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Posted by: justjane April 9, 2012, 10:59 AM
How did your weekend go? Weekends were the worst for me for trying to quit smoking and or other things. Did ya make it?

Posted by: cowgirl April 9, 2012, 1:06 PM
No <cringe>. I did not. I had a million excuses too. Why it was too stressful for me not to smoke. My latest excuse is that Jake moved from home and is in student housing in a not very nice area of Seattle. I swear, I don't sleep at night anymore.

I have a new plan. Because I won't give up. April 28th is my clean date. Might as well make it my stop smoking date too. I have everything I need to start that day. If I can do it before then, then all the better. I just know that I can't stop trying.

I'm starting to look at cigs as though they are heroin. The more I want to quit, the more I think about it, the more I want to smoke. What is up with that?

Thanks for checking on me Jane. Means alot..I love you man.

Posted by: justjane April 9, 2012, 2:46 PM
Love you too friend. I agree, the only way you can loose is to stop trying. So just keep on keepin on. Heroin. Yup, I've come off of every kind of drug out there and cigarettes were very hard. I doon't think it compares to being dope sick. But its, its own little hairy beasty animal. Not fun. But doable.

Posted by: cowgirl April 10, 2012, 1:06 PM
I didn't mean to make it sound like being dope sick, no, I know it's no where near that...it's the anxiety that gets me. That craving turns into panic. These inhalers I have seem to work the best so that's what I'll stick with to start with. They have a calming effect.

Every day I smoke one less. I'm keeping a journal about it, that was a suggestion by my sponsor who is a non smoker. It's helping. Nicotine is a drug, right? So I'm treating it like one.

((hug)))

Posted by: MomNMore April 10, 2012, 2:51 PM
It's about behaviors and triggers, not about the drug...always about the behaviors and the control...

You can do this.

Posted by: cowgirl April 11, 2012, 12:16 PM
But isn't the drug about behaviors and control? The drug controls us and causes the behaviors?

Anyway you look at it, you're right, change the behaviors and hopefully, the rest will follow.


Posted by: cowgirl April 23, 2012, 12:32 PM
Today is the last Monday I will smoke. This will be the last week that I will smoke.

One less every day. By Sunday, I'll be done and using just the inhalers. I am ready. I am excited, I want this. I don't want to stink anymore. I don't want to die before I'm ready. I want to be a good role model for my 2 older boys and really don't want my grandkids to see me smoke ever again.

I can do this. Cigarettes do NOT have power over me.

I can, I can do this.

Posted by: MomNMore April 23, 2012, 3:09 PM
Yeah you can...totally...good attitude buddy =)

Posted by: cowgirl April 24, 2012, 12:51 PM
Thanks S. You know how much your written word means to me.. :)

I did what I said I would do yesterday and will do it again today. I keep having these internal battles of will with myself. I am stronger than this, no you're not, it's an addiction. blah blah blah.

What I need to remember is that at my age, time goes so fast. It was just Friday and here is it Tuesday. When I quit on Sunday, it'll already be Wednesday.

I have a list of stuff that I've been putting off doing, cleaning rooms and closets..that's what I'll keep myself busy with until I drop. I will read the threads here every time I get a craving. Especially Jane's...

I do want this. I am so ready.

Posted by: cowgirl April 25, 2012, 11:48 AM
Yesterday I smoked one less. Down to 4 a day now. I'm taking a certain time that I smoke and eliminated it from the day. Behaviors. Breaking behaviors.

I actually had an anxiety attack about quiting this weekend. How stupid is that? Maybe I should just get it over with and stop torturing myself? This is my way of weaning and it never worked for me before...

We'll see what today brings.

I've been on websites this morning about what smoking does to you...haven't smoked yet. Maybe printing out those images and taping them all over the house will do the trick.

Posted by: MomNMore April 25, 2012, 1:09 PM
Here's a good question...

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Posted by: cowgirl April 26, 2012, 11:57 AM
Oh gross.

But yea, those are the kind of warnings I've been seeing and reading. They aren't just a ploy to get us to quit, they are true. I can't even imagine what my lungs look like.

The first thing I think about when I wake up is, I am quitting smoking on Sat. Only 3 more days to smoke. Then I get into an argument with myself about what a good thing that is. The anxiety of this is stupid. Just like quitting pills, it's like losing an old friend. A friend that's killing me.

