Im A 29 Year Old Prostitute.
Posted: May 26, 2005, 7:44 PM


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Posted: June 8, 2005, 6:16 PM


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Hey Daniellesmoma,
I was sad for you when I read your post. I am tracking this site
because I am truly interested in your recovery.
Congratulations for coming off of the crack and stopping prostitution.
You should be very proud of yourself.
I have no background knowledge in crack or prostitution, I am studying to be
an addictions councillor.
I come to this site so that I can get real life knowledge from people
like you. I love to follow recoveries!. It makes me proud to be part of yours.
I hope that is okay with you.
Take good care of yourself, because you are worth it.
Karen

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Lee
Posted: June 9, 2005, 7:14 PM







Dear Danielle, the Prostitute,

I hope all is going well with you and you are sticking to your rehab and new life. I hope the pressure of needing 'Quick and EZ" cash has not forced you back onto the street corners and sleazy hotel bedrooms for that EZ money. How about it dear lady, are you staying clean.... off the Crack and off the Beds? I pray so.

Please post again soon and let us all know so we will know how to help you, OK? We really do care. By the way, how long did you prostitute yourself out to the scummy men who sinfully took advangtage of you? I blame them more than you -- if they did not leave their wives at home with the kids, go out slumming and cruising in their expensive cars as 'Johns' looking for cheap, EZ, fun, exciting, hot, quick sex and perverse sexual acts, you would not have to battle the temptation being played out every night on the streets of America. What battle? The battle to provide the "Johns" with the physical-sexual-service they desire so badly. Right?

Sweetie, you are actually a victim when it comes to the prostitution.... I feel strongly about that statement! Why? Well, it is simply a matter of the 'ole economic rule and principle called the: 'The law of supply and demand." Isn't that right or correct? Don't you agree with me? Think about this: If the demand was not there from the sinful Johns, then you would not have to give up yourself, your virginity, body, etc., as part of or as a "piece of" the supply that helps feed the demand. So, you have my sympathy... truly you do. I blame the nasty old Johns for taking advantage of you and the other ladies of the night who walk the street providing the supply for the demand.

Keep the Faith, hang in there, and keep fighting to overcome the addiction to both Crack and Prostitution. Please post soon to let us know how it is going.

Lee
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Posted: July 24, 2005, 3:14 PM


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I have been down the same road you have. I am addicted to crack and about half the money I would spend on it would be from prostitution. The rest would be money I would steal. But with prostituting it feels like an easy fix. Low on cash, just find a guy, make him feel special for a while and then have money. But your better then that and you shouldn't have to give up your dignity for this drug. You should seek help for the crack addiction and realize that you are better then that.
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heidi
Posted: July 25, 2005, 1:58 PM







Hope things are going well for yu!

H,
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Posted: August 3, 2005, 7:06 PM


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I feel compelled to answer this post because I was also a dancer for 7 years. During that time I was a drug addicted fiend. Everything from Coke to Crystal. I will not lie and say I didn't have a fabulous time in some of my exploits but there were horrible times, disgusting times and scary times. I also escorted and ran my own service in Sacramento but I got so addicted to meth, I left and ran away to a worst fate in New Orleans. I lost my daughter during that time period and I did lots of things I never thought I would ever do. The next 2 years were sadness and pure joy...I can't explain it...it just was. After that was a struggle for my sanity. I finally cleaned up for the most part. Jesus helped me through even though I did relapse more than once. Jesus brought me a wellness business, a great guy and a new baby. I am now clean and am loving my new life. I still think about my old life and miss it at times but I know there are better things waiting for me. Jesus heals if you let him and my new family and my new business keeps me busy and happy. I miss the fast money and even my job because I was really good at what I did...and even enjoyed it. I love to dance and being nude wasn't a turn-off for me but the drugs were always there tempting me and I couldn't say no. The drugs were apart of my "Sunshine" persona so I had to leave. I am happy now with my new life and thank God I am not dead. My 13 year old daughter is happy with me and wouldn't trade any of it for anthing inthe world. I am free.

