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Posted by: Overfifty November 21, 2016, 11:07 AM
Here's a little background on me. Many years ago over ten I was a heroin user. I went to methadone and got stable at 80. My clinic closes...yes closed. So I was thrown into a detox. That resulted in heroin use again. Went back to a different clinic got stable then did a detox and couldn't handle it. My doctor prescribed me 30 of methadone and stayed there for years at thirty. My doctor tells me she is retiring and is now retired. I get a new doctor who doesn't prescribe methadone in fact the whole clinic doesn't. Being paranoid of a rapid detox I started tapering and currently I am at 2.5 but today I split that quarter of a pill into some crumbs to get me to 1 of methadone. My crazy addict feels that at 2.5 it's still to high to jump. (At 2.5 it's still eight pills for a month).I have two scripts left to fill and to complete a taper. Long and slow. So today I am at 1. Or there abouts. Will continue this until Christmas break. Planning to jump during this time off.

Posted by: constantine November 21, 2016, 3:00 PM
Good luck overfifty....had and have similar situation...tried tapering 3 times only to fail and use ....was finally jumped in April...by clinic...not my choice....and right back where I started...im trying to stay clean this time by the grace of God if there is one...struggle of my life...I am also overfifty...and am a heroin addict ....i wish you a safe detox...and all the luck in the world...

Con

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 21, 2016, 3:47 PM
I just dont understand what kind of medical care is thta?? How thye can just let you go like that? Cant you find another doctor or another clinic? Here in UK having methadone script is really serious thing and no way they would just turn back on you without making sure you are fine. Only problem I know is if you abuse your script like get caught selling your methadone or not collecting script or in beginning you have to go each day in pharmacy to drink your doze in front of pharmacist but its usually for few weeks then you get your weekly script then monthly, every 6 month you have urine test no supervised and it doesnt matter if you are positive hell I was positive for 2 years straight every time.... being for years on methadone I cant think anything more messed up then loosing script
saying all this it seems you are doing ok and I hope you can go trough this without any bigger problems , good luck

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 21, 2016, 3:49 PM
Con when you say you were jumped by clinic you mean what exactly? They took your script away? Bastards

Posted by: Overfifty November 21, 2016, 4:02 PM
Ya that's what I think how can they treat people like this? But they can and do. I never abused my pills and had a very good relationship with my doctor but she retired. The new doctor won't. I am not at a methadone clinic I am at a doctors office. I just got back from my psychiatrists and he renewed my scripts and talked to him about what was up. I have no desire to use and have zero friends. I changed friends along time ago and all of them has died. I have a supportive family and stay at my daughter's three nights a week. I live alone with my cat. I am telling this because I have no ability to cheat. I am down to 1ml. Or there abouts and at Christmas break will jump.

Posted by: lolleedee November 21, 2016, 4:37 PM
What horrendous care! I know here in the U.S. (specifically NJ) for all of us cash paying patients at the clinic, if you do not pay, they will not dose you...period! To me, this is criminal and no better than a drug dealer! I totally uderstand that they need to fund the clinic and cannot give away services, but this "fee-tox" only applies to cash patients.

If you are on Medicaid (that is the state program for the poor...they do not accept medicare, which is the retirement/disability program, or private insurance..which I also think should NOT be allowed!) they will not kick you out as long as you are covered and they keep getting paid!

I am not bashing MAT as a philosophy, as it has been vital to my recovery, but I hate the way it is implemented here!

To, Con, what happened that you lost your methadone? Was it a clinic or doctor? Either way, I think it sucks!

To Overfifty..Do you want to be off are are you just coming off because of the situation with the new doctor? Were you on it for pain management or addiction? Are you in the U.S.? Sorry for all your troubles!

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 21, 2016, 5:33 PM
sorry Over Fifty didnt mean to imply you done something wrong just was saying here if your doctor is retired you just get another doctor the same day probably at the same surgery or at worst you change surgery but still would be around where you live. Its so wrong to leave people on dry like that ,so wrong ... by the way I got a cat , got ginger male called Clyde lol :)

Posted by: Overfifty November 21, 2016, 8:06 PM
Ya I would stay on methadone for life but because of this happening I am getting off. I was taking it for pain only 30ml. a day. (10ml. X3 a day) But jumping off at 30 is brutal. My doctor was a nice lady and I feel lucky to have found her. But now that she retired I don't want to go through it again. Ya know... so thus I am at 1ml. and it's okay. I have methadone scripts to taper down slowly. But I am at 1 or so. Just a crumble. Not long and I will jump from 1.

Posted by: lolleedee November 21, 2016, 8:35 PM
how are they going to manage your pain once you are off the methadone? Again, I really think it sucks that they are forcing your hand! Good luck with your taper!!!

Posted by: Overfifty November 21, 2016, 9:24 PM
I plan on managing my pain with marijuana and Tylenol. My state it's legal for both medical and recreational. Exercise and meditation help too. Maybe there's other non narcotic medicine that's new to me that this new doctor might prescribe. After I jump I will go back and see her ya never know. She prescribed me clonidine and nausea medicine already so she is helping the best she can. I am just trying to be positive about this situation. Gotta pay the piper and I don't want to.lol

Posted by: constantine November 21, 2016, 10:01 PM
Ahhh ya...that piper is something some days...lol...
I was jumped by the clinic...they raised the amount I would have to be paying...it added up to another 400 euros on top of paying for my take homes and doc visits etc....couldn't afford the added expense...
..that's what got me jumped....thought I'd at least be tapering. ..but that didn't happen. ..long a** story. ..but suffice to say...I just couldn't afford it anymore....not a hell I want to ever repeat...

Posted by: lolleedee November 21, 2016, 10:50 PM
I hear ya', Con! It isk expensive here too, unless you have Medicade, which is insurance for the indigent, which pays for methadone.

I pay cash for the clinic (even though I have private health insurance. The clinic won't take it..doesn't matter because my insurance doesn't cover it anyway) Anyway, it just went up to a little over 100.00 USD a week. I thank God that I can pay for it at the moment, but I am always afraid of what will happen if I can't? It is the only thing that has been helpful for me....I have been sober since I started over three years ago...no slips...I would be devastated to lose this tool.

I'm sorry that you aren't able to continue with it. Did it work for you? How are you doing now?

Posted by: constantine November 22, 2016, 2:23 AM
I was on MMT for almost 9 years. ..never used on top...and was fine...unless I was trying to taper off of it...in which case...I'd lose my mind when I got down into the small numbers...but when my dose was fine...I was fine....it saved my life....but....I also realized once I got off and the deep detox was over...how much of myself I had lost...my creativity. ..my ability to think more in depth....memories...even my ability to listen or like music...alot of my personality ...fair enough price at the time...but once off...all those pieces and more that makes me ...me...came screaming back...methadone doesn't fix you. ..it puts everything in a holding pattern. ..your faced with yourself and all the pain you don't really feel or can touch after you get off...all the behaviors that make us addicts in the first place...come back...I have struggled with integrating ...cravings...memories. ..etc...since April....I've gotten in periods of clean time ...one month...almost 2...in between using... short runs...and I keep trying...no...I don't want back on methadone. . Even though the reason I ended up on it...was i chronically relapse...cannot stay clean...and there are days when I'm ready to consider going back on despite the cost...because it's exhausting. ..but It's also a good feeling to be clean off everything when I can manage it..and I am clean at the moment ...

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 22, 2016, 10:26 AM
here in london methadone is free, actually I have to pay £8.40 for prescription but that is all .. i never understood Obama care, is it for free or its not?

Posted by: Overfifty November 22, 2016, 2:11 PM
Well just found out my prescription wasn't signed so I am detoxing now instead of Christmas break. My doctor retired but gave me prescriptions for 4 months. She forgot to sign two of them. I just dropped to 1ml. Or so for two days from 2.5ml. I did a proper taper long and slow maximum dose 30. I have cried and now I am officially not getting anymore. Wow I will keep posting my progress because I went slow on my taper so this should be doable. Doesn't matter it's happening lol

Posted by: constantine November 22, 2016, 4:05 PM
OF...in my thoughts...hang tough...
B...nothing free about it at all...and I work for the gits...

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 22, 2016, 4:39 PM
Con I just presumed you have meth script but when you use you use, thought you got that should we call safety net. So when you use for 3,4 days or less or more you have to go trough withdrawal every time in order to be clean ? How you managing symptoms, you know restlessness, pain, sickness all together? I am chicken s*** when comes to that, been sick so many time not that I wanted but didnt have script and sometimes we just couldn't buy any, or you could buy s*** but whats the point and 5 am would wake me up pain between shoulders ughhh :( I am sorry didnt want to go that far into how I felt but its actually the only thing I am scared s***less off. I was told long time ago every single withdrawal damages my heart, kidney and stress on liver is high, not sure if this is true but honestly I thought few times my heart is going to give up. How long does it take you to feel normal once you stop? 4,5 days orr little bit more? When I say normal I mean taking shower without flinching, going out and not being cold, eating without feeling sick and sleeping without waking up restless

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 22, 2016, 4:55 PM
over fifty it will be ok, you can do it. you got everything else you need to make yourself comfortable, i mean weed, painkillers, food, drinks etc?

Posted by: Papa Bear November 22, 2016, 4:57 PM
Overfifty:

I'm Bob and I'm well overseventy - clean/sober since 1989.
I wouldn't have lived to see 1990 if it wasn't for AA/NA.
Might just be the ticket for you as well.

All the best.

Bob

Posted by: Overfifty November 22, 2016, 5:01 PM
Thank you Bonnie5. I have everything except painkillers. Small supply of benzos too. I am going to my daughter's today until Friday hoping for the best.

Posted by: constantine November 22, 2016, 5:02 PM
..B ..taking shower without flinching....water ...ya...ugh...lol...true that...ya B...every time I pick up...I got a rattle to put down...sometimes it's not a big deal...and sometimes. ..like the last one...it sucks and is hard ...I don't know. ..depending upon how long and how much I'm using...and how bad I'm hurt...I'll use whatever gets me through the worst of it...sometimes just asprin or codien.. .sometimes morphine. ..and sometimes nothing helps but time...I've got doxipine and a bit if methadone stashed in case it gets too messed up...legs drive me crazy...skin crawling and monkey screaming...fun times some days...I try not to catch a big habit so the rattle isn't nightmare level...but...well...sometimes I just lose track...I've detoxed so often in the last 8 months off everything I gotta wonder why I just don't stop or keep using...it's ...ya..well...a junkies life....not scared of the rattle unless I've been using more than 6 months to a year straight...then....ya...can be frightening. ..did I answer this right ? Still fighting pneumonia here...and not winning at the moment. ..not tracking as well as I should...

Overfifty...good luck lady...you got this....

Posted by: Overfifty November 24, 2016, 8:03 AM
Doing great so far. Yesterday I took a ,5 klonapin clonadine nauseamedicine and smoked weed. Moving slower but everything is fine. I have an appetite and sleep.

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 24, 2016, 9:12 AM
great , I am glad its going well. Every "positive" story gives me hope I wont have to deal with nightmare withdrawals one day when i decide to lay off methadone

Posted by: Overfifty November 24, 2016, 11:54 AM
Happy Thanksgiving. Yesterday I took a .5 klonapin, clonadine nausea medication and smoked weed. I slept and have an appetite. This morning doing fine. Took a .5 klonapin clonadine nausea medication and smoked. I move slow but feel good.

Posted by: constantine November 24, 2016, 2:53 PM
Good news !! Glad it's going well so far ! Wishing you a happy turkey day back !

Posted by: Overfifty November 25, 2016, 8:15 AM
Well I made it another day clean from methadone.yedterday I took a .5 klonapin clonadine nausea medicine. Before bed took a Zanax and I slept. I have had a appetite and sleeping. I have zero cravings just a bit slow moving but very doable.

Posted by: Overfifty November 26, 2016, 10:06 AM
W ell it's my fourth day. I took a clonidine nausea medicine 1. Of zanax smokee green during the day. I have an appetite and sleep. I am super happy that things are going real smoothly. My taper was low and real slow. I take an antidepressant mood stabilizer which I believe is helping my brain too. I move slow but can sit still. My last dose was 1. Or so but stayed at 2.5 for awhile. My highest dose a was 30 ml. Over four years. I am doing so good. I have no cravings and really am able to function. I am calm not irritable. This is different than any other jump I have done..

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 26, 2016, 6:05 PM
happy for you :) as I said it gives m,e hope I can do the same when i am ready, I am on 40 mills for last 4 years actually i am 35 now lol keep forgetting I am coming down next month another 5 but i know it wont be problem till I get to 15 mills then I am to take very slowly as well . Do you think its weed that helped you most?

Posted by: Overfifty November 26, 2016, 6:29 PM
I think weed helps so much. But the clonadine nausea medication and klonapin help so much too. I think they compliment each other. But yeah weed helps a lot. I can't believe I am on day four and all I am is slow moving. Your tapering slow too that's great. I didn't feel the drops except when I was at 20ml. And dropped to ten. I experienced withdrawal stayed there till I stabilized then went to .5 then 2.5 then 1 or so. Then jumped woo hoo. I smoke indica only because it has more of a calming effect .