I think they should market cig packs like they do in other countries. With pictures of people dying of cancer and dead babies. Ok, well, maybe not the baby part but give people something to think about before they smoke. I wish I'd never started.

Posted by: Jessi L April 28, 2012, 10:49 AM
Hi,

How is everyone today? I started trying to taper off smoking about a week ago. Yesterday I had a doctors appointment and on the way I brought a pack of cigs. I was so mad at myself. I was down to like 2 a day and than yesterday I smoked a half a pack. Anyway, I plan on starting over today. Hopefully I will keep it down to 4 or 5 today and then 2 or 3 tomorrow and then one and then none. LOL! Sounds so easy when I write it down. But it fills me with panic. The doctor want to start treating me for my Hep C. The first thing he wanted to know is if I drink, smoke or do drugs. Its really bad for me, cause the Hep effects my liver and any of that will make it worse. I have to stop now. Its so ridiculous that I know what it is doing to me and I dont stop. We are not starting treatment until Sept. Its supposed to be kinda bad so I wanted to wait till my daughter goes to college. I have too much to do before then. But I have to quit NOW. No more putting it of off. I want to live, and I want to be as healthy as I can be....I took my dogs for a walk this morning. I usta do that a lot more. They were so happy. I felt guilty. I cant just sit around smoking or eating to get over the fact that I dont have crack and dope. I want to get up every day and walk my dogs and I want to be able to breath while I do it.

Hey CG! Today is your day, right? Im thinking about you, praying for you and cheering you on. :)

Posted by: Jessi L April 29, 2012, 10:39 AM
Well my saving cigs for myself didnt quite work the way I planned. I was supposed to have 5 for today and 3 for the next day and maybe 1 for the day after that. But here I am with 3 cigs. I feel panic coming over me and I hate it. This is what always happens. I freak out and buy cigs......I dont want to. I am fighting. I do have a bunch of patches. I was gonna try to do it without them but maybe not. They do help. They get you usta not having a cig in your hand.

I havent smoked yet today and I feel a little crazy But I DID walk my dogs again. I am very happy about that. Thats the kind of person I want to be. The kind of person who gets up EVERYDAY and goes for long walks with the dogs....without feeling out of breath. I want to be healthy.

Ok, Im gonna go eat breakfast. Hope you guys are doing well.

Posted by: cowgirl April 30, 2012, 11:46 AM
What I found Jess, is that trying to taper cigarettes didn't work any better than trying to taper pills. I would find so many excuses to smoke more than I had planned. It's a viscious cycle. I allowed myself one last week to smoke, set a date and then smoked my (hopefully) last cigarette the night before. So, Sunday, yesterday, I didn't smoke all day. I haven't yet today either. I have no cigarettes in the house, what few I did have left, I broke into tiny little pieces, leaving nothing at the filter to smoke and I'm not going anywhere today until my husband gets home to help me take the dogs to the vet. I don't trust myself to go anywhere by myself yet. I do have the nictrol inhaler and it works pretty damn good. I only had one melt down yesterday late afternoon. The sound of my husband's voice was starting to get really annoying. I just needed him to stop talking and when he didn't, I had to tell him to do so and then ran out of the room yelling the F word. Lasted about 20 seconds and then I cried and was ok. It's not him and he knows it's not. It's the cravings, the emotions, the frustration. I felt so much better afterward.

Today I'm calm. Surprisingly. I want this so damn bad that after gettting a little more than 24 hours under my belt, I'm not giving it back.

Today I am a non smoker.

Posted by: Jessi L April 30, 2012, 6:13 PM
Thats what happened to me today....Big fight with my mom, my daughters sad about something and wont tell me what it is so after screaming at my mom. My daughter sent me a text and I started crying unfortunately, I did have to go out and I did get cigs....but Im not gonna give up trying or wanting to stop. I am going to do this....Just sadly not today.

Tomorrows my daughters 18th bday. I want her to be happy and my heart is breaking that something bad is going on with her and she wont share it with me. Hopefully I can get her to smile tomorrow. I spent the whole day going to walmarts looking for the exact bike she wants for college. Finally found it but I had to wait for them to put it together. Im so tired. I have a really pretty cake planned for her. Hopefully I can pull it of. It has lots of piping detail. Its so nice. the top almost looks like a lace doily and I brought some pre-done red icing roses. Should be great.

