program and my sponsor because without it the voices in my head can lead me to places where I don't want to be.... I am not that drunk addict from the past,,.I have a disease but I am not my disease... Now that I am sober I am the real me..You can be the real you too, RECOVERY will give you that. and for the times the past comes to haunt me all I have to do is reach out and I am raised up with new strength, new HOPE and the love that I have found in my God and the AA program and my sponsor who is one of the greatest blessings in this life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oni0tO_HN30

HERE I AM.

This song defines me....Christmas 2007 I had reached the bottom.. On the 4th of January 2008 in desperation ,drunk and in so much emotional pain I cried out loud in despair to God that if he were real to help me. Almost immediately I felt a presence. I did not see or hear anything and there were no bright lights or rolls of thunder...but a presence and the stillness ..it was as if the world had stopped...so still and as if a blanket of peace was wrapped around me... I cannot describe it because there are no words to do so. Earlier that morning when I got drunk I had no intention of going in recovery, my intention and I thought my only solution was to die drinking.God had other plans. By his Grace Here I am today.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pu_ujAHrAQo

I saw the light.

IN addiction we wander like blind men.. not seeing what harm we are doing to our families, to ourselves,to our lives..For some of us the bottom which is our darkest hour literally leads us to our knees and something happens within us where we see the light..when that happens the journey of recovery begins... Praise the LORD I saw the light...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKfvZPizuwQ

Who am I?

Music was always a great love of mine... Back in early recovery I was in a Recovery chat room.. There I met a friend named T..He gave me much support and we talked of music and he introduced me to the Casting Crowns... this was one of the first songs I listened to.. from that song I became a fan of Casting Crowns and from that time I listened and identified with a lot of their songs.and it paved the way for my love of many Christan songs...I get support and strength from music and I feel close to my HP through my music... It has been a source of healing for me..I believe God knows my love of music and he has used it to help me and I can now use it to help others who love music as much as I do... Who am I that God would care so much about me? it is because I am a child of God and for that reason I am loved unconditionally . Thank you T...(Lineman) for the music.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBcqria2wmg

This post has been edited by pirate on June 27, 2013, 8:20 AM

this one has helped me get through some tuff times in recovery.
Garry Allen - Every storm runs out of rain

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If it wasn't the whiskey it would be something else. It was me killing me, things I couldn't forget, things I couldn't remember, guilt, fear and not knowing how to deal with life on life's terms. That's what this song reminds me of. I love this guys voice, you can feel the pain he has felt in his voice.
Gary Allen - It aint the whiskey

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Here I am here to worship.

I have 34 months of sobriety today.. Glory and Grace to my loving God... I am here to worship and give thanks and to acknowledge the one from whom set me free from the chains of alcohol. from whom my power comes.... but for the Grace of God.........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qizjskhez68

Daddy thank you. I get the feeling that you like music as much as me!

Today's song is Dear Sobriety.

I can so relate to this song because I have lived it.. I relapsed after having 19 months of sobriety and then continued to binge drink after that. It would be a year later before I would go to a treatment center and get off the booze and the pills that I was taking... when I heard this song it took me back to that day when I poured the wine for the first time in 19 months... I cringe to think of it. If any of you out there ever wonder what it would be like to drink again you don't need to.. it gets worse and it takes you straight back to hell from which you escaped. I brought my family so much hurt and pain and I almost died in the process. .. I make my amends by staying sober..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AM6pr4tZu8I

your absolutely right Pirate, it only gets worst. i found myself sitting in my truck during my last relapse playing this one over and over. Swimming in self pity, poor me, why me, blah, blah.....

"in this world inside my head" - "trying to escape to freedom from the only freedom ive ever known."
i can relate.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26l8FDmWeZ4

You're the world

When I was actively drinking there were days I wished I had never been born and I wished I I were dead. I felt so alone and had such self loathing. We are not alone but our disease would like to have us think that way, we have family and friends who love us. and to them we are the world.. If you are still suffering it is time to stop, YOU ARE someones world and it is time their suffering stop too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCb5Eo-Dats

I like this thread. Music also helps me on my recovery. Below is the link on my favorite song that makes me cry and feel so close to God.


http://youtu.be/mBcqria2wmg

Thank you daddy and myjade. I love music and and if I can help one person get HOPE ,If I can inspire even one person to seek recovery or continue on the journey of recovery than my purpose for this thread will be accomplished........

Today"s song .BETTER THAN I WAS BEFORE..

Progress not perfection we learn...I am not perfect but I am better than I was before.I'v changed and I am not the same as I was... ...ask anyone who knows me lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5fuPorePQP4

The lord is my shepherd.

Many many nights I could not sleep,as a result I got addicted to sleeping pills,and any other pill that would cause drowsiness.. from prescribed sleeping pills, relaxers, over the counter sleeping pills, gravol, benadryl,muscle relaxers.. you name it and I took it. the last month of using I was using demoral. All of these meds I took when I had 19 months alcohol free which contributed GREATLY to my relapses... In 2010 I entered a treatment center where I was admitted for a month... I have not taken a drink and I have not taken a pill in almost 3 years. It took months for me to sleep properly without any meds. It was difficult times for me and it was those times that I called on my Lord for the strength,and the courage I needed to get past those trying times.With his help, his guidance and healing I am a sober and clean woman today. I am so blessed.... I am so blessed for all I have today because the lord is indeed my shepherd

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-qLa_2GPcM

If I could just sit with you for a while.

Addiction has robbed me of so much in my life which is why when I came to this site I called myself pirate because i robbed myself and hurt myself for so many years. In my recovery I have had many days where I needed to feel close to God. I find that in my music. I find it in the rooms of AA..I find it with my sponsor and the people and friends who support me.. . I find it here on this board.. it's in the pain I have experienced and it's in the Grace I have been given.
When I post my music I hope it will touch someone who will listen,, I believe this song will tell someone that you are not alone... you have someone to sit with you for a while with forgiveness, unconditional love and Grace , your creator loves you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUZZbFTNRXI

One day at a time.

One drunk at a time got me to Hell. In AA I have learned that one day at a time I can get out..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DlDmJ1v5SXE

You are worthy of my praise

yesterday while driving I had the pleasure of seeing wild flowers growing on each side of the highway. so pretty and the sight filled me with peace and serenity and much gratitude. I said a prayer of thanks for such beauty.There was a time I would not even have noticed,there was a time when I would not even had been driving , we miss out on such beauty of creation when we are behind locked doors with our head in a bottle and our a** on a pity pot. I praise God those days are gone.... If that is where you are today, it is time to stop and smell the roses.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJTs2Yv4Rhs

Drinking from my saucer

In my recovery I have learned to be grateful and I am grateful to be grateful if that makes any sense. I have come to appreciate all the good in my life and for all my blessings that in my drinking days I took for granted.. There were days I cursed my life and the days that blended together in a fog..I was blind to see what I had while I was drinking from the bottle.. now I drink from the saucer. This song describes my journey.......come drink from the saucer with me:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1gvQq2iyqI

I do believe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y04c6YBeL4