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 26, 2016, 8:44 PM
I find smoking weed helps me sleeping, helps my cravings ... keeps my mood in check so i don't have those nasty mood swings . I consider weed natural remedies and wot even discuss possibility of stopping. Absolutely no need for me to stop , been smoking for long time I think I was 16, 17 year old now I am 45 and its been my constant companion lol if only I stack with weed only

Posted by: Overfifty November 27, 2016, 9:18 AM
Day 5 already. Just woke up and having coffee. I move slow but other than that I feel good. Nothing is the matter. Today is a good day.

Posted by: lolleedee November 27, 2016, 8:59 PM
I am soooo happy you are feeling well! There is nothing worse than that inner "jumpiness" that I know I usually feel when in withdrawal! You mentioned you were able to sleep and that is fabulous!!! Sleep is so important, not just for the body, but for the mind, too!

Great job! Sending you a virtual pat on the back and a cyber ((HUG)))

Posted by: Overfifty November 28, 2016, 8:15 AM
Thank you lollidee. Today is day 6 and I just woke up from eight hours sleep. I am up before dawn. When I detox I sleep when I am tired sometimes like today I am up super early. I am doing very well IMO. I have low energy and getting up from a sitting position takes some effort. I haven't really done much except relax during this. Today I am going to take a shower and straighten up my house. I spent so much time worrying about withdrawing from methadone that I made myself afraid to try it. All the horror stories. I am proof that it can be done painlessly for the most part. I work with a doctor and a psychiatrist for the medicine that I used to withdrawl. I believe that this made a big difference in having a comfortable time for me. I would not presume to think this is over. I am just taking it one day at a time.

Posted by: Bonnie5 November 28, 2016, 8:17 AM
great :) exatcly all the horror stories probably stops mant from trying ... i really glad you found us and shared your experince so people an see its possibile... thank you

Posted by: Overfifty November 28, 2016, 8:48 AM
Thank you Bonnie5. I am stoked that I am doing so well. Even my emotions aren't all over the place. No crying except the first day cause I was scared. This is the easily the best detox I have done at home.

Posted by: Overfifty November 29, 2016, 8:19 AM
Well today is day seven. I just got up after sleeping ten hours. This is so cool that my detox is going so smoothly. I went low and slow.

Posted by: Overfifty November 30, 2016, 9:17 AM
Well today is day eight. I just have been lying in my bed contiplating getting up. I am so grateful I feel good. I have low energy but other than that everything is fine. I have zero cravings. I feel my taper and detox were done right for me.

Posted by: Overfifty December 1, 2016, 9:36 AM
Today is day nine and I feel just fine. Lol resumed my usual routine yesterday was a bit low in energy. I am at my daughters house and the grandkids keep me on my toes. Everything is done so much slower though. My pain is more noticeable. I am not irritable just tire easily. So grateful I can sleep and eat. My brain isn't fuzzy either.

Posted by: Overfifty December 2, 2016, 8:38 AM
Today is day ten. I woke up kinda early. I can't believe I don't take methadone anymore and I feel good. I am up functioning and interacting with my grandkids. I don't sweat I have no stomach or bathroom issues. I don't cry off the hat. This has been an easy detox.

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 2, 2016, 10:55 AM
well done :) I would say now is safe to think you are over all methadone issue ! People saying sometimes you are fine for 4,5 days and only then you get to withdrawal but you are day 10 so its over ... great news for everybody who is thinking to stop! Thanks !

Posted by: Overfifty December 2, 2016, 2:33 PM
Thank you very much. Ya I think the methadone issues are over for me too. I just transitioned to no methadone and went on to no issues. I am so grateful.

Posted by: Overfifty December 3, 2016, 8:51 AM
Today is day eleven. Just woke up and waiting for the coffee to brew. So stoked that methadone is out of my body and I feel great. Can't believe this is behind me now. I am so grateful that. My sneezing attacks are all that's left.. I read every post daily for months on methadone withdrawal. Every post was saying how bad it is and you won't sleep etc. I was scared of the unknown. I am here to say it can be done without losing your mind. Sorry I will get off my soapbox. I am just so happy.

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 3, 2016, 4:44 PM
I was scared as well, actually I was terrified until you came along :)

Posted by: Overfifty December 3, 2016, 5:03 PM
Thank you bonnie5 that means a lot to me. I really am on day eleven. It amazes me today that my journey has been so positive. I am forever grateful for this get outta jail free card so to speak.

Posted by: Overfifty December 4, 2016, 9:27 AM
Today is day 12. No complaints. I do have sneezing fits but that's it. I am living proof that this is possible and can be done effortlessly. Methadone helped me quit heroin and I will be grateful forever. When I got on methadone for pain management I felt entitled to take it. My body is in pain the doctor gave me a script and I started taking the methadone pills. For years I took those pills which helped my pain. Getting off the methadone for pain was hard for me mentally because I am still in pain and move slow. But it had to be done I had to quit methadone my doctor retired. New doctor doesn't prescribe it. I was sure in a pickle. But I stopped taking the methadone 12 days ago and I am okay.

Posted by: Overfifty December 5, 2016, 8:16 AM
Today is day 13 without methadone. Just saw that 6 people in Philadelphia died on Sunday from heroin overdoses. I am so grateful I am not using heroin anymore and methadone saved me. I did it I successfully transitioned from heroin to methadone to nothing. I am so proud of myself. It's one day at a time. But I am doing it. I feel good I am very calm and can sleep. I have come so far from that junkie I use to be. When I began this journey I was so sick. I forget that sometimes. Over ten years have passed and I have changed. I no longer have to take methadone but I don't forget where I came from. Sorry I am rambling but the news really affected me this morning. Peace

Posted by: Overfifty December 6, 2016, 9:48 AM
Today is 14 days free of methadone. Two weeks woot woot!! Feel amazing can't complain didn't even sneeze yesterday. I went to my mental health doctor yesterday and he was happy for me, and I got some names of some therapists to check out. Life is good. I

Posted by: Overfifty December 7, 2016, 8:44 AM
Day 15 off of methadone. Life is good. I feel good.

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 7, 2016, 1:20 PM
nice :)

Posted by: Overfifty December 8, 2016, 2:43 PM
Thank you Bonnie5. Today is day 16 off of methadone. I feel normal no withdrawls. Woot woot!!

Posted by: Overfifty December 9, 2016, 9:19 AM
Day 17 off of methadone. I feel more pain today. Gonna have to take it easy today. I am grateful to be off of that drug. You don't want realize what it does for you until your off of it. I have been to methadone clinics twice. One time they gave us a sixty day notice they were closing yes closing so I had to wean myself down then go through horrible withdrawls. Second time I quit myself but tapered to fast and had bad withdrawls. This taper was done over years long and slow. I had no withdrawls. I am not the type of person who enjoyed being addicted to methadone but ya it helped me. But I don't believe some people have to stay on it for life IMO. It's a useful tool in its time and place then IMO it's a crutch. Time to get on with life. Free of methadone. These are my opinions for myself. I was on methadone 10t years. Too long IMO.

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 10, 2016, 3:52 PM
i a down to 35 now but my highest dosage was 40 ills(green liquid we get) and its not that taking methadone bothers e not at all but having to go for prescription every month and have talk to counselor when I clearly don't want to share anything with him, hate stupid questions plus even if I want to go for few days somewhere I always have to think about methadone and God forbid I forget to take the with me... another problem I a afraid is damage that does to body apparently its very bad for joints , bones so now how much truth is in that and how much they are hiding from us will be revealed one day ... I was told by fellow addicts on numerous occasions how methadone is much worse for body then heroin actually I ean damage that does to body. Now is that urban myths or not I dont know. I am not ready for tapering yet, I need to be clean at least for 1 year before going down actually it doesnt need to be 1 year but when I feel the time is right!
Once again Well Done :)

Posted by: constantine December 10, 2016, 4:35 PM
B...im sorry I didn't know you were still on the juice...I have to say I felt damn good on it...depression was much better...I don't think it hurt me physically as much as they claim...ya..some side effects. .but I had more energy...idk i think about going back on often...ya it was a pain having to go every week to pick it up...they only give a week here...no matter what...and the questions...ya ..intrusive. ..I hated that too...I was on Levo-methadone. ..or what they call here polamidon ..the clear stuff....but for all the red tape. ...and expense...the fcking clinic rants....I miss the relief. ..the cravings and mind games drive me crazy...no matter what I seem to do to stay clean...I can't get rid of the monkey ...the itch in my skin....i never felt it was a crutch...it gave me a degree of quality ...of clarity...of freedom I haven't experienced since I was off...I remember after I stabilized. ...I asked if this was how all normal people felt ...I was amazed...but...ya...it did take a big part of me...i didn't realize it until I came off it..maybe it was just my dark side ...and idk...maybe that's not such a bad trade off...I was on 9 years and wasn't ready I think to come off...I don't think I would have had a problem being a lifer...everyone is different...just my humble opinion. ..

Ps...over50...I didn't want to say anything as you came off...just in case ...and I'm really glad it was a good detox...I tried three times to do it during the 9 years i was on...and never made it ..once I got down to the small numbers I used...and couldn't stand the cravings..
....when I got jumped off in april...I't was one of the worst rattles I ever experienced. ..just long and painful...never ending. ..and the mind crazy and cravings almost drove me over the edge...the worst of it didn't even start until days after...not a rattle I want to repeat...i think if i went back on it would be for good this time...glad this one for you was mild...wishing you a good long clean time

Posted by: Overfifty December 11, 2016, 9:45 AM
Today is day 18 off of methadone. Got a great nights sleep so my pain level is good. No complaints. I want to say methadone helped me get off heroin. I haven't had cravings for over ten years. Constantine because I had two unsuccessful very long rattles I knew I could have one again. I was scared beyond belief. Plus mentally it really takes its toll. I was surprised to not have to endure another one. Today is day 18 and I feel so grateful. Because in the back of my mind I always worry about the rattle I don't want to come off. This last time I was prescribed methadone for pain from my primary doctor. Not at a methadone clinic. I don't qualify anymore because I don't use. Because she retired I had to get off of it. That sticks I in my head. Ya know nothing lasts forever. So in a nutshell I am scared to go back because of the withdrawals. This has been my experience on methadone. But everyone is different or do they stay on it cause they are scared of getting sick?

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 11, 2016, 9:59 AM
probably we stay on for different reasons but cravings are not that strong or they go away all together while on methadone and that is for me most important... i was scared of withdrawal but thanks to Overfifty experience i am not anymore

Posted by: Overfifty December 13, 2016, 10:59 AM
Today is day 21 off of methadone. I feel calm strong and grateful today.there are no withdrawal symptoms woot woot!! IMO tapering long and slow is why I didn't suffer at all. I still am amazed I walked away from it without suffering.

Posted by: Overfifty December 15, 2016, 8:13 AM
Today is day 23 off of methadone. It's freezing here this morning don't want to get out of bed. It's early still. I have zero withdrawls. I still sneeze though. I am doing good. No cravings.

Posted by: constantine December 15, 2016, 9:17 AM
your pretty much done O50...congrats ! Well done ! Come on over to the heroin board and post us a song video on our "just a hell of a video thread"...:)

Con

Posted by: Overfifty December 15, 2016, 12:17 PM
Thank you con. I don't know about a song for the heroin board. I am just grateful that this detox was successful. La la la

Posted by: Overfifty December 17, 2016, 7:36 AM
Today is day 25 off of methadone. Doing great no complaints. I still sneeze ugh. Methadone is a memory now. I read my posts and am amazed so much time has went by but it has. Anyway low and slow is the way to go ......peace

Posted by: Overfifty December 18, 2016, 11:53 AM
Today is day 26 of no methadone. Reading others posts helps me. Today I read Jason's posts very heartfelt. I feel I dodged a bullet experiencing no withdrawals. I am grateful every day for this. I worked hard at my taper and for me it has worked. Taking it one day at a time. Happy holidays

Posted by: Overfifty December 19, 2016, 10:18 AM
Day 27 off of methadone. Having my coffee watching the morning news. Just normal stuff except I don't take METHADONE. It really does something to my mindset. I won't suffer withdrawals ever again hooray. Now I am not putting the horse before the cart just saying today no withdrawals. We had a serious ice storm the lasted five days what if I couldn't get my medicine. Well now I don't have to worry. And I did worry about things like that all the time. One day at a time........Happy holidays . Oh yeah we are a non drinking household so Christmas will be awesome no drunks lol.. Holidays are hard for me and I assume for other people as well. I get super depressed and have a hard time around a lot of people. This year we are doing it differently. I will be with my daughter's family and I am comfortable with this arrangement. So this year I am looking forward to it. I was on a low dose of methadone (30ml.) For pain. But I use to be on it for heroin addiction (80ml.). I felt the same on both doses however I went through horrible withdrawals trying to get off the 80 ml. Too rapidly. So I am in the honeymoon faze of my addiction. Got my rose colored glasses on and everything is going smoothly. Posting and reading posts by other people on this journey helps me a lot. So thank you for being there for me. Ho :O ho!!

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 20, 2016, 8:13 AM
Morning Over50 :) glad you are doing ok but wanted to ask you how do you managing your pain without meths?