Keep up the good work! Im proud of you!

Love, Jessi

Posted by: cowgirl May 1, 2012, 11:39 AM
Anxiety, stress, even just life can get in your way if you let it. But just like quitting drugs, we have to want this bad enough. Just because it's legal, doesn't make it healthy or ok.

Yes, I am officially on my soap box now when it comes to smoking. Took 3 days and I'm the smoke natzi. It's the only way I can do this, to keep convincing myself that I am not a smoker..everyone will just have to bear the wrath for awhile. I did this when I quit in 1985, pregnant with my second. If you smoked around me, you were more than sorry.

Just don't let one excuse after another keep you from not trying every day. Even if you fail, tomorrow's a clean slate and another chance. I really don't think I could have done it without these Nicotral inhalers though. Cold turkey from nicotine is just cruel. I haven't had to use it yet today, so it's not something I plan on using for much longer.

Remember Jess, you do this for you, no one else. And if you can't today, then you can't. But give yourself a date and try to stick to it.

How did your daughter's birthday turn out? Did she like the bike?

(hugs)

Posted by: cowgirl May 2, 2012, 12:23 PM
Day 4. I am really doing this. I think I got to 2 weeks at one point but had slipped a few times during those 2 weeks so they don't count. Today is 4 days without smoking period.

It's amazing how much better my chest feels already. My sense of smell is coming back and that's not always a good thing in this house. One thing I do notice is my closet. It smells like cigarettes. Do I have to wash everything in there? Going to try Frebreeze and see if that helps. I did wash all my coats and bedding.... I could smell it on my pillows and comforter.

How long before I get to say I'm truly a non smoker? Breathing in God and letting out all the bs is helping too. I usually poo poo that stuff but it works, by God, it works.

Posted by: MomNMore May 2, 2012, 10:04 PM
Wash the clothes, or put them outside...I hung mine on the line and even hung my stuff on hangers in trees for half a day or so...it helped a lot. Weather's nice, go ahead...

Definitely wash the bedding...that crap you smell is toxic chemicals that have gotten into your fibers...second-hand smoke is no joke and it's not just about the actual smoke. There's a good deal of evidence that babies should not be held by smokers unless they have changed their clothes, or at least any clothing that they will put their little faces in....that stuff is carbon monoxide, formaldehyde, arsenic, all kinds of nasty...and babies breathe it in off of clothing that smells that strongly.

You ARE a non-smoker...wash that stuff and it will feel great. xo

Posted by: cowgirl May 3, 2012, 12:23 PM
I just don't understand how it got on my clothes so badly? Was it coming out of my pores? I never smoked without this one jacket on...washed it regularly. Of course I understand that if it got in my hair (of which there is lots), it would transfer to my pillows. Ick.

Everything is going outside today.

And you are right about the second hand smoke, I never thought of it being in my house though because I never smoked in the house. Jesus, what have I done?

I had my car detailed last night. It smells brand new. He put some kind of cherry wood enzyme in it so it completely nuetralized the smoke smell. I love my car again. Truck in next. That's one thing I did do was smoke in the car and truck. What a moron.

If this isn't more of a reason to quit, I don't know what is. Putting children at risk is the lowest of lows.

Posted by: MomNMore May 3, 2012, 12:29 PM
Well, if you wore any of those clothes in the car, then they would smell like the car. I was an inveterate car smoker, too...that's where I did most of my smoking, on the way to and from work.

Good for you for doing things to keep your non-smoking self on the front burner...all this stuff advances your process...I'm proud of you. You sound different this time.

xo ~S

Posted by: cowgirl May 4, 2012, 11:48 AM
Spent the day febreezing and hanging stuff outside on the line. Stuff really does smell better. I made it to 6 days today. Why is it different this time? Because I really wanted it. I didn't make any excuses or leave myself any outs. I'm staying accountable. That and I haven't left the house except once (alone) so that I won't be tempted to buy cigarettes. Staying home and staying busy has been really productive. My house hasn't looked this good in a long time. I've been purging...if I haven't used it or seen it in 6 months, donation pile it went.

