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Posted: January 26, 2016, 7:16 PM
I was hit by a car while I was walking home in 2006. It was a drunk driver. She destroyed my life. I lost everything. I lost my ability to walk, talk, go to the bathroom, basically just function. Then I started to learn these things over. Except it was 3 years and a giant painkiller addiction later. Now after all these years I am as normal as I will ever be. I need canes to walk, people can't understand how I talk much of the time. I lost my wife because I refused to stop drinking while taking my meds. My daughter who is 21 and pregnant with my grandson wants nothing to do with me. I have realized I am in serious trouble. Trouble I cannot get out of without help.Yet sometimes I look over the GGB or the Spaggetti Bowl, and can't help but think jumping is the only way to be free. I don't know if anyone reads this post anymore I just nowhere else to turn.
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Posted: January 26, 2016, 8:39 PM
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I, too, had basically lost the will to live in 1989. In AA & NA I found recovery from drugs & alcohol, a family of recovering folks and a relationship with a Higher Power that I could never had imagined . Call your local AA & NA numbers and go to the meetings. What do you have to lose? All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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