Posted by: Overfifty December 20, 2016, 9:05 AM
Today is day 28 off of methadone. Slept well no cravings but yes I am in pain still. I have to admit the pain wears on me but I take Tylenol and I smoke weed. In our state it's legal both medical and recreational. It helps take the edge off but I still move very slowly and am limited in stamina. Diet and exercise to improve health is something I am focusing on. Thinking of doing the paleo diet. Anyway getting back to my pain it's there and I can't do a lot of things. It's been that way for years. My family helps me with rides, shopping, and I stay with them weekly for company. Because I got prescribed methadone for pain and my doctor retired its made me really okay in the head. I mean it's like kicking in jail ya know your not getting anything to help you. With my doctor retiring I know I am not getting anything to help my pain. My new doctor is into diet,exercise, physical therapy, even suggested acupuncture. (I have tried before with zero results). So this is a different mindset for me which I am embracing. They come up with so much new information nowadays I want to explore different ways to deal with pain. Staying positive is important to my mental health.I am rambling sorry. Taking it one day at a time.....peace

Posted by: DAVE. December 20, 2016, 8:03 PM
i first went on methadone around xmas time 1995. I've read other posts and people saying the reduced down to 2ml (im in Glasgow, Scotland). I decided to GET off it in 2004 yes and did, it was easier than i expected AT THE END. i did try reducing quite a few times over those years but was hard when they keep, (sorry THEY being the cat team comunity addiction team) changing the COUNCILOR, ESPECIALLY wen you start reducing, you find your seeing a diffrent prson evry time you go to your appointment. And wen that happens, NO communication hence no reduction on the script, and i would have to wait till later that week wen the doctors in. anyway when i realised i was on my own with this, and also being told, you are allowed to relapse TWICE a year, that was thier advice wen i would tell them i felt bad withdrawls, it was when my partner god rest her was diagnosed with throat cancer in 2006 i REALLY DECIDED to fight my way of it because it was a fight i had to go in to see the CAT TEAM with a more determined attitude and i did i was fed up, i now really believe they do everything to stop you comming off it, ive found this exact same attitude not only with one district cat team but 3 in glasgow, after having to TELL them how i want to do it the way MY body knows, i finally got to zero in 2013. a year later just after xmas my partner passed away she was 44 yrs young, same age as me. she didnt know i was reducing, didnt want her worrying about the horror storys we had heard about people hallucinating, glad to say i didnt experience that, i came down town to 50ml daily from 75 daily then came down 5ml every month, well when they remembered to take the 5ml of and believe me it happened time and time again, finally wen i was at 15ml i said i now want it to reduce 1ml weekly that to me was easier than having 5ml took from 15ml so i would have had 15 weeks left anyway the cats doctor and the COUNCILLOR couldnt work out how to write that on a monthly script and told me i would have to go weekly for my script,lol. Ok see ye next week, surprise surprise it was left at the desk with the receptionist just sitting thier for anyone who was in for whatever because it was an office for a number of diffrent agencys, and it wasnt reduced the 1ml the obviouse reason it was left at the desk, the receptionist said MY councilor wasnt in i had to laugh as i didnt have a councilor in my eyes, the last time i seen the same person twice in a row i was at 45ml, ive been clean since and have a wonderful grandson he was 1 yr old last week. it just kills me when i remember the times i could have been spending with my wife but was stuck arguing and sitting in waitng rooms for up to 2hrs no exageration. GOD REST YOU SWEETHEART. DAVE.

Posted by: Jason December 21, 2016, 9:58 AM
Good work! You are so blessed to have handled the taper and getting off so well. It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life personally. Keep a good support group because cravings will come if you have addiction issues. It seems like they won't and then out of the blue, wam, it they will strike. Or by some fluke drugs will be in front of you through an old friend or something. Take care and Merry Christmas Dave. Sorry for the advice, which wasn't asked for:). I'm working on change and they may be one of them...

Posted by: Overfifty December 21, 2016, 8:12 PM
Today is day 29 off of methadone. Yes I am very grateful that my taper and detox was so successful. I feel so lucky to have dodged this bullet. Thank you for sharing your story it means the world to me to hear other successful stories. Have a headache today didn't sleep well but it will pass. Looking forward to the holidays. I hope everyone is having an amazing day. Happy holidays.....peace

Posted by: Overfifty December 22, 2016, 9:32 AM
Today I have been off methadone for 30 days. One month!! Feeling good still move slow but doing well over all. No cravings. Merry Christmas

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 22, 2016, 6:29 PM
already 1 month? wow time does fly ... happy for you :)

Posted by: Overfifty December 22, 2016, 7:43 PM
Thank you Bonnie5. Have a merry Christmas.

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 23, 2016, 4:14 PM
and you :) Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Posted by: Overfifty December 26, 2016, 9:36 AM
Today is 34 days without methadone. Feel no withdrawls no cravings. Had a nice Christmas ...very relaxing. Very grateful to be free from this.

Posted by: Overfifty December 29, 2016, 11:33 AM
Today is day 36 off of methadone. I caught a cold so I am feeling lousy today. But even this doesn't dampen my spirits. The whole time I was on methadone I never got sick. (Or I never felt it) so this is new. I haven't had a change in mental health since withdrawing from methadone this time. Which is wonderful. Doing normal things like shopping and cleaning house still hard because of pain. But I am doing it. All methadone free and if my doctor hadn't retired I would never of gotten off it. Because I was scared to withdrawal. Always scared to feel that pain. But this taper I didn't feel withdrawals at all. So I am taking this and running with it. I tapered for years. I prepared myself for the worst hoped for the best. It can happen no withdrawals no problems. I am so grateful to be able to share my story. To give hope to people. Don't be scared. I used clonidine nausea medication klonapin xanax and weed to withdrawal. My goal was to get off methadone. That's it. I am serious when I say all friends dead from heroin and accidents. I haven't been around drugs for years and years. So this transition has been effortless. Methadone saved my life and I am grateful for it.. But I have moved on from that heroin user years ago that I was. Anyway just rambling on this morning sorry. Just super happy it's over.

Posted by: Overfifty December 30, 2016, 11:10 AM
Day 37 free of methadone. Feel a bit better today from my cold. Anyway have a happy new year. Taking it one day at a time....peace

Posted by: Bonnie5 December 30, 2016, 12:27 PM
sorry you got cold ,hope you feel better soon! Happy New Year :)

Posted by: Overfifty January 2, 2017, 9:10 AM
Well today is day 40 off of methadone. No symptoms except sneezing. Thank you Bonnie5 my cold is better. I am doing well. No complaints. Taking it one day at a time.

Posted by: NyToFlorida January 2, 2017, 1:30 PM
Congrats on 40 days and thank you for posting - sharing!
What other meds are you still taking. weed and something else? or did you taper off the other meds too?

Posted by: Overfifty January 2, 2017, 2:16 PM
Thank you NYtoflorida. I don't take the clonidine, nausea medication or klonapin anymore. My psychiatrist prescribes an antidepressant and mood stabilizer for my mental health. Which I believe has helped me tremendously. I had my psychiatrist years before my taper began. I am happy my story is getting shared it helps me to share.

Posted by: Overfifty January 8, 2017, 9:15 AM
I am off of methadone still. Hate counting days. I am feeling well. No cravings. We have a ice storm with snow and I don't have to worry about getting my methadone. It's so cool not to have this to deal with. My cold is better. The dang thing held on for a bit. I haven't sneezed for a day. Anyway not much to say. Taking it one day at a time.....peace

Posted by: Overfifty January 14, 2017, 10:27 AM
Still methadone free. I have no cravings no problems. Going slow on my taper really worked. The brain takes awhile to heal from methadone. I think my taper was done at a good rate because I didn't have withdrawals.I am so grateful to have this behind me. Everyone is different but I always thought my withdrawal would be a lot more painful.I was really scared. But it never happened I just quit and that was that no big ordeal. I hope this helps someone not to be scared to jump. I would come on this site and read and read looking for success stories on withdrawing from methadone. Taking it one day at a time......peace

Posted by: Overfifty January 17, 2017, 9:32 AM
Day 55 of no methadone. I feel great never had any withdrawals. I have no cravings. I can't believe this is over for me. I was so scared of the withdrawals and they never came. Now it's like a big relief to be free of this. I want to say I wasn't ready to come off I was forced to. I would of stayed on this for life....but it didn't work out that way. I am okay today though. Love the freedom of not having to take it. For me there's always the stigma of being on methadone. When you tell a new doctor or dentist your on it I felt judged. That's just me though. Whenever they would read my prescriptions I would cringe because I felt judged. I just go about my day and feel grateful everyday that I am off of methadone...Taking it one day at a time.....peace

Posted by: Overfifty January 20, 2017, 8:58 PM
Day 58 free of methadone. Trump is now POTUS. I feel good. No withdrawals have been present since day one. Still move slow because of pain but I am dealing with it. Don't have much to report just a quick check in.

Posted by: Overfifty January 22, 2017, 10:52 AM
Today is day 60 free of methadone. My two month mark. So proud of myself for sticking this out and not getting discouraged. Whatever place your at in this journey small steps do matter and add up. I have no cravings and have no desire to start my insanity over again. I will be forever grateful that there was methadone for me to get off of heroin. Because that's how this all began. I was a junkie. Sometimes I forget how life was back then because it has been years since I have used. But when I do really think about it now I get proud of myself. I stuck out a long process of getting off of it and now I am free. For me personally the only time I reflect on my past addiction is when I come on here to post my journey. I hope my story helps someone in their journey. Taking it one day at a time......peace

Posted by: Overfifty January 25, 2017, 9:46 AM
Today is day 63 off of methadone. Feeling good and no cravings. So proud of myself for getting here today. I still move slow because of pain but I am dealing with it. Mentally I am calm inside and feel normal. I am not depressed about this transition to being methadone free. I don't know what to say really except this new found freedom is wonderful. Being methadone free has given me my life back just like going on methadone gave me my life back. I am so very grateful. Taking it one day at a time....peace

Posted by: Bonnie5 January 25, 2017, 9:56 AM
hello :) thanks for ongoing posts to show everybody how can be done! Congratulation on 2 months!

Posted by: Overfifty January 26, 2017, 9:53 AM
Thank you Bonnie5. Today I read where a pain management clinic in my area closed its doors on 3000 patients. Wow. Another closing. I am so grateful to be off of methadone. I think there will be more of this in the future. So there's the motivation I use. I personally have had my clinic close on me too. I don't want to ever have that happen again to me. I am jaded. I have no faith in the system anymore. That keeps me from going back to using. The lack of doctors willing to prescribe it. Sorry for the rant. I am methadone free still. I have no cravings and despite my pain I am doing well. On the flip side I am so grateful my journey is complete. I am off of methadone that was my goal. Being in that mindset for so long I am surprised I have transitioned to nothing so easily but I am not complaining. I worked hard to get here. Anyway taking things one day at a time.....peace

Posted by: Bonnie5 January 27, 2017, 11:34 AM
it looks like your country is going trough changes regarding methadone otherwise they wouldnt close that many clinics when they should open more! Good you got out on time but I wonder what those people who are on high dose will do now, imagine been on 180 ills one day then next one nothing? back to using of course what else?

Posted by: Overfifty January 28, 2017, 12:01 PM
Today is day 66 of being methadone free. Yes Bonnie5 we are going through some changes here. The clinic was a pain clinic not exclusively methadone. I was at a doctors office getting my methadone for pain on a monthly basis. When I was given notice my doctor would be retiring. These people got 1weeks notice. Some have morphine pumps in their bodies. I don't know what they .are going to do. Another time my methadone clinic did the same thing to me. I was just out of luck. No clinic. Well I couldn't handle it and went back to heroin. I don't have another run left in me. So in my head I don't trust the prescription anymore. It could get taken away. I guess that's a motivational piece to my story. I took a bad situation and made it positive. Not needing to get well everyday is liberating for me now. I still am quit new to this so I just stay humble and grateful on a daily basis for this freedom from methadone. I am not forgetting where I came from. Anyways I am rambling. Taking this one day at a time...peace

Posted by: Overfifty February 2, 2017, 8:42 AM
Today is day 71 free of methadone. I seriously don't think of my journey except when I come to post. I feel normal and have zero cravings. I still hurt daily but just muddle through the best I can. Pain was also the reason why I took methadone. Now I take an otc pain reliever instead of a narcotic. Yes I notice a difference. But I can't dwell on it. The world is changing and I have to change too. Mentally this has been good for me. And that's a BIG deal for me. Having piece of mind. Taking things one day at a time.....peace

Posted by: poolman February 2, 2017, 5:25 PM
I am new to this board, joined today. I've been reading Overfifty's posts.
I want to say congratulations to you. I am detoxing myself. Been on Meth for about 8 years, and I said, it's time to get off. I was on methadone back in the 1970's for heroin addiction. I detoxed in 1980, & was clean for over 25 years. Then I had back problems & a lot of pain. Someone gave me a vicodin, & I got addicted to them. I couldn't afford the addiction, so I went on methadone , that was 8 years ago. I was up to 120 mgs. That was last year. I've been detoxing slowly, now I an on 25mgs. Feel fine, no problems. but I am taking it slow. From 25mgs. I'm going down 1 to 2mgs. per week.I know some people stopped at 25 mgs. but I'm taking it slow.
Overfifty, how many mgs. were you on when you stopped 71 days ago ?

Posted by: Overfifty February 3, 2017, 6:44 AM
Hi Poolman glad you found this forum. I jumped at 2.5. I was going to go down to 1 but my prescription wasn't signed and my doctor retired so I was out of luck. But it turned out great. I jumped at 2.5 and never had any withdrawls. I used clonadine nausea medication weed klonapin and xanax to withdrawl in my first week just to make sure I could handle the transition. I don't take anything now but I do smoke weed. From day one I have experienced no withdrawls. I too took methadone for pain. How are you doing today? Keep reading everyone's posts it will help you with your journey.