I would say that this helps most of all..stay busy.

Thanks S. You're a good friend.

Posted by: cowgirl May 5, 2012, 12:54 PM
Day 7. A whole week. No little slip ups, no little nothing, I went a whole week and did not smoke nor do I want too.


LIttle miracles everywhere I look.

Posted by: MomNMore May 5, 2012, 6:26 PM
Yay!

Posted by: cowgirl May 15, 2012, 12:04 PM
Today is day 18. I no longer need the nictrol inhalers...I think I did it. I think I can safely say that I am done. When I smell cigarettes now, I just hate it, don't want it.

But, not taking any chances..still ask God for one more day.

Posted by: Jessi L May 15, 2012, 2:42 PM
Im so proud of you.


I think Im ready too. Yesterday I smoked 3. Today I still have one but I havent touched it. I feel good. I feel like I can really do it.....Thanx for doing it first. You gave me hope. Ive spent today praying and singing every church song I could remember. I just keep saying "I dont want to die, I WANT TO LIVE" I feel strong.


Jessie

Posted by: cowgirl May 16, 2012, 12:31 PM
Jessi..you can do it honey, if I can, anyone can. I was/am that addicted. Cold turkey is hard so don't beat yourself up if you slip just don't leave yourself any outs and tell everyone you know that you've quit. It's really embarressing to light up after you've told people you don't smoke anymore. HA!

I feel so blessed, so inspired by all the women on this site that did it before me. I just kept reading what they wrote, every day. Thank you Jane, Stacey and S. My heros.

Posted by: Jessi L May 17, 2012, 9:24 AM
Hi CG,

Im a little depressed and miserable today. Part of it is not smoking but I think an even bigger part is no coffee. Im not trying to not drink coffee I just cant right now cause it makes me want to smoke.

Oh Yeah! YAY!!! I made it all day yesterday without a cig! I really am proud and its not completely cold turkey. Im on a really low dose nicotine patch. But I was smoking like a pack a day....so Im still miserable. Its ok. I know its different this time. I really do not want to smoke anymore. Ive gotten of crack and dope. I know I can do this. Its so much better than being dope sick....but Im depressed and so tired...maybe Ill just sleep for a few days.

You are doing AMAZING! So happy for you,
Jessi

Posted by: 24Gordon May 17, 2012, 11:46 AM
Congrats, Lisa. That's huge. I remember at the 3 week mark, I knew deep down that I was done & if I was to pick up, just one, I'd never get this far again. So, one day at a time, I am still a non-smoker & loving all of the freedoms that come from it.....

You are a success. Enjoy your non-smoking status~!

And Jessi, I used the gum for around 2-3 weeks, my body needed the low dose of nicotine. The good news was at around 2-3 weeks, when I quit the gum, I didn't have any withdrawls at all.

Just for today, don't smoke....xoxo

Posted by: MomNMore May 17, 2012, 11:55 AM
Yeah it is! Lisa, I'm so proud of you. Isn't it funny how we make it such a big freakin' deal...and then it's not anymore? And isn't it surprising how quickly the smell becomes gross? You are a non-smoker!

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Posted by: cowgirl May 17, 2012, 12:04 PM
HA! I used to have that poster in my office at school..too funny.

I'm glad that you are using the patch Jessi..that will help. And being tired? Me too! I fall asleep on the couch at any given time, it's wierd. But it is getting better, day by day. Stress is a real trigger for me and yesterday was make it or break it time. Long story but my son flew to Alaska last night hopefully to bring his kids home. I got through it, lots of deep breathing, lots of talking out loud and not trying to stuff how I was feeling.

Thank you Stace. Means alot. You girls have had a real hand in this.

I walked through somone's exhaled smoke the other day in the store parking lot and almost said something..almost. lol I had to remember that I was a smoker and there's nothing worse than having somebody give you crap about something you already know is bad for you. None of my business, sweep my own porch.

Posted by: Jessi L May 18, 2012, 8:27 AM
Good-Morning, Friends!