Dawn from San Jose, Ca

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melapower@aol.com
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Julie
Posted: September 25, 2005, 9:08 AM







During my active Crack addiction i also become addicted to prostitution, initially i was afraid then i felt empowered by the control i had over my punters, the quick way to earn a pocketful of drug money.
I started off just doing oral, then within weeks was doing pretty much whatever was required in the beginning always using a condom to not even caring about that as long as i got paid. in fact it was a service i charged extra for.
I prostituted for just over 2 years during that time i got raped,beat,robbed,tied up and held hostage i was attacked with mace and a punter also pulled a knife on me once. I was arrested for loitering and common prostitution 86 times.
Then i got a boyfriend/pimp who abused me worse than anyone else, i was controlled by fear and my addiction my self esteem hit bottom and i was actually starting to enjoy the attention i was getting from the punters, sometimes i even gave oral in return for small amounts of money so that i could buy food after days of bingeing on crack.
I havnt used crack or prostituted myself in a little over 14 months now, and for me prostitution is a trigger of my using, when i first got clean i became obsessed that every man knew i was a hooker which was complete rubbish now and then a car will still pull in the kerb as i walk along the road sometimes i long to jump in, but that would be throwing my life away, my using was centered around the sex industry if i wasnt doing punters i was having sex with my bf or other prostitutes this fuelled the guilt and shame that gave me the excuse to use again and again.
My sponsor was really wonderful when i shared with her that a part of me missed it, i felt so ashamed that i actually thought i liked it, enjoyed it but as i looked a little deeper i realised that it was just my disease trying to break my defenses so that i would use.
By a miracle from God not only am i alive and clean today i am also free of any disease i was convinced i was HIV or that some other disease was eating me up through my sexual activity. I am more grateful to be alive than i can express in words, of all the girls i worked the street with i am the only one who made it back, i pray for them and sometimes i cry for them late at night when i know that they are out there suffering and that i am powerless to do anything other than carry my message and hope that it may help to change one life.
Thanks for letting me share
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Posted: September 25, 2005, 9:47 AM


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I never used the services of a prositute but thru the years of heroin addiction,I saw plenty of you out there.
That is one of the most dangerous ways to make a few dollars I,ve ever seen. The maniacs who jump in and out of your lifes can remain faceless and namless. They have all kinds of issues that lead from sick behavoir to severe violence
Find a group and look to get out of that life as soon as you can- if you have an ounce of self-esteem left, summon it up!!

get it together-good luck!!!
jack

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transformation
Posted: November 5, 2005, 4:58 PM







Hi there,my names Rita,i'm a 38 year old transexual hooker from london,i'm also a drug addict addicted to injecting heroin and crack into my groin cos all my veins are mashed up.I make loads of money by selling my A... to politicians and judges and top people in society.I'm so ashamed of what i do but i just cant seem to stop.It's tearing me up inside,i,m HIV positive and i,ve had sex with all these people.What the hell am i gonna do,we're all gonna die.What the F... am i gonna do?
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Posted: November 5, 2005, 8:48 PM


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Hey Rita, well you have done the first big step, admitting that you have a problem. I think that you should post on the Heroin board, in my experience they are the most compassionate and caring people you will find.
Please come and tell your story over there, you will get more help than you could ever imagine, through all the ups and down they will be there for you.
Take care.
Karen

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Posted: February 15, 2006, 10:23 PM


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Hello. How RU doing these days? Please post soon and let us know how you are, OK? We care for you and we are pulling for you to make it.

Bob

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'When life gets tough, the tough get going.... at least that is what I want to do!'
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Posted: February 23, 2018, 11:55 AM


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Danielsmomma now 43 years old and still on and off the crack. I stopped prostituting have a good job and my own place. Cut back alot but still struggle daily
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Posted: June 5, 2018, 9:00 PM


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If it wasn't for the drug addiction, Id say keep hooking until you save about 10,000, fix your credit, and then get a legit job. However, with the drugs, it's much harder because that's your money going out the window. When people say "just get a real job", it makes me want to say to them "just get a real education" because they obviously cannot do math! Most people cannot afford even a small, one bedroom apartment on 10 dollars an hour, yet alone healthcare, bills, and food unless they have a partner working or get help from family members or the gov. I wish the USA would grow a brain and get healthcare for all, and raise the minimum wage to at least 15 an hour. Then we wouldn't be facing these problems.
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