Posted by: Overfifty February 3, 2017, 6:58 AM
Hey Poolman wanted to say I jumped at 30 4 years ago and I had a miserable time. Over thirty days of no sleep and feeling awful. I ended up going back on methadone and succeeding this time. So yeah you can jump at higher doses but feel like crap for longer IMO. Your taper sounds good. Can't wait to hear about your journey keep posting

Posted by: poolman February 3, 2017, 4:23 PM
Overfifty, thanks for replying to my post.I'm on a clinic meth program,I go once a month.
Wednesday was my first 25 mg. Feel fine !
I will try 25 for a week, then 24 for a week & see how that goes.
You jumped at 2.5 & no sleepless nights ? Great !
How did you come down after 25 ?
I know I can do it, because I did it 30 years ago.
I will keep you guys posted. Have a great day !

Posted by: Overfifty February 4, 2017, 11:38 AM
Pullman I took about two years on tapering from 30 ml.. I was so afraid to go through withdrawals. I dropped ten right away to twenty and took my time in 2.5 increments. Along the way I had some days that I felt not up to par but they were few and far between. I kept waiting for the dreaded sleepless nights and depression. But they never came. I literally just stopped taking it one day and the next day I was fine. Have been ever since. You got this Poolman:). You did it 30 years ago successfully and you are doing it now. Pat yourself on the back your doing great. Posting on here helps me remember my progress. Taking things one day at a time......peace

Posted by: Bonnie5 February 4, 2017, 8:59 PM
Poolman how are you doing? Do you like weed or hash? It seems it played big part in Overfifty tapering and it helped me to stay away fro big H. .. it makes my cravings less frequent ..i am not planning with stopping that I mean smoking weed or hash ever! What about restless leg syndrome, do you have that? Apparently they have something for that as well (i never had that) what did yyou say on how much methadone are you right now? I really hope you are doing fine :)
Bonnie

Posted by: poolman February 6, 2017, 1:24 AM
Hi Bonnie.
I'm on 25 right now, & I feel fine.
Haven't smoked weed or hash in many years.
I do have neuropathy in my legs, I believe it's from long term use of meth.
Been on for about 8 years now. My highest dose was 120, a year ago.
Now days, it's nothing for the clinic to give patients 200 + .
We shall see how it goes as I come down. I plan on 1 mg. per week.
I will keep the group posted. I know I can do it because, I did it 30 years ago.
Thanks for asking.God bless you all !

Posted by: Bonnie5 February 8, 2017, 8:22 AM
its good to hear you are coping well :) i am go down another 5 mills as of today so now on 30 mills, the only slight problem i have last few days is hard time to get to my senses in the morning, it takes me up to 1 hour to eat drink coffee and become functional ..feeling mostly stiff and without energy but it could be from oversmoking (i always have joint just before going to sleep as it helps e fall asleep otherwise i an turn around for hours ) this is very insignificant comparing to going cold turkey(my worst nightmare) keep us posted ,you need support we're here
good luck :)

Posted by: poolman February 8, 2017, 5:52 PM
Good luck Bonnie. You can do it. just take it slow after 25 mgs.
I'm going down 1 mg. every week. Tuesday & Today were my first days on 24 mgs.
Woke up a few times during the night, no big deal.
See how it goes.

Posted by: marykat80 February 8, 2017, 11:28 PM
Bonnie.. I didn't even know you started tapering. Much strength for both you two! 💙

Posted by: constantine February 9, 2017, 10:39 AM
B...go slow...that's too fast...your gonna rattle...1 mg or 2 every week or two is better....careful lady...adjust accordingly

Posted by: Bonnie5 February 10, 2017, 9:02 AM
yes, yes i am slowing down to few mills every few weeks , depend how i feel of course :) i will never put myself voluntarily trough withdrawal trust me i wont! :)

Posted by: Overfifty February 11, 2017, 11:13 AM
Today is day 80 free of methadone. I went low and slow. I feel normal and have no cravings.I am so stoked to feel no withdrawals. Anyway just a quick update. Taking things one day at a time.......peace

Posted by: poolman February 11, 2017, 1:14 PM
That's Great overfifty ! I'm down to 24 & feeling good.
Taking it slow, 1 mg. per week & see how it goes.

Posted by: Overfifty February 11, 2017, 2:38 PM
Thank you Poolman. Keep posting your journey. 24ml. Is awesome. Glad your feeling good and motivated. Taking things one day at a time ....peace

Posted by: Bonnie5 February 13, 2017, 3:41 PM
how time goes quickly , it seems to me like only last month you first time posted ...almost 3 month ago Overfifthy :)
unfortunately at this time I am not ready for tapering so I am going to stay on 30 mills until further notice. Hope you guys are doing much better then me :)

Posted by: lolleedee February 13, 2017, 6:18 PM
Don't be so hard on yourself there, Bonnie5! There is nothing wrong with using methadone as a reovery tool. For a huge portion of opiate addicts, it is the only thing that works. You should stay on as long as you feel is necessary, tapering only when you feel absolutely ready!

My hope is one day people will be more open to medication for the treatment of addiction. There is still so much stigma surrounding such a life-saving treatment. Unfortunately, most people only hear the horror stories of methadone treatment. I guess that is because those of us who are successful just get on with our lives and go back to the business of living..for once, just blending in!

Also, to Overfifty...congrats on your taper! I am so glad that you are continuing to do well and that you are craving free! That is awesome!

Posted by: Bonnie5 February 14, 2017, 9:12 AM
i just felt its not my time yet to taper ...not feeling stable , cravings are plaguing me on daily bases (at least my craves last only few min or so)

Posted by: Overfifty February 14, 2017, 12:13 PM
Today is day 84 free of methadone. Happy Valentines day :). Feeling well, calm, and no cravings. Bonnie5 your doing what you need to. Staying away from heroin is a big deal. Methadone saved my life from being a junkie. That's why I took methadone. Be proud of yourself for recognizing you aren't ready to taper. Four years ago I too was tapering and decided to stay at 30 ml. For a couple more years. Then I started to taper again. I never had cravings after I started methadone. What I couldn't handle was the dope sickness from heroin. Methadone was my way out. Now I don't need to use methadone but it didn't happen overnight it took me years. Thank you Lollidee for your kind words. Taking things one day at a time......peace

Posted by: Overfifty February 20, 2017, 12:34 PM
90 days today!!! I am feeling normal :) that's how awesome things are. Just normal. I have no words to describe this feeling. No drama life is simple. I am grateful and humbled . Taking things one day at a time. I will post again at 120 days there abouts. I don't have anything to say except it's been a long journey. The monkey is off my back and the circus has left town.

Posted by: George Costanza March 1, 2017, 12:17 AM
Overfifty:::: I would like to suggest to you to go read up on vitamin D and then go buy some and take it everyday. Within a week or so you are going to see big changes in how you feel regards to your health. When you see how great it works for you come back on and let me know. It's helped me and I'm helping you buy telling you about it.

Posted by: marykat80 March 1, 2017, 2:29 AM
George you sound like me. I was a on a vitamin d kick...a vitamin d-3 kick..a 'never heard of this f***ing vitamin' kick. Went threw em all almost. She sounds like she's doing good..yeah s*** can always change but let's not predict that for her..as everyone's symptoms different. Guessing you are talking about for depression? Some people get early on..some later..and the lucky ones not at all (Maybe people less predisposioned to it?)PAWS would hit (if hits) about now (maybe a bit before? But not much)..but even then depression isn't always attatched with.


Posted by: George March 1, 2017, 8:42 AM
Hey MK I took this because I was tired all the time. Didn't matter how much sleep I got or how little I just felt like crap all the time. Aches and pains, fed up, yes depression. I just got sick of feeling like I did. Then a friend told me about vitamin d and I thought yeah right. Then I tried it and I did and still do and it's made a big difference. I don't feel crappy run down, tired and I just feel better somehow. I'm telling Overfifty to take it for the tiredness. Go read up on it. It does a lot of things. You guys are doing great. Keep fighting the good fight. Peace.

Posted by: Overfifty March 4, 2017, 10:35 AM
Thank you George for the info on vitamin d. I am buying it today!! I definitely think this will help me. Have a beautiful Saturday.....peace

Posted by: Overfifty March 12, 2017, 11:43 AM
Having a cup of coffee watching the news. Today is day 110 off of methadone. I tried the vitamin d haven't noticed a difference yet but it's still early:) I am doing really good. Unless I come her to post I don't think about this. I have no depression from quitting methadone. I do have regular depression that I see a doctor for. I am proud of where I am today. I did it!!

Posted by: Bonnie5 March 18, 2017, 6:32 PM
and you should be proud .. would love for you to stick around as I am sure others will need your help ... thanks for sharing , always pleasure to read your comments :)

Posted by: Overfifty March 19, 2017, 7:32 AM
Thank you so much Bonnie5. I am still going strong lol still methadone free. I will still post my progress. I don't enjoy counting days so I probably won't anymore. I too enjoy reading your posts. You give very good advice. Thank you for following my journey.

Posted by: Overfifty March 28, 2017, 8:49 AM
I am still methadone free. I feel fine no cravings. No dreaded paws. My life doesn't revolve around my methadone use anymore. It is quite awesome. The freedom I feel is marvelous. I never have to go through this again. Needless to say I am proud of myself. This is a big deal to me, not being on methadone. Taking things one day at a time...........

Posted by: Bonnie5 April 1, 2017, 5:22 PM
just saying "Hello" :) with springtime here and lot of sunshine everything is better , feeling positive these days hope you are good too!

Posted by: Overfifty April 3, 2017, 10:37 AM
Thank you Bonnie5:) I appreciate your kind words. Glad your feeling positive:) for me it makes the day better. Happy Springtime!!

Posted by: Granny2 3 April 3, 2017, 11:47 PM
Overfifty,

I used to be on this methadone board a lot, started it actually, and I am really glad to hear your detox was successful. You are on the right tract and you can spend your golden years with your family. I'm sure they love the new and refreshed Mom and grandma, and not the one who was struggling.

The stigma for methadone is still going strong but for those of us who used it to end their addiction to heroin know what good it has done for us in our lives. The reason this board was needed is for just this reason. So people, like yourself, can share their experiences with others about their journey on methadone, whether they are still on it or wanting to detox. No one knows better than another addict.

I am almost 64 and have been clean 23+ years because of methadone. I am actually detoxing, one mg a month, just to lower my dose. I am in no hurry. I live a full and crazy life, the days fly by!!! My adult grandkids keep me on my toes with all their life ordeals but I wouldn't have it any other way. I also volunteer at my clinic as a patient advocate, chair a weekly meeting, and write a newsletter there as well, to give back to new and old methadone patients to show them their IS life after addiction.

Keep chatting with Constantine, she's a good one for real experiences.

Hey Con!!! It's Granny!! How are ya doin"?? I can't seem to find the time to keep up communications all the time. Mom NMore, Jack......all the old timers I see aren't around at all anymore. I guess life happened to them too!!

Take care you two, stay safe. Until next time!!!

granny

Posted by: Overfifty April 4, 2017, 6:56 PM
Thank you granny2 3 for starting the methadone board and sharing your journey. I appreciate your guidance. as this is all so new. You have a lot of wisdom. Have a beautiful day:)

Posted by: Overfifty April 9, 2017, 11:24 AM
Day 138 off of methadone. Feeling good. Doing things unconventional for some but it's working for me:) I have been given permission to design my own recovery plan by me. Maybe this sounds nuts but after 20 plus years trying to fit into NA/AA something had to change. With the help of professionals I designed a program that has worked for me. I suffered no withdrawals from tapering off methadone. I am happy. Coming on here is the only time I think about this which is progress to me.

Posted by: Overfifty April 23, 2017, 10:15 AM
Just a quick update I am doing well and still METHADONE FREE. No cravings and no depression from quitting methadone. I am just living life. But it's freedom for me not to be tied to it anymore. But I will say that methadone saved my life from heroin. The board is becoming a ghost town. I don't post so much anymore. But I thought a quick hello would be nice. So hello everyone:)

Posted by: Overfifty May 21, 2017, 7:42 PM
Today is day 180 off of methadone. I feel great!! Doing well no cravings. Have a beautiful day:)......peace.

Posted by: Bonnie5 June 5, 2017, 6:22 AM
nice to know you are doing good :)

Posted by: Overfifty June 7, 2017, 10:40 AM
Hi Bonnie5 it's nice to hear from you:) Thank you very much for your kind words. Sending blessings your way......peace

Posted by: Overfifty June 25, 2017, 7:10 AM
Happy Sunday everyone. Day 198 off of methadone. No cravings no PAWS. I am in a great place in my life. So grateful I don't take it anymore and I don't miss worrying about withdrawals. Enjoy the summer........peace

Posted by: Overfifty July 10, 2017, 6:31 PM
Today is day 213 off of methadone. I am doing really good and feel amazing. Went swimming yesterday and had the best of time. Just a relaxing day in the sun. Enjoying life:) These small pleasures are what life's all about for me. Hope your day is magical........peace

Posted by: Overfifty July 20, 2017, 9:35 AM
Rocking 223 days free of methadone:) I am doing wonderful. No depression from quitting or PAWS. I am enjoying the summer. Have a marvelous rest of July!!