This is the start of day 3 smoke free...Im so happy. I hated smoking I mean I loved it too of coarse, but I really hated it. I hated the way I smelled, I hated how my daughter would pick on me every time one of those smoking commercials came on with dead or dying people...Im grateful for that too. I would just feel so bad...so guilty. I even hated the taste and I really hated having to go out to our nasty, dirty, mouse infested garage to smoke...but I guess Im grateful for that now too. I dont have to go through too much in this house smelling like smoke.

My 14 year old is coming home for the weekend. Im a little worried cause I have gone back to smoking a couple of times before when he came home. He is very hard to deal with and I get frustrated. Im gonna do better this time. Ive already decided in my head how I will handle things differently this time.

Well I am getting really sleepy. So have a good day everyone.

Jessi

Posted by: cowgirl May 21, 2012, 12:10 PM
Saturday my son came home from Alaska, divorced. It's over, finally. Focus is now on the kids where it belongs. They'll be here soon. So much drama, trauma...stress nearly did me in. I have to learn how to do this different. I get too involved, wanting to fix it immediatly and I hurt so bad when things don't go in the kid's favor. But I didn't smoke. I didn't go back to old behaviors, I tried new ones. Quitting any substance that's addictive is all about behaviors. Allowing your brain enough time to heal so that we can do better now that we know better. I'm on edge today but I'm ok. I know what to do and am so grateful that I can do that.

Posted by: Jessi L May 24, 2012, 6:14 PM
Hi,

Well I quit last Tuesday or Wednesday...I messed up on Sunday but Im happy to say that I did not give up. Today is day 4 and Im feeling pretty good...well I have completely lost it a few times but Im doing it and Im outta patches so this is it. I am completely nicotine free. Its hard. I want a cigarette but I do believe I can get passed this cause I want to live more. I want to someday have grand-kids and get to be there for them. I dont want to die. I dont want to stink, and I dont want to wake up coughing everyday. That is getting better already.

Thats it. I just wanted to say Hi! :)

Posted by: cowgirl May 25, 2012, 12:02 PM
I'm really proud of you Jessi. Don't worry about the slip up, just a speed bump..that important thing is, is that you don't ever stop trying.

I ran into a friend yesterday and she saw on FB that I had quit and was really happy for me but couldn't imagine herself without cigarettes. I told her that I couldn't either, they were that much of a crutch to me but for some reason, it just happend to be the right timing, the right words spoken (here) that got me to at least try and when I tried, it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.

Stacey, Jane, S and Jessi..you have all done this for me. I can never thank you enough. I'm sure God had a hand in it too, I asked to be willing and to listen, and I did.

Posted by: cowgirl May 30, 2012, 12:47 PM
I slipped. Smoked on Sunday for no apparent reason? Someone's pack was on the picnic table and I took one. The thing that scared me most was that it was like I had never quit. Didn't make me sick or even light headed. It did however make me very disgusted with myself. No will power whatsoever. I suck.

So then, in all of my wonderful wisdom, thought, ok, might as well get it out of my system..bought a pack and smoked until last night. Threw what was left away before I went to bed and today, I start over.

What is WRONG with me? I know the answer to that, I'm just really sad. Made it almost to a month.

Posted by: cowgirl May 31, 2012, 1:17 PM
So now my big plan is to try again this weekend. I bought another pack yesterday.

What is WRONG WITH ME?

Sigh.

Give it to God and keep reading these posts. Instead of being inspiring though, I am throughly depressed.

What is it that makes cigarettes so much harder to quit? I had better luck at pills than I do with these goddamn things.

Posted by: cowgirl July 3, 2012, 11:17 AM
I quit again. God, what is this, like the 10th or 11th time? Maybe more.

I did get the vapor e-cig this time. I love it. Has very little nicotine, none of the toxins and I have had no cravings or desire to smoke since Sat. morning. So, 3 days today.

Are these things really that safe? Why can't I just smoke this forever? It doesn't stink, in fact smells sweet. And it's just warm air in your lungs, right?

Mine electric blue and so pretty..I have a strap that I wear over my neck to hold it. Oh no, is that pathetic? God, I'm pathetic.

But, I'm not smoking.

Posted by: MomNMore July 3, 2012, 12:53 PM
I draw the line at wearing like a fashion accessory =)

I'm still vaping and okay with it, and doc says my lungs are clear. Still another addictive behavior, but it's not killing me, so I'll stop when I'm ready.

