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Posted: May 14, 2012, 10:52 AM
i been where you are you can change..if you put in to staying clean what you put in to getting high you will make it
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Posted: May 18, 2012, 3:24 PM
Oh I am sorry I must disagree,
I had to put a hell of alot more into recovery, but so far it has been worth it and if things keep going the way they are I would almost be willing to say I have no regrets about my past. Gonna be a Grandfather in 3 wks and I am actually invited to be there. God is good. Regards, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: May 18, 2012, 6:52 PM
Larry!!! Congratulations! You will not even believe how wonderful this grandparent business is...my grandson turns two today and we are just in love with him...you will be, too. SO happy for you and yours =D
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Posted: May 22, 2012, 10:03 AM
I am a grandfather. Going to see them tomorrow. I am so proud of both of my daughters and I must admit my EX did a wonderful job raising them in my absence, for that I will always be grateful.
Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: May 22, 2012, 12:19 PM
Congratulations Grandpa. Another Miracle!!!!
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Joined: December 14, 2009
Posted: October 23, 2012, 11:53 AM
The Journey continues.....
Mid Terms for this recoveredcrackhead.... Alclsm/Subst Abuse Counslr....B Human Life Science 1............B Chemical Dependencies..........B Eval/Meas-Beh Sci................A Aerobic Fitness.....................A Tai Chi................................A Things are looking better everyday, Thanks be to God. Regards, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: October 24, 2012, 7:59 AM
Go Larry =) Always good to see you pop in here with good news...you are one of the miracles...
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Posted: February 4, 2013, 12:42 PM
Semester #4...internet at home....and the Ravens won..life is good.
Please don't think me ungrateful, but....I am not a miracle, but I do try to share them. Miracles are expressions of love and fascilitated by God. Therefore, well, look at me...this college kid is a grandfather.(and I have $20 or more in my pocket) Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: February 4, 2013, 5:35 PM
You sound exceedingly grateful to me, Larry =)
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Posted: March 6, 2013, 9:01 AM
OMG,
What a difference a month make. One can go from heaven to hell really fast. Generally I stuff, hence, shortly before my last post my apartment was flood. (Jan 28) It is still not fully repaired and can't be occupied. Two weeks later I found out the benefits that have been helping me through school will no longer be available,(fine, I'll get a job or take a loan) So I have been staying with my GF of three years. She actually lives in the ajoining apt. (conveneint, we planned it that way) 8 days ago she left to go smoke crack, she has not returned, she is now $100 in the whole and she gets her money on the first. Now I am informed that she wants me out before she returns and the landlord is siding with her. Please understand when we moved in we undertook need renovations. I have re-paint my GF apartment, installed a new tub/shower surround, stripped the hardwoor floors,they aren't done because of the flood. But I have replaced MY kitchen floor, trying to speed up the process. I know she has been in the apartment once while I was out and am afraid to go to school. Looking for the silver lining. Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: March 10, 2013, 12:42 PM
Recovery coaching is a new way of looking at addiction and recovery that focuses on working with the recoveree where he is at. It was developed by the Connecticut Community for Addiction Recovery (CCAR) in 2008 and since then, more than 2,500 addiction counselors and others have enrolled in Recovery Coach training. CCAR has found that when recoverees participate in coaching after in- or out-patient treatment, their rates of relapse decline several-fold compared with recoverees who don't. In 2013, City of Angels introduced the 30-hour CCAR Recovery Coach training, and will run two more classes during the year. For more details about the class and this approach to maintaining recovery: http://www.cityofangelsnj.org/recov...overycoach.html
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Posted: August 10, 2013, 10:52 AM
Would you believe they made this recoveredcrackhead the treasurer of my AA homegroup.
Wonders never cease. Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: November 15, 2013, 6:27 PM
Spent Oct in Jail.
My crackhead ex-fiance and the crackhead upstairs conspired to have this party pooper removed. Had to withdraw from school and a whole host of other mis-givings. Neary a resentment tho'. The Lord works in mysterious ways. That said, my new outlook, my new mantra and my new journal..."It takes a lifetime" What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, as wisdom is gained from experience. I just started reading (again) Og Mandino's Greatest Salesman in the World . The scroll marked #1 "Today I begin a new life. Today I shed my old skin, which hath, too long, suffered the bruises of failure and the wounds of mediocrity. Today I am born anew and my birthplace is a vineyard where there is fruit for all. Today I will pluck grapes of wisdom from the tallest and fullest vines in the vineyard, for these were planted by the wisest of my profession who have come before me, generation upon generation. Today I will savor the taste of grapes from these vines and verily I will swallow the seed of success buried in each and new life will sprout within me. The career I have chosen is laden with opportunity yet it is fraught with heartbreak and despair and the bodies of those who have failed, were they piled one atop another, would cast its shadow down upon all the pyramids of the earth. Yet I will not fail, as the others, for in my hands I now hold the charts, which will guide me through perilous waters to shores, which only yesterday seemed but a dream." Be Well, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: November 20, 2013, 12:27 PM
There is no failure except in the not trying.