Posted by: itspossible July 20, 2017, 10:06 AM
you are an inspiration to a lot of people overfifty..There are a ton of people that read this board but just don't post..I was one of them for a long time..you are doing those people a great service..

happy summer to you !!!

Posted by: Overfifty July 20, 2017, 11:44 AM
Thank you for saying that:). Your kind words are very nice. Have a wonderful day!!

Posted by: itspossible July 24, 2017, 9:35 AM
just checking in on ya overfifty, how ya feeling living a free life? more people should follow your recipe for success..i have the upmost respect for all the people that can free themselves from this beast..this board is starting to hop with success stories, I'm hoping we can add to it...Have a great day..

Posted by: Overfifty July 24, 2017, 7:45 PM
I am 227 days free of methadone. Thank you for checking up on me it made my day brighter itspossible. I am doing good. Life is much easier:) I find that my simple life is a reward in itself too. Music is so enjoyable to me now. I smile more for no reason at all. These are some of the things I have noticed that changed when I quit. Reading all the success stories on here is wonderful. I still have a hard time posting I can't seem to find the right things to say. I need to make more of an effort. I don't sneeze anymore lol and I don't sweat horribly anymore. The sweating was awful for me. I couldn't get my hair dry even with a blow dryer. I spend a lot more time with my family. I just realized I feel more content with life on the whole:) Have a beautiful day..........peace

Posted by: itspossible July 28, 2017, 6:57 PM
just checking in on you overfifty..you doing ok?

Posted by: Overfifty July 29, 2017, 8:46 AM
I am methadone free. I am doing good today. Thank you for checking up on me:) Have a beautiful day.......peace

Posted by: Randomperson August 7, 2017, 2:25 AM
Hi Overfifty.......I just want to say I loved reading your journey. You are an inspiration and are helping more people than you probably realize. Some of your posts made me laugh out loud (lol). I too am in the process of tapering off of methadone and for a similar reason but it's late and I don't want to go into too much detail. I was at 80mg at my highest dose and have been on it for over 12 years. I am currently at 10mg and will be cutting back 2.5 mg every other week until I jump. I'm a little scared of the jump but feel much more confident after reading your post. I don't smoke weed but I do have xanax so it will have to do! You are an inspiration and should be proud of yourself!!! I'm proud of myself for getting to 10mg and can't wait to be free like you! Thank you so much for all your posts. God bless you! And also to everyone who posts here as one poster said many read but don't post. I was one and am so thankful for this board and all the encouragement.......keep it up!

Posted by: overfifty August 8, 2017, 11:48 AM
Hi Randomperson:). I am still methadone free!! Thank you for all the nice words you said. I wanted to say that your doing an awesome job tapering!! Comfort meds helped me make the transition. I tried it without many times only to fail. So yeah I am proud of myself for coming this far. You should post your journey in a new thread. It's wonderful to go back and read about it later on....very therapeutic. Stay strong..........peace

Posted by: Randomperson August 9, 2017, 1:09 AM
Hi overfifty.......you know I didn't think about doing a new thread but that is a good idea. Maybe I will! I know your journey and other people's posts sure are encouraging to me and that is what you want when you're going through something like this. I haven't made the jump off yet but I will be soon. Right now I'm at 10mg and I feel ok. If I'm being honest this has been the hardest drop yet. So far I have gone from 30mg to 10mg in 8 weeks coming down 5mg at a time but this last 5mg I can feel. It's still not bad if I'm being truthful..... I tend to dramatize things but I think I am going to go down 2 1/2mg from here on out every two or three weeks depending on how I feel. I don't smoke weed and I have a full time job so I have to be able to function. I do have Motrin and Xanax and I just started a low dose of Elavil. I think I'll be ok......you did good and I'm tapering like you. The one thing I have noticed is the insomnia...... which seems to hit me around the 5th day and it lasts about a week .....for me that has been the only real negative I've noticed until this last 5mg drop in which I'm feeling achy. I'm determined though!! And your journey has been very inspirational and motivating! So Thamk You for sharing!! You may never know all the people your story has impacted but just know that it has impacted people!

Posted by: Overfifty August 12, 2017, 8:59 AM
Hi randomperson:) Thank you for sharing your taper. It sounds like you have a solid plan in place. I am still methadone free. I didn't have insomnia but I also am not a big sleeper maybe 5 or 6 hours a night. You've come a long way randomperson you should pat yourself on the back. For me personally I didn't want to suffer so I tapered real slow. I also let my body decide if I was ready to move on. It sounds like your doing this too. Going to get a cup of coffee and start my Saturday. Have a beautiful day...........peace

Posted by: itspossible August 14, 2017, 5:27 PM
I'm checking in on ya overfifty..hows it going? hope all is well and life is treating you good..

Posted by: Overfifty August 14, 2017, 6:48 PM
Hi itspossible:) I am doing good and still methadone free. My life is pretty even keeled. No drama either. This helps me on a daily basis. I am very content. Have my granddaughter over and going swimming tomorrow. It's a beautiful day............peace

Posted by: Randomperson August 15, 2017, 1:32 PM
Hi overfifty I just want to let you know that today is 3 weeks at 10mg. This has been the hardest drop for me and I'm thinking it's because I dropped too fast. I have been dropping 5mg every two weeks and was doing great until this last drop. It has been 3 weeks today and I feel ok but not ready to drop again yet. I'm hoping one more week and then drop 2.5mg. I am anxious to be done with this drug but I don't want to fail. It's hard too when I have a bottle full of them....not to give in and just take one. That is another reason I want to wait to drop again. I don't want to rush and then fail. I am sooo determined for so many reasons but it is hard. I'm alone in this too so the posts really encourage me and make me feel less alone. Anyway just wanted to let you know how I'm doing. You should feel so very proud for beating this devil. Take care!

Posted by: Overfifty August 15, 2017, 3:47 PM
Hi randomperson:) I agree that you might be going too fast. I personally would stabilize then drop after that. I also think it will help cravings if you taper slower. Posting your journey really is therapeutic. Connecting with others and sharing information helps me too. I feel very grateful that I've come this far. You are doing awesome remember this.!! Have a beautiful day........peace

Posted by: Randomperson August 20, 2017, 2:08 PM
Hi overfifty I just want t say that I'm doing good. I'm feeling pretty good now and am going to stay here at 10mg for another week and then I'm going to drop 2.5mg. I am planning to go down 2.5mg every three weeks or so until I jump. I'm feeling confident that I can do it. I think at that point I will post my own thread to read my journey and also for encouragement. It's funny but reading your journey and others really helps! Just knowing how tapering down helps with the awful withdrawal is motivating me. All in all it's been good and the hardest drop has been my lat drop but I think I dropped by too much. I think going slowly from here on out is best. I hope you're doing great and I'll post again soon. Take care!

Posted by: Overfifty August 25, 2017, 8:43 PM
Sorry I haven't posted earlier. I have been really stressed and haven't been myself. I am glad your doing good randomperson. I agree with you on tapering. It helped me so much. Life on life's terms eh? It's easier said than done sometimes but I keep trying:) I think posting your journey in your own thread is great. I looked for it but haven't seen it yet. I look forward to following your journey. Oh btw I am still methadone free woop woop!! I am rambling now I better say bye for now......peace

Posted by: itspossible August 25, 2017, 10:07 PM
good to hear from you overfifty..im sorry your going through a situation, but you are not alone,myself, and many others are right here with you and for you if needed..

Posted by: Overfifty August 25, 2017, 10:44 PM
Thank you randomperson:) I appreciate your kind words.

Posted by: Randomperson August 25, 2017, 11:45 PM
Hi Overfifty it's good to hear from you! That wasn't me by the way it was itspossible. I agree with him or her though we're here for you if you need to vent. Sorry you're stressed and I hope whatever is causing it gets sorted fast. I haven't started my own thread yet because I haven't actually jumped yet. I'm still sitting here at 10mg getting far too comfortable and I know I need to drop again soon before I stall .......something I don't want to do! Anyway I plan on starting a thread when I taper down to zero. So I will let you know when I do that. I'm not really feeling anymore WD symptoms except for fatigue.......I just have no energy and that has been hard. Just feeling bla. However I know that I want off of this drug and I'm not turning back now! I hope I'm as lucky as you when I jump but either way I'm jumping..... I'm just not afraid anymore there is too much other s*** to be scared of then this!!! Anyway I'm saying a prayer for you and sending positive thoughts your way:). Please know we're here for you. Peace:-)

Posted by: Overfifty August 26, 2017, 9:33 AM
Thank you itspossible for your post it was very nice:). I sometimes forget that this is a community of people here to help. Thank you again!! Hey randomperson thank you for pointing that out. I didn't notice the name was different. It takes a village:) My stress is better today I got a good nights sleep. The animals are wanting to be fed and are pacing about. I am the feeder so when I get up they are excited. I just celebrated a birthday and today we are celebrating it. BBQ and swimming should be a lot of fun. I am glad you are doing good. Better go feed the animals. Thank you to everyone who reads my thread. You really help me in this journey.......peace

Posted by: Randomperson August 26, 2017, 12:22 PM
Hi overfifty I'm glad you're doing better. Happy Birthday!!! Enjoy your day and the BBQ and swimming. I'm taking my daughter to Waterworld today. It's supposed to be over 100' today....yikes!

Posted by: Overfifty August 28, 2017, 9:43 AM
Hi randomperson:). I had an awesome birthday. Going to the water park is so much fun. I wish we had one here in Oregon. I am still methadone free. Enjoying a cup of coffee now. I also watched the season finale of game of thrones last night. Can't wait for season 8. Small little pleasures of mine. Hope everyone's weekend was good.......peace

Posted by: Overfifty August 31, 2017, 9:19 AM
Good morning everyone:) I am still methadone free😀. We are having a little heat wave for us. Going to the park and shopping today. Just doing stuff early and inside. Staying with my daughter for a few days while her husband works out of town. Spending time with my granddaughters. Having a great summer........peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 2, 2017, 2:46 PM
Hi overfifty I'm glad you're doing well and still Methadone free! I'm in California and we're having a heat wave too. Yesterday got to 110 and today it's supposed to reach 112! Crazy. We're going to the mall to stay cool. Btw I dropped another 2.5mg so now I am at 7.5mg a day. Doing great and hope to drop again in 4 weeks or sooner if I'm feeling good. Enjoy your time with your daughter and granddaughter and stay cool!!:-) Talk to you soon.....peace

Posted by: Overfifty September 2, 2017, 7:25 PM
Hi randomperson:), going to the mall is an excellent heat escape. Wow 😳 110 is crazy hot!! Today it's 90 which is doable but still hot for me. Your doing awesome in your taper. I am just hanging out at home today. Made a taco salad and cleaned a bit today. Can't believe it's already September making today #284 days free of methadone. I can't believe so much time has passed. We have a wildfire close so our air is full of smoke. It's so hazy. So being outside isn't recommended. I might be at the mall tomorrow if it keeps up. I am now at a crossroad myself. I have been smoking weed for pain but am considering quitting. I am starting to feel the same way about it as I did about methadone. I guess time will tell what my next move is. Just needed to get this off of my chest. I am still pro weed regardless if I quit. It has helped me soooo much just like my methadone. I am rambling on. Happy Saturday.........peace

Posted by: Overfifty September 3, 2017, 10:34 AM
Good morning:) woke up looked outside and there's so much smoke from wildfires. I thought a lot about my last post and I am starting today!!! No weed for me. I am going to post my progress on the marijuana board. Since this is the methadone board I will still post here for that. Feeling strong this morning. Just needed to get that off my chest.................peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 3, 2017, 1:40 PM
Hey overfifty that's great! I'm so proud of you for stopping the weed! Do you get withdrawal from weed? I sure hope not. If so maybe you should taper that as well if you can. I think it's great that you're going for it! I don't smoke it so I don't have any experience there but I'm sure you can do it. I'm still here at 7.5mg and will probably stay here for a few more weeks and then cut back another 2.5mg. I can't believe that soon I will be completely off......crazy! Anyway I will look on the weed board sometime and see how you're doing. You rock! Today is the last day of our heatwave and it's supposed to get to 106 so not as bad as the last two days. Tomorrow it's only supposed to reach 94.........still hot but bearable! Take care and I'll talk to you later. Peace :-)

Posted by: Overfifty September 3, 2017, 2:32 PM
Thank you randomperson for your support:). I don't know what to expect from this but I did reduce my THC before I quit. I am glad to hear your heatwave will be over. We have an advisory to stay indoors because air quality is unhealthy. The wildfires are keeping smoke here in the valley. Before you know it you will be done with methadone 😀. You are doing awesome on your taper. Your in the home stretch woo hoo!! Your doing everything right now time just has to pass. Looks like I will be staying at home today. So far it's been about 15 hours since I smoked and I feel fine. No withdrawls to speak of. I am very grateful for this. Happy Sunday............peace

Posted by: itspossible September 4, 2017, 7:09 PM
just checking up on ya overfifty,how are you doing?