Did you use the company I sent you? I love their stuff.

Posted by: cowgirl July 11, 2012, 12:47 PM
No I didn't. My sister in law started using one and when I asked about it, she jumped on it and ordered me one, it came 2 days later. The company is local. I love thier stuff so far.


I really need to talk to you..call me when you can, ok? I want to ask you stuff that's too tiresome to write out!

xoxoxox

And hey, 11 days today! Not one cigarette!

PS..I don't wear the strap anymore..lol looked kinda goofy according to Jake.

Posted by: MomNMore July 11, 2012, 1:57 PM
Tomorrow I'm driving to NYC...takes 4 hours from here so I'll call you from the road...like 9-10am your time.

Posted by: cowgirl July 12, 2012, 12:05 PM
Really looking forward to it...

Posted by: cowgirl July 16, 2012, 12:07 PM
17 days.

Thank you God.

Posted by: MomNMore July 17, 2012, 12:27 AM
Hang in there, Lisa...

Posted by: cowgirl July 18, 2012, 1:12 PM
19 days today. I feel so much better. My chest doesn't hurt, I don't stink! The thought of a regular cigarette makes me a little queasy..when I'm around people smoking, I excuse myself. I hate that I smelled like that. My poor husband, what he put up with...he must of been so grossed out.

I'm telling you, if you want to quit smoking, get a vapor e-cig. They work! I am down to the 4mg liquid now, going to 2 mg next week. And then none. My doctor was so excited. Said my lungs sounded clear for the first time since he started treating me. No more wheeze.

Thank you S. Thank you thank you thank you!

Posted by: cowgirl July 25, 2012, 11:47 AM
26 days today.

On the 2mg liquid. I feel so good.

Posted by: MomNMore July 25, 2012, 2:41 PM
=)

Posted by: cowgirl July 26, 2012, 12:16 PM
S...how often do you use your vapor? I feel like maybe I'm using mine too much. Using it way more then when I smoked. It's fun and addictive in it's own way..I think because it tastes so good? Am I doing that because I need the nicotine? I literally puff on it through out the day. Is that bad? No one really told me how to use it. Guilt is starting....

Posted by: cowgirl July 31, 2012, 1:13 PM
30 days today..a whole month!

When I go back through these posts and see how much I struggled. Wow.

Down to the 4mg of nicotine and sticking with that for awhile.

Have ordered the 0mg.

I think I just want to be free of all of this, vapor too. I know it's fun and I love the taste and that it's not bad for me, but it's still an addiction and causing all kinds of bad thoughts.

One day at a time.

Posted by: cowgirl August 22, 2012, 12:59 PM
Finally went to the 0 nicotine on Sunday. 7 weeks, no smoking. Not even one.

My lungs are clear, I smell good. I can smell! Food taste better too..even gained a little weight. Good thing for me.

Still using the vapor..I'll give up that behavoir when I'm ready. Or maybe not. Nothing in it that's hurting me now so maybe this will be my one last vice. That and coffee. lol

It's so awesome to say, I'm a non-smoker.

Posted by: MomNMore August 22, 2012, 3:37 PM
Yay! Feels good, right? I do believe you're really done. Where the hell is Jane anyway?

Posted by: cowgirl August 23, 2012, 12:13 PM
It does feel good. And yes, I feel like I'm done. I smell cigarette smoke now and I just can't believe that I would ever want to smell like that again. Or even the taste. Ick.

Yeah, where is Jane?

Posted by: justjane August 29, 2012, 10:24 PM
GEEZ ! Go away for a bit and look what happens! YOU are AWESOME! I knew you could do it Lisa. Good for you.

Good to see you both. :P I'm back. I went away because I havent been working all summer. So I been playin and away from my computer. Now I am back to work. So I should be around more often.

Love,

Jane

Posted by: cowgirl August 30, 2012, 12:31 PM
2 whole months today!!!!

I saw your posts on the Family Board Jane so I hate that you're back for the reason but so glad you're back!!

You were a huge inspiration in me quitting. You and Stacey. Mom with her Vapor...it all just fell into place.

I love you girls.