Wisdom, unfortunately, is gained through experience. And as we make our way through life many of the difficulties we experience, it is learned, only happen because we fail to see. We fail to see other options or we fail to see the part we play. When we hear WE must change sometimes we think about how to change our enviroment (people, places & things). This can be helpful, but it is NOT ourselves. It took along time for me to realize, that if I am an addict and wish not to be I can no longer be "me". I had to decide wether to be "cool" and suffer or be average and happy. It took a long time for me to realize that in trying to be cool, I was trying to be something I wasn't and what that was, was happy with myself. It took some searching, not around town, nor on the internet, but searching inside of myself. It's not easy, nor is it qiuck, but becoming who we really are certainly is more comfortable. When you decide to look for yourself, you'll realize whats truely important. There is no majic words or buttons to push. It takes work and above all...it takes a lifetime to become who we really are. Be well, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: December 14, 2013, 9:43 AM
Good Saturday Morning,
The day finds me in good spirits if not a bit chilly. It's 5 degrees and I have already been out on the bike. My daughters will be picking my up in a couple of hours so that we may bring my granddaughter to visit my grandmother. (That's a 5 generation difference). After which I shall return to the church for more cleaning and organizing. We will have our peer-to-peer meeting and then I move to another room for the AA meeting. Our church is very concerned and helpful when it comes to recovery, but also very hands off. There are no religious reqiurements attatched to either groups usage of the facilities. Speaking of which I have been given permission to use the gym for basketball and volleyball. I am excited. I shall also try to start a social-night with board games. Time to get ready for the kids. Be Well, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: February 20, 2014, 9:12 AM
"Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult - once we truly understand and accept it - then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters."
M. Scott Peck Kinda sums it all up. Going to court shortly. Be well, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: April 8, 2014, 9:02 PM
Just bumping for Sam & Oweing,
Thought perhaps you could use a good read about this recoveredcrackheads journey back into life. i am piosed to take a new job, first one in 6yrs. Hopefully the first one in 20 yrs where I won't spend the check on crack. For I have lost everything and more. But I now know it is possible to return to the real world and love life. Be Well, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: July 12, 2014, 3:15 PM
Larry, I am a suffering addict, who in desperation stumbled upon this site and your posts. I have read from beginning to end, and I am overjoyed that there is hope for those of us who still suffer. I hope that you will continue to post here, because it has become a great inspiration to me on my road to recovery. I usually get high every 3-4 days, and today is day 4. I do not, however, have the desire to use today. My guilt is heavy thinking about all of the misery I have caused my loved ones. What mystifies me, though, is why I am not as concerned about all of the suffering I have caused myself. If you have any information to share on this I would be forever grateful. I will keep in touch.
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Posted: July 13, 2014, 7:09 AM
Thank you, Ron
I can certainly relate to what you're talking about. It's almost like we become willing to sacrafice ourselves for this drug. and it will kill us. I unfortunately had to lose everything before I decided to make the changes need. Have you taken any steps to change? Be well, Larry -------------------- All gods send their drunks to AA My story.. https://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=16&t=63644
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Posted: July 28, 2014, 5:56 PM
Hello,Iam reading these words of encouragment for the first time and Iam an addict whom been striving to stay clean from crack and alcohol for years for so long I have been in denial thinking I could stop whenever I wanted to. I lied to myself and others around me. I stayed clean many times before for a good bit of time but never followed all the sugguestions of the peoples in the program when they talked about stay away from people,places,and things. This has always caused me to relapse. It has caused me alot of setbacks and hurt inside and resentments of myself and others.I found it hard to let go of old playmates due to the fear that no one in recovery would want to associate with me due to my relapes. However Iam reaching out to Larry. If you are still out there please help me to learn how to be alright with myself. I have had a year last year which was from october 18,2012 to october 2013. I felt very good about myself. Then life showed up and I had to change my living arrangements and became fearful and panicky not knowing where I was going to live. I ended up living in a rooming house where the lady renting the rooms was also acrack dealer.I felt at that time I had to stay where ever I could thinking my urge for using was gone.But Im sure you know what happened next. I haven`t been able to get more than 28 days clean. for the same reasons. I want my recovery real bad please help me. sign E.craig
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