Posted by: Overfifty September 5, 2017, 9:07 AM
Hi itspossible:) today is 287 days off of methadone. I don't miss it at all. I haven't had cravings either. The air quality today is hazardous because of wildfires. Going outside requires a mask. I am getting a little stir crazy staying indoors. My granddaughter is suppose to come over but with all this smoke who knows. I am doing very well. I am so grateful. Have a beautiful day..............peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 8, 2017, 12:00 PM
My account got screwed up so now I am overfifty55. Still me:). I am doing very well. Feeling very positive and motivated this morning. I am methadone free and have quit the weed. (Day6) and don't have any withdrawals from that. I feel super grateful that I have been spared horrible withdrawl symptoms. The days just go by and another day is under my belt. Taking this one day at a time.........peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 8, 2017, 4:00 PM
Hey overfifty I am so proud of you! You're doing such a great job with this! You really are fortunate to not have any withdrawal. I'm at 7.5mg and doing remarkably well. I definitely think cutting back by 2.5mg is better than cutting back by 5mg. It might take a little longer but for me it's worth it not to get bad withdrawals. I do notice the drop but it's bearable and not as bad as I expected so super happy with that. It's been almost two weeks since I dropped and I hope to drop again in two weeks or so. Then I'll be at 5mg! Hopefully I'll be off by Christmas!!! So glad you're doing well and also grateful for your journey because it motivates me! Keep killing it and have a great weekend! I'll check back soon. Peace 😁

Posted by: itspossible September 8, 2017, 5:40 PM
I'm watching ya random person..just keep doing your thing,time flys and you will be off before you know it..

overfifty - nice job on your next step..I have got to say though, I'm pro weed myself..I don't smoke and haven't smoked since I got off the drain train,but if I ever needed any help,that would be the first thing I went to..everybody has to do what they think is best for them..you are an inspiration to a lot of people..

Posted by: Randomperson September 8, 2017, 7:19 PM
Thanks for the vote of confidence itspossible! I can't believe I'm down to 7.5mg. You're right though it will be behind me soon enough! I, like overfifty decided to taper down and so far it's working although I did have a bit of a harder time when I dropped from 15mg to 10mg. I think I was expecting to feel better after two weeks and when I didn't I got a little panicked but after 4 weeks I felt much better and was able to drop again at 5 weeks. This is a hard drug to quit but I have found that reading other stories about how awful the withdrawals are and how hard or impossible it is only discouraged me and made me doubt myself. Now I try to stay away from that and only read the positive stories...... like overfifty! Anyway I'm trudgen along and doing surprisingly well. I'm just hoping that I continue to do this well. Regardless I'm getting off......I've only so many pills left. Take care!😁

Posted by: itspossible September 11, 2017, 11:52 AM
I'm checking in on you overfifty,randomperson..I hope you guys are doing ok..

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 11, 2017, 8:15 PM
I am a suffering soul woe is me lol Feeling a bit raggedy. Hey randomperson how are you doing today? I am still methadone free and have quit smoking.(day9) I am more agitated and snappy. Thank you itspossible for checking up on me:) These last couple days have been rough. I saw my therapist today and that helped, easy does it............peace

Posted by: itspossible September 11, 2017, 9:10 PM
I'm sorry your a little ragedy..For what its worth I haven't been on top of my game either for the past few days..Time heals all..If you can beat the all mighty methadone, you can certainly whoop this , I have faith in you, ill put my money on you winning..

Posted by: Randomperson September 11, 2017, 10:42 PM
Hi Overfifty and itspossible......it's great to hear from you! I'm so sorry you both are feeling crappy😚 For what it's worth overfifty you're doing so awesome and should be super proud of yourself......you got off methadone and without withdrawal! You can beat this too and if not it's ok! You still rock!! Itspossible what seems to have you down? I'm doing really good overall but I have my days. I have been fortunate not to have bad withdrawal but even so I have noticed insomnia around the 6th day as well as a little overall achyness and some blues I guess.....just feeling a little bla and then when that seems to get better it's time to drop again! Still if I can get completely off with just that I'm fortunate!! Wishing you both some good love!!! Overfifty you're always in my thoughts because you did such an awesome job and shared your story! Try to stay positive and be proud......this too shall pass. You too itspossible.........tomorrow's a new day and you both are awesome! Peace🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 12, 2017, 9:42 AM
Good morning randomperson:). Thank you for the kind words yesterday. Today is a new day and except for sweating I feel optimistic. Today is 294 days off methadone. Your right that I didn't have withdrawls. Which I attributed to tapering slowly like you are doing:). Which is awesome!! I am going to my daughters for a few days. That always perks me up being around my granddaughters. Gets me outta my funk. Have a wonderful Tuesday.........peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 12, 2017, 9:47 AM
Sorry itspossible that you have be under the weather. Thank you for having faith in me. Another day has passed and we made it through:). one day at a time. Have a wonderful Tuesday.....peace

Posted by: itspossible September 12, 2017, 7:57 PM
good evening random and overfifty,

@random -- I'm ok, I only have minor physical issues,nothing huge.. I'm worrying about a few things is all.. I actually don't like to say to much out here in the open for the world to see if you know what I mean.. It just small things, but never the less..well you know..
@OVERFIFTY you are a very good grandparent, and rightfully so..Nothing will put things in perspective like an innocent childs face..I hope you have a breakthrough, I'm pulling for you..

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 13, 2017, 9:19 AM
Woke up feeling good:). You are so right itspossible about grandchildren:) my granddaughters got my mind off of myself and I had a wonderful evening. Enjoying a cup of coffee and the girls. I love mornings...........peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 13, 2017, 11:19 PM
Hi overfifty and itspossible I hope you guys are doing better. I think I've caught my daughter's cold and I'm not feeling great. Sore throat and headache......no fun.

I totally get you itspossible about not wanting to say much for anyone to see but the upside is that you're anonymous so although you're able to get it off your chest no one knows it's you!! Lol. This is like therapy for me. I don't have anyone to talk to about it so I talk about it here.....it makes me feel less alone. But with that being said it does feel more and more like Big Brother is always watching and always knows.....kind of scary when you think about it like that!

Overfifty it sounds like you have a great relationship with your daughter and granddaughters and that is wonderful.......children do bring the joy out in us and it sounds like you were out of your funk this morning.🙂 It's great that you can spend that time together.

Anyway I'm still hanging on at 7.5mg and doing ok. I'm thinking that I'll drop again around the first of the month but we'll see how it goes. I'm anxious but also don't want to drop too soon. I hope you both have a great evening and I'll check back soon. Peace 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 14, 2017, 9:30 PM
Hi randomperson:). I hope your feeling better tonight. Your taper is going good I am proud of you. Your not in a rush which I believe is best for your brain and body. I am doing good today no complaints. Had a nice spaghetti dinner and the girls are playing outside. I am just enjoying the quietness of the evening............peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 17, 2017, 9:36 PM
Hi overfifty I hope you had a great weekend! I'm feeling much better thank you. It was just a head cold and sore throat. It only lasted 3 days. I'm also still doing great at 7.5mg. I still plan on waiting till the first of the month to drop again just because I'm trying to let my body adjust.....plus I keep getting insomnia and it seems like as soon as I start sleeping again I drop again so I'm just trying to get some good sleep in before I drop again. I hope you are doing great and enjoyed your weekend with your daughter and granddaughter's.... it sure sounds like you did! Anyway I'm going to take my daughter up to the little park here in our subdivision so I wil check back soon. Peace!🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 18, 2017, 11:03 AM
Good morning randomperson:) Well this weekend I was sick with the flu and today I still feel weak. Everyone got it in my daughters family too. Your doing awesome in your taper!!! My cat is on my shoulder making it hard to post lol. My cat is my baby. I only have one cat but still a crazy cat lady. I even take my cat over to my daughters. Did you have a nice time at the park? I love taking the girls to the park. I am still methadone free. Which I don't even think about unless I am writing on here. It's as if I was never on it. I am getting close to it being a year.(thanksgiving) which isn't too shabby. I understand you wanting to get good sleep. I am not a sleeper 4-5 hours at the most. I have just gotten use to it I guess. The rain is here and I am looking forward to the cooler weather. Have a beautiful day.......peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 21, 2017, 10:31 AM
Hey overfifty I hope you're feeling better now. Sorry you and your family got the flu......it is that time of year and it's no fun being sick! I hope you're all feeling better. I am so glad that we're heading into fall. I love fall......all the beautiful colors and not too hot! We had a nice time at the park, my daughter loves to kick the soccer ball around and shoot hoops and the park is a nice size and super close to our house so it's convenient. I think that's funny that your cat sits on your shoulder lol..... I am trying to picture it. I love animals and we have two cats that are indoor/outdoor cats and they can be very entertaining! Anyway I can't believe you're coming on a year without methadone!! You must feel so proud and relieved that you're done with it and it's behind you! I can't wait till I can say that! I am hoping to be off by Christmas or sooner but I'm taking it slow because I don't want to fail. I'm still feeling pretty good where I'm at except for the sleep issue but I'm sure that is more than just cutting back my methadone. I hope the rest of your week is great and I'll check back soon. Peace 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 22, 2017, 10:47 PM
Hi randomperson:) Thank you for checking up on me. The flu is gone now. I feel great. Your doing awesome at your taper. Your going nice and slow which is the best way to go IMO. My sleep has been a little better this week. 5-6 hours a night. I am exhausted tonight. Been with the grandkids all day. Made some cookies earlier and making soup tomorrow. Stocking up my freezer full of my favorites. I am quite proud of myself for getting off of methadone. It's just a memory for me. I am seeing a new doctor next month and I don't have to hope they will prescribe methadone. It use to be an issue when getting a new doctor. I love fall and the cooler temps. I am really tired will post more later.........peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 25, 2017, 10:20 AM
Good morning:). Enjoying my coffee and the crazy news. Today is 307 days free of methadone. Taking things one day at a time.....peace

Posted by: Granny2 3 September 25, 2017, 8:09 PM
Bonnie,
Obummercare as we like to call it actually does pay for methadone if your qualify for Medicaid, insurance for the poor which most heroin addicts are.

I have a private insurance, Kaiser, and they are now paying for it since I switched to them in Jan 2017. Saved me $225.00 a month which is from a sliding scale fee and for which I have been paying for many years.

Hopefully Pres Trump wont screw that up but with all the hype on opiates and opioids on the news here in the states I highly doubt it..


HI CONSTANTINE!!!! HOW ARE YA GIRL???

Granny

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 27, 2017, 4:44 PM
It's a beautiful day:). Just wanted to say hi!! All is well.....peace

Posted by: itspossible September 27, 2017, 9:54 PM
hello grandparent of the year,overfifty..Glad to see your doing ok..Hope life is treating you well..I just stopped by to say hello..

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 28, 2017, 11:39 AM
Thank you for the compliment itspossible:) I am with my granddaughters today. I am doing well. The weather is hot today so probably will be doing something. It's suppose to be twenty degrees cooler on Friday so today is our last hoorah. I am still methadone free. Looking forward to this week going shopping for clothes. Doing some me stuff. Then my daughters birthday is next week and a bunch of us are going to lunch. It's this kind of stuff I appreciate so much. Family is very important to me. Getting back to me lol my life is better off of methadone. The freedom of being able to go anywhere and do anything at anytime is fantastic. How about with you? I don't have to think about it anymore. Sending good vibes...........peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 29, 2017, 7:04 PM
Hi itspossible and overfifty! I hope you guys are doing great! I'm just checking in. My daughter has been sick and it's been very busy lately so I haven't had a chance to check in. I dropped another 2.5mg on Tuesday so I am now at 5mg! I have to say it's been going well so far except for the insomnia! I feel fortunate that I haven't suffered any bad withdrawals or backslid. I'm going strong and still determined! I think I'm going to stay at 5mg for a few months before I drop again but we'll see. It just depends on how I feel. I'm grateful for this board because it's an outlet for me and also a source of encouragement. Especially after reading your story overfifty. Well anyway I hope you both have a great weekend and I will check back later tonight or tomorrow......Peace 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 September 29, 2017, 11:38 PM
Good evening randomperson:) I am glad your daughter is on the mend. Being sick is no fun. Nice job in going down on your dose. 5ml. Is awesome!! Taking your time is definitely the way to go. I am so proud of your accomplishment. Sleep is still a hit and miss for me. I am sorry your having insomnia. I like coming to this message board too. I searched and searched for success stories when I was tapering.I was determined to not have a bad withdrawal. I went slow and voila here I am now. So happy being methadone free. Thank you for your kind words about my posts. I still want to document my journey. It helps me see where I have been and how I've changed. Sending good vibes........peace

Posted by: Randomperson September 30, 2017, 2:28 PM
Hi Overfifty. Yes my daughter seems to be doing better but she has to see a specialist on Friday. I hope it's nothing serious. I definitely feel proud for getting where I'm at. I'm just curious how long did you stay at 5mg. before dropping to 2.5mg? And then how long were you on 2.5mg. before you quit altogether? I'm just curious because I want to follow suit so that when I stop altogether I won't have bad withdrawals. I'm very fortunate to have a lot of pills left. That's because I had been cutting back for a while and built up a lot of extras. It sure is coming in handy now. I still can't believe I'm down to 5mg! I've been on it for 12 years! I was at 80mg for about 2 of those years then 45mg for about 7years then I went to 30mg about 3 years ago and then I have dropped to 5mg staring June 13th! I am very proud and so grateful that I haven't experienced severe withdrawals. I think it's because I'm going slow and because it's something I really want. I wasn't forced off.....it's been my choice. I think that has a lot to do with it. Anyway I still plan on starting a new thread when I drop to zero. Hopefully we both will have similar success and that may encourage others that you can get off without suffering severe withdrawals. I'll check back soon. I hope you have a great day!😁