Posted by: justjane September 4, 2012, 1:43 PM
CG _ holy s***. I can't believe that I would be an inspirtiont o anyone HA! No I am kidding. I felt the same when Stacey quit. I felt like I might could do it. It has helped so much. I never would have thought that I could have gotten so much just from quitting smoking. Its so freeing. That & I got into the rooms of AA what miracle. You are now the inspiration to many others as well. SO keep on keepin on.
As far as the friends and famiy post. At least I know the recipe to follow in order to start getting some relief. It works for practically anything. The steps, a sponsor and action. Here I go starting all over again.

Love you,

Jane

Posted by: cowgirl September 5, 2012, 12:57 PM
I don't believe that you are starting all over again. You are just "reminding" yourself of what works when you work it.

I can't believe how many times I have said the serenity prayer this past couple of weeks. Going to the 0 nicotine has had it's, not so great times, but I'm hanging in there. I find myself losing my patience with my granddaughters and that's not like me at all. But, I feel better every day and I will be ok. I will be around to see these girls grow up. I just keep reminding myself of that.

I'm working on my boys now. Jake quit a long time ago but the other 2 are next. I'm headed to the "vape" store today and buying them what they need. Both have agreed to try it and want to quit. Otherwise, I wouldn't waste the money. Neither can afford to buy the set up units. But both can afford to buy the liquid from here on out..cheaper than cigarettes. Yep, I'm on my soap box. The smoke natzi again.

You are my inspiration Jane. Don't even say you're not, even tho kidding. All of you have no idea just how much I learn from you. Every day.

xo

Posted by: cowgirl October 1, 2012, 11:17 AM
3 months today.

Posted by: MomNMore October 1, 2012, 12:25 PM
I was gonna text and ask, but I thought I'd wait to hear...GO YOU! ALl the recent stress and you didn't pick up...sweet. xo

Posted by: cowgirl October 5, 2012, 11:55 AM
No, didn't pick up but puffing like crazy on this thing. I'm at 0 nicotine now so it's just a crutch at this point but thank God I had it.

My new favorite flavor is Strawberry Smoothie. My husband (who was never a smoker) keeps stealing it.

I guess people are now using these vapes to smoke pot in public. Sigh...there's always some a****** who has to ruin it for the rest of us. Pretty soon, because of that, they will put some law into effect so that we can't use these indoors in public places. Although, those using pot in them, they stink. Like pot. So hopefully, most can tell the difference. Mine smells like strawberries.

Anyway, thanks S. If you didn't keep pushing...

Posted by: MomNMore October 5, 2012, 12:09 PM
Yeah, I heard that, someone asked me about it last week, if I knew anyone who had tried it for weed. I do. Anyway, I don't think they can make the actual device, the delivery system, illegal...it's just a battery and a cartridge. They are still trying to ilegalize the the nicotine juice because the FDA wants to control everything. If it looks like that might happen, I'll stock up, or buy it in Canada when I'm in VT.

Posted by: cowgirl October 10, 2012, 12:14 PM
Good reason to go to the 0 nicotine. Can't outlaw that.

I met a guy this weekend who has a medical marijuana card. Grows it too. He saw my vape and assumed I was using pot in it. I laughed..if you only knew me buddy. Anyway, he does with his. Guess it would be a convienent way to do it..whatever.

All I know is? Dr listened to my lungs yesterday and said they have never been clearer.

Yay me.

Posted by: cowgirl November 2, 2012, 1:01 PM
4 months on the 30th.

Posted by: cowgirl January 3, 2013, 12:23 PM
6 months on Dec 30th. I get to start the new year as a non smoker.

Didn't think I'd ever be able to say that.

Posted by: MomNMore January 3, 2013, 2:13 PM
It was 2 years for me on Decmeber 6th. I'm kind of a big deal...and so are you.

Posted by: justjane January 10, 2013, 11:46 AM
Hey all. I still haven't smoked!! Hi how is everyone?

Posted by: pirate January 19, 2013, 10:27 PM
5 days now for me ...smoke free

Posted by: pirate January 22, 2013, 6:24 PM
one week now

Posted by: MomNMore January 22, 2013, 9:23 PM
Go pirate!

Posted by: sunshine February 28, 2013, 1:34 PM
By rationing your cigs aren't you just prolonging the torture?

Posted by: justjane March 26, 2013, 10:58 AM
yes