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 1, 2017, 9:34 AM
Good morning randomperson:) You are so close to being off of methadone that's so cool. For me I spent a couple months at 5ml. Before I dropped to 2.5ml. IMO 1ml. a month worked for me when tapering. I spent a couple months at 2.5 ml. and a couple days at 1ml. I jumped basically at 2.5 ml. because I was out of pills. I didn't suffer withdrawls. I used meds for the first week off of methadone. ( smoked weed ). I slept more the first week off of methadone which is weird cause I'm not a sleeper. I don't know if I needed the meds but they gave me peace of mind. I hadn't read any success stories they were all struggling with severe withdrawls. I was really scared. Then when I jumped my story was different. NO withdrawls. I hate to beat a dead horse but tapering slowly is the way to go. One thing I will say is I am under doctors care for depression. I take medication for this still. In past attempts to quit I wasn't taking meds or under a doctors care. This helped me a lot since I had been on methadone and opiates for so long. Tomorrow I am going to a new doctor which is stressful for me. Having to fill out paperwork about drug history is always hard. I feel so ashamed of that. But proud now that I'm off of the methadone. Not needing it from the doctor is freedom. Today is 313 days off of methadone. Patting myself on the back for this. I am rambling on sorry. Thinking of your daughter going to the specialist on Friday. Wishing her Godspeed. I hope I have answered you so it helps. Taking things one day at a time.......peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 3, 2017, 4:02 PM
Hi overfifty. Thank you for all the information. It really does help. I do have medication for depression too plus Xanax. I think it helps. I think I may stay at 5mg for a few months. Then I will reduce another 2.5mg. I am not sure how to cut the pill to equal 1mg so I will probably just quit altogether from 2.5mg. I am hopeful that it will go pretty much the way it's been going. I won't know for sure until I make the last jump but I'm determined so regardless of how it goes I'm getting off. I have already cut back 25mg over the last 3 months and I'm doing ok. I have not had too much trouble except when I went from 15mg to 10 and since then I've been dropping 2.5mg over a longer span so yeah a slow taper seems to be working. I think when you get lower it's probably better to stay longer at the dose and give your body more time to adjust. My only real negative has been insomnia but I get some sleep it's just a lot less than I would like and need. I fall asleep ok but then I wake up between 2am and 3am and just can't get back to sleep. I know eventually that will pass (at least it better).😁 Anyway I appreciate all your help because it has been helping me. Plus just knowing you've been through it and are doing so good is very motivating. I am going through this alone but I don't feel so alone because of the board. It and you have been a godsend. Anyway now I'm rambling! Take care and I'll keep you posted. Peace 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 4, 2017, 1:07 PM
Good morning randomperson:) Thank you for all your kind words. Knowing I have helped you makes me happy. You have helped me too. Staying connected on this board and sharing my journey helps me so much. Like you I am alone doing this too. My family supports me but they don't understand. I agree with you about going slower when you get lower. Letting your body and brain time to adjust. I'm glad you have medication. It really helped me when I jumped. Your doing an awesome job in your taper. Everyday is a little miracle. My sleep sounds like yours. Waking up and not being able to go back to sleep. I am getting some tests done to determine the cause. I will sleep with a machine that attaches to my finger. Anyway I am interested in the reason why my sleep is so poor. Mine has been like this for a long time. Yesterday was my daughters birthday we had a wonderful lunch with family. The weather is sunny but much cooler. I enjoy this time of year so much. Hoping your daughter is doing well:) sending both of you good vibes........peace. Hey itspossible thinking of you today:). Wishing you a beautiful Wednesday!!

Posted by: Randomperson October 6, 2017, 11:58 AM
Hi overfifty. I hope you are doing great today. So glad you got to celebrate with your daughter for her birthday......family is so important. I take my daughter to her apt today so hopefully we'll get some answers. Hey let me know what happens with your sleep test.....I'm curious if there is some sort of medical reason behind it. I used to sleep better but I've always had some sleep issues. However since cutting back on the methadone it's been brutal! I'm hoping that once I'm off for a while it will go back to normal or my normal anyway. So I'm doing pretty good on 5mg and plan to stay at this dose until around the first of December but we'll see ....who knows if I'm feeling really good I'll cut back sooner. I'm only going to drop 2,5mg though and then I'll stay at that dose for a few months and jump. I may do it sooner but I'm not forcing myself to. It will all depend on how I feel. But it's been going good so far so I'm optimistic. I can't believe you're coming up on a full year methadone free! How awesome is that?! Anyway I hope you get some answers about your sleep. Have a great weekend and I'll be in touch. Peace 😁

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 7, 2017, 6:23 AM
Hi randomperson:) Laying here at 2:30 unable to get back to sleep. I am at my daughters otherwise I would get up and watch t.v. I will be very interested to know why my sleep is like this. How did things go at the specialist? I hope it brought you and your daughter comfort. I bring my cat to my daughters house. Tonight their cat is curled up at my feet. My cat is curled up in a chair. My Bella brings me so much joy. Do you have any pets? I am up before the cats lol Your doing great on your taper. I went down 2.5 from 5 and stayed their a couple months. Tried to crumble 2.5 to 1 for three days then jumped. I can’t believe I am coming up on a year. I had such an easy transition. I attribute it to my slow taper. I am glad I was able to take my time and didn’t have to cold turkey it. I know you feel the same way. Their cat aurora is biting my toes lol. I am moving around too much. Now I have woken her oh no!! I will write more when I actually get up. Hoping for sleep................peace

Posted by: 25yearsofit October 8, 2017, 6:58 PM
After 25 years of methadone. Do you really think its possible to come off?

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 8, 2017, 8:56 PM
Hi 25yearsofit:) Yes I believe you can come off of the methadone. A long slow taper worked for me. Is this something you want to do? I was scared to get off of it but in the end I suffered no withdrawals. I moved slower at first but overcame it. I believe everyone benefits from a long slow taper. Letting your body decide if it is time to drop your dose. May I ask why you might be considering getting off of methadone? I don't miss it at all. I was taking it for pain and my pain is the same without it. Taking things one day at a time............peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 8, 2017, 9:08 PM
Hi 25yearsofit.....welcome! I think it's absolutely possible but it depends on how high your dose is and how bad you want off and the way you go about getting off. If you want it bad enough you can get off. My advice would be to taper down very slowly over time depending on your dose. Overfifty has done it and she has almost a year of being off of it! She is very inspirational. I am in the process of doing it and am at 5mg. I've been on it for over 13 years! I have been tapering since June 13th. I don't know your story but here is what I think.....you can do anything you set your mind to with enough support and faith. Are you considering coming off?? This is a great board for it. Also if you do decide to come off don't read any of the negative bulls***......it will not help. Stay away from the sites where the people say it's impossible as well as the ones saying they feel every withdrawal under the sun.......it will only discourage you. Stick to the positive ones. God bless!

Posted by: Randomperson October 8, 2017, 9:22 PM
Hey overfifty I was just coming on to write to you when I saw 25yearsofit post and decided to respond to that first. How are you feeling today? When I read your post about being up at 2:30am I thought OMG she's just like me! Lol. I actually got a few extra hours of sleep last night and Friday night. My daughter's apt went well but we got no answers yet she has to have some tests done. We've got the blood test done but now I have to schedule her for an upperGI. I'm hoping it's nothing serious and maybe just from anxiety but she just isn't really eating. She is 9 going on 10 in February. Anyway I will definitely keep you posted. I hope you also let me know what you find out about your sleep test. Otherwise I hope all is well with you this evening. I'm still doing good at 5mg this whole process has been pretty steady not too many lows so very grateful and so glad I'm following in your footsteps. Have a great night and I'll check in again soon😁 Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 9, 2017, 8:01 PM
Hi randomperson:) How are things going today? I decided to go on the paleo diet. It's a way of eating for life. I haven't had a lot of energy and this diet is suppose to help with that. I went to see my therapist today. Nothing new but it helps me be well. When I think about things I have overcome a lot. I am very proud of myself today is 321. Your daughter is a little older than my granddaughter and the other granddaughter is four. I am thinking of your daughter wishing her wellness and Godspeed. I hope your next visit gives you some answers. My sleep machine hasn't come yet so I don't have any new news on my sleep. I have had poor sleep for so long it's normal lol. I was given some fresh salmon today. After posting I am making dinner. Your doing so well on your taper:) 5ml is so low. I hope your proud of yourself because your doing awesome!! Everyday is getting closer to your goal. Have a wonderful evening...............peace

Posted by: George October 9, 2017, 10:51 PM
Overfifty, I have to say you are such an inspiration. I read your posts all the time and hope you always come back.
Random, your doing so good too. Just keep following in Overfiftys footsteps your doing great! Overfifty, Did you ever try the vitamin D I suggested for your tiredness? Well here's a thing I take to help me sleep that's none habit forming....Melatonin, Walmart sells it where the vitamins are. Good luck to you both and I'm just one person telling you I read your posts and admire you. Imagine how many more of us there are out there. Keep up the good work!

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 10, 2017, 8:28 AM
Good morning:) George. Thank you so much for all the kind words. I definitely will try vitamin D and melatonin. I live in Oregon so sunshine is turning to rain. Your recommendation is right on the money. I had forgotten about melatonin I will give it a go too. I really do hope I am helping people not to be afraid to come off of methadone. I tried jumping at 30 ml and I suffered for over forty days before I went back on it. I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I tried again and here I am today. So happy methadone isn’t part of my life anymore. Don’t get me wrong I loved being on it then my dr retired. I was forced to come off of it and it can happen to people still. That alone motivated me. Are you on methadone George?? You really lifted my spirits this morning:). I got up at 3:57 and now it’s 5:00. Sleep was sporadic last night as usual. So melatonin is on my list for sure. The new buzz in our medical services is excersise, eating healthy, and getting enough sleep. They are recommending this over medication if possible. So I am getting healthier. I also took methadone for pain and my pain is the same. I will be going to physical therapy for that. I wasn’t ready to get healthier but now I am on board. Posting on here helps me so much. When I read my posts it helps me to remember I have achieved my goal. I never got post acute withdrawl symptoms (paws) either. I am very grateful today. Have a beautiful day.......................peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 10, 2017, 11:22 PM
Hi overfifty I hope you are doing great today! It's been two weeks exactly at 5mg and I am feeling pretty proud! I think I'm going to beat this devil but I don't want to be too cocky! Lol. 😁 I don't know about the paleo diet so I'll have to look into it. It seems like you've tackled a whole lot this year........good on you for getting healthy so you can be around for your daughter and granddaughter's.! 4 is such a great age! My daughter is fluctuating from little girl to tween and it's funny but right now she is having some health issues mainly stomach problems. She is also having anxiety and I think that has to do with school but one hurdle at a time. She really is my world! Anyway I am hoping you get some answers on your sleep issues and maybe the vitamin D and Melatonin that George recommended will help. I should try it too. It's good to know people read these posts and get encouraged! Anyway it's been a long day so I'm going to help my daughter with her homework and turn in. I hope you get some sleep tonight and I will check back soon! Peace 😁

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 12, 2017, 10:50 AM
Good morning randomperson:). I am doing great today. I am with my granddaughters and enjoying my coffee. Your down to 5ml that is so great before long it will be a memory. I took my time when I got that low on my dose. I was determined not to suffer. I am such a baby when it comes to being sick.. your doing awesome in your taper. How is your daughter doing? My heart goes out during this waiting for answers. Yes I am getting healthier and it’s kinda hard. I am taking things one day at a time. Baby steps.......Doing paleo is a new way of eating for me. I love sugar and miss it. With time this should go away. Any change is hard at first. I haven’t gotten the vitamin d or melatonin yet but will on Monday. It’s raining hard outside need to get out my rain boots. The kids are playing the floor is lava. Ah to be young and that amused.......the bus is getting ready to come. Have a wonderful day ........peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 13, 2017, 12:27 PM
Happy Friday the 13th everyone!!!!!!

Posted by: Randomperson October 14, 2017, 2:45 PM
Hi overfifty I hope you are having a great day so far. I think it's great you're so close to your granddaughters! I believe children keep us young! You definitely have been through some changes. I read up a little on the paleo diet and kudos to you! I could never do that...... I love sugar and bread too much:-) My daughter gets her last test on Monday and then hopefully we'll get answers. She is now finally eating better so I am hoping she just had a stomach bug that caused her to be afraid to eat because she didn't want to vomit. She is doing better now so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. We have had some major fires burning here in northern Ca. and the smoke has been awful. The fires have caused a lot of damage so I'm feeling for my neighbors and family that are closer to the fires. One guy at my job lost his house and car in the fire. So sad. I think they are closer to containing them now.....at least I hope so. Say a prayer for us. I am still at 5mg and am feeling pretty good. I'm with you on not wanting to suffer I've been very fortunate in that regard also.....though I have had some symptoms especially when dropping from 15 to 10mg but even then it wasn't bad enough to make me take more or give up. Slow and steady is the key and I'm so glad I found your post. I'm going to start my own post when I jump. Anyway how are you doing with the weed? Have a great rest of the weekend and I'll check back soon. Peace😁

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 15, 2017, 10:18 AM
Good morning randomperson:) so sorry about the wildfires they have been devastating. I worry about the poor animals too. I’m glad your daughter has been eating. Monday you’ll get the test done and get some answers after that. That will give you some peace of mind. Watching the news and seeing the destruction of wildfires. I am glad your safe. Yesterday I went clothes shopping with my mom. I also bought a George Foreman grill for my paleo diet. I love sugar too but I need to lose weight more. My not smoking weed is tough going lately. It’s harvest season and there’s lots of samples lol I watched an opioid documentary which just showed me how far I have come. I am a miracle. I am grateful daily to be methadone and opiate free. Your at 5ml which is so awesome. Your almost done too. Take your time though don’t get to in a rush to jump. That’s my opinion though so I hope I didn’t offend you. I am glad your going to start your own post. It’s therapeutic for me documenting my journey. I assume it will be the same for you. I got some news about my sleep study thingy. I go in on nov 6 to get my machine to see what’s going on. Anyways going to clean my kitchen so I can set up my new grill. Have a beautiful day..............peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 17, 2017, 12:15 PM
Hi overfifty I hope you're doing well today. So you got a George Foreman grill huh? Sounds like some good eating! The fires have been devastating and I am so glad they are getting them contained and very grateful that my family that lives in Napa did not lose anything......the fire was far enough away from them. My daughter's test went well and the doctor said everything was fine yay! I'm so relieved. I think it was just a stomach bug that really affected her. She has anxiety also so I think I'm going to have her doctor refer her to a therapist. Anyway it's been 3weeks today at 5mg and I feel really good. I'm still going to wait to drop again though because I want to go slow from here on out so I hopefully will have less withdrawal or maybe not have any! You should feel so proud not only for beating it but also for encouraging so many others just by letting them know it can be done and without major withdrawal! I think the withdrawals is what keeps a lot of people from trying to get off. You have to be in the right frame of mind also.....at least that is what I think. I am glad you're getting the sleep test done. You'll have to let me know what the test reveals about your sleep. I hope you have a wonderful day and I will check back soon. Peace 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 18, 2017, 1:57 PM
Good morning randomperson:). I’m so glad everything checked out with your daughter. Having peace of mind helps so much. Your taper is going great. I agree with you on staying at 5ml for awhile. The slower the better I think. It gives your brain time to adjust. My taper was smooth and no withdrawls to speak of. I really hope my posts help people to not be scared to get off of methadone. Those wildfires are horrible I am so sorry for all the devastation. I’m glad you are safe. I love my George Foreman grill. It makes cooking a breeze. It’s a great day and everything is going smoothly. I’m with my four year old granddaughter and we are approaching nap time. Sometimes I think it’s more for me than her lol I am really happy all is well with you. Wishing you a beautiful day......peace

Posted by: George October 18, 2017, 10:55 PM
Hi Ladies! Just popped in to say hi! Good to see all is well with you

Posted by: Randomperson October 18, 2017, 11:24 PM
Hi George how are you doing? Have you come off of methadone? I'm at 5mg and feeling really good! I have been at 5mg for 3 weeks and I'll probably stay here for another month and then drop 2.5mg.......then stay there for a few months and jump! Hopefully I'll do ok but I'm pretty confident I will based on how I've been doing this far. I can't wait to be totally off of it! Anyway I hope you're doing good and thanks for checking in. 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 19, 2017, 7:26 AM
Good morning George:) Wishing you a beautiful day. Thank you for having me get the vitamin d and melatonin. I’m doing better just would like to sleep longer than 4-5 hours. I noticed the biggest change with the vitamin d. I’m having my blood work done also will know the results on the 30th. I’m having a machine hooked up to my finger while I sleep to see what’s going on too. I’m doing the paleo diet also. Will be going to physical therapy on the 30th for pain management of back. Here we go again with excercising for pain. I need to get some weight off and then I will get in the swing of things. I use to walk 5-7 miles a day I would enjoy getting there again. Sorry I’m rambling. What’s new with you?? I’m coming up on a year next month and getting healthier is my new mantra. I can’t believe so much time has passed. Taking things one day at a time ...........peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 21, 2017, 3:27 PM
Hi overfifty I hope you are doing well today. I think you're posts are helping a lot of people including me. When I first started my taper I didn't post but I read and some of the sites I went to made it seem impossible to get off! Very discouraging! But then I found this site and while some of the posts were discouraging..... most were encouraging and in particular yours was. No one wants to go through withdrawals and most want to find success stories to uplift them. So just know that your story helps more people than you realize and when I'm through hopefully mine will too! I feel very proud that I've stuck with my taper and that I'm down to 5mg!! And aside from the insomnia it hasn't been that bad! I am hoping that it will go this smoothly all the way. Mind set and determination are very important but equally important is sharing your journey and reading or following other people's stories! We all need support and encouragement as well as a place to share our progress good or bad. It's very important to know that you're not alone and as you like to say it's very therapeutic. Also when we finally get off we can come back and read these posts and remember how far we've come! Look at you almost one year clean and now quitting weed and changing your diet! It has changed your life for the better and that's what I am looking forward to. So again I thank you and I will check back soon. Have an awesome weekend!! Peace 🙂

Posted by: Mojo1 October 21, 2017, 7:04 PM
I have been off methadone for 2 years and 2 months and a big key to success is exercising. Exercise every day if you can because be will kick in natural endorphins and it promotes good sleep. Eat good natural food, lots of vegetables and fruit and drink 10 bottle of water everyday!!

I promise anyone can get off methadone, trust me if I can you can!! And it's not as bad as everyone says, do read anything negative!!

Posted by: Randomperson October 21, 2017, 10:33 PM
Hi Mojo! Thanks for the solid advice. I'm with you on staying away from anything negative. When I first started tapering all I found at first were post about how horrible the withdrawals are and how it's impossible to get off cause it gets in your bones etc..etc. I know it's hard but I want to know it's possible to get off because I'm getting off come hell or high water.....I'm tired of these chains and it doesn't rule my life. My life is so much more than my daily Methadone! I work, I have a family and I'm tired of feeling like a slave to this drug! It's been a long time coming but I'm finally ready to get off. Maybe that's why it hasn't been that bad yet...... maybe I'm just ready and determined but your stories make a difference.......when I feel like maybe I can't do this..... I read these stories and then I think like hell I can't! I'm almost done and I feel so happy to know that I'm almost done and that I've come this far. Sorry for the rambling I guess I'm just in one of those moods. I do exercise and I eat pretty healthy but I don't drink that much water......I will start that right now! You should feel super proud of yourself for getting off.....it's no easy task. Thanks again for the advice and encouragement 🙂 Peace

Posted by: itspossible October 22, 2017, 7:36 AM
nice job randomperson, your doing great!! your in good hands here on overfifty's thread..Shes somebody to follow for success..the road may not be smooth, but your doing it the right way and will be free before you know it..that will be a great feeling and I wish you much success..

Posted by: Randomperson October 22, 2017, 12:44 PM
Thank you itspossible it's good to hear from you! I hope you're doing great! I haven't heard from you in a while. One of these days you'll have to tell me your story/journey. I feel so good and so grateful that I'm doing as well as I am. I owe much of it to this site and to overfifty. I was originally going to drop 5mg every other week until I was off but when I read her journey I realized I should go slower at the end. Also she is a huge success and help to me! It keeps me motivated and encouraged! I'm almost at 4 weeks at 5mg and I can finally sleep! Yay🙂 Have a great day and thanks for the encouragement! Peace 🙂

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 25, 2017, 9:31 AM
Good morning:). I am doing good and feeling great. Had a quiet weekend plus WiFi was down. Time is just flying by for you randomperson. Everyday under your belt is a victory. I am so happy everything is going smoothly. That’s how it was for me too. The days passed and before I knew it I had transitioned to being off of methadone. For me I didn’t make any changes to my routine until recently. It has been recommended to me that I shouldn’t make any drastic changes for a year. I would say I am right where I am suppose to be. I just let the days pass:) I really appreciate all the kind words and encouragement. This site is wonderful!! Granddaughters are getting up now gotta go........................peace

Posted by: George October 25, 2017, 11:35 PM
Hi Everyone! Got quite a few of us popping in here now. Sure is encouraging to come on and read you all's posts. 4 weeks now at 5 mg Random? Wow your doing great! How's that new way of eating your trying Overfifty? Is it working and easy to follow? You are such a great inspiration the things you take on and accomplish. How did your sleep test go? Sleeping any better? I wish all of you good things. Peace.

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 26, 2017, 2:05 PM
Good morning:) How’s it going George? My eating for the paleo is working wonderful. I’ve cut out sugar among other things and feel fantastic. Even in the short time I’ve been doing this I feel better all the way around. My sleep is still precarious 4-5 hours. My appt is in November for the sleep analysis. I’m really looking forward to it. I would like some answers:). It’s a beautiful day today. This site is great and it helps me a lot. Everyone on here has been so helpful with encouragement. Thank you for being here to share our journeys together.......peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 26, 2017, 3:50 PM
Hey overfifty glad to hear from you. I hope you're doing well. It's hard to believe it's only a few months till the new year!! You should feel so proud at all you've accomplished. I just past 4 weeks at 5mg on Tuesday. Thinking I'll stay at 5mg for another 4 weeks then drop again..., I may drop sooner if I'm feeling it. Hopefully at New Years we'll be toasting to us getting off Methadone!:-)

Hey George I hope you're doing well too. It does seem like more people are posting and that's great! That is what this board is for. The more the merrier! I know I was nervous about posting but I also knew I needed someone to talk to about this! We all need support and encouragement and also understanding if we don't make our goal or have a set back. I would love to hear your journey. Anyway wishing you both the best and I'll check back soon.......maybe more people will post/share.😁 Peace!

Posted by: itspossible October 26, 2017, 7:00 PM
@randomperson,
Your doing great..Time flys, the older you are , the faster it goes..You will be free before you even realize it..
what your doing is 100% worth it, you are worth it..
I jumped cold turkey from a very high amount..I had been on a 2 decade binge in total..I had lost so much weight and I was so sick that I asked for a preacher for my last words..Thats a lowpoint..I cannot describe how barbaric it was.. My point is, tapering like your doing, and overfifty has done is a lot less painfull and more successful..Keep up the good work..Yall have a good night..

Posted by: Randomperson October 27, 2017, 12:47 AM
Wow itspossible I had no idea. I can't even imagine what you went through and I'm sorry that you did. When I first thought about quitting I read a lot of stories of people quitting CT because they just couldn't taper and they suffered greatly. I also read stories where people were forced off CT either through breaking some clinic rule and being forced to taper down over 7 days or by ending up in jail and my heart ached for those people. It also terrified me. It was hard for overfifty, she said the first time she tried to walk off of 30mg she ended up back on it after a month or so. So I have much respect for you! I really feel for people that are forced off either by the clinic, going to jail or a doctor cutting you off. I think that is cruel. For whatever it's worth you should feel very proud!!! I have much respect for you and I really appreciate your encouragement.........it means a lot and pushes me onward. I'm very glad I chose to taper I couldn't imagine walking off at my highest dose which was 80mg. Everyone has their own journey but at least here we can share our journey and encourage and motivate each other. I'm so glad I found this site. I hope you have a good night and I'll check in soon.:-). Peace

Posted by: itspossible October 29, 2017, 10:47 AM
randomperson-- your doing great !! The finish line is in your sights now,a huge accomplishment.. You shouldn't have any problems with the way your doing it..

overfifty-- good morning to you..I hope life is treating you well...

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 29, 2017, 2:56 PM
Good morning itspossible:) I'm doing good. Spending Sunday with my cat lol. No complaints!! Letting the days pass and now I have 341 free from methadone. Time sure has flown by. I have a hard time remembering the struggles I went through that's one reason why posting my journey helps so much. But most of all its the contact from others going through the same thing. It helps me know I'm not alone. Thank you for the kind words and sharing your journey here. Sending good vibes your way............peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 29, 2017, 5:19 PM
Hi overfifty and itspossible! I hope you guys are having a great day! I almost always use my phone to post and rarely check out the other posts anymore but I used my IPad and read some of the other posts in the Methadone thread. I didn't realize you could see how many views a thread gets. Incredible! Overfifty your thread has a lot of views so you know you're helping people!! 26 more days and you'll have one year free!!! That is so awesome and you rock!! Feel very, very proud of yourself my friend, not only for what you've accomplished but how positive you are and for how many others you've helped.

Itspossible.......I see you're a person of few words, however your words carry much weight!! I appreciate all you say and your encouragement! This board is such a blessing and help to me. Not sure if I'd be doing as well without it. I hope you both have a beautiful Sunday!😁😁 Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 October 29, 2017, 8:18 PM
Hi randomperson:) My day has been good, just hanging with my cat. Tonight my favorite shows are on OPB so that's my night in a nutshell. I have some early appointments tomorrow so busy day for me. Yeah I am stoked to be coming up on a year. So happy to be free!! Your doing great on your taper. The days keep passing and time is flying by. Your gonna be done soon. This will all be behind you. This site is a tremendous help for me too. I would read every post trying to find positive stories when I was tapering. It made me feel less alone. I'm grateful for everyone on this site. Well enough rambling..................peace

Posted by: Randomperson October 31, 2017, 9:54 AM
Good morning overfifty. Happy Halloween!! I'm at 5 weeks today!! I feel good and have been getting decent sleep for the last week. It feels good. Normally I would drop again now but I think I'm going to stay here at 5mg for another week or two then drop another 2.5mg. So far it hasn't been too bad minus the anxiety and insomnia but I have noticed a pattern. 5 or 6 days after I drop it kicks in and lasts about 8 to 12 days. That's the hardest part for me because I work full time but it is what it is and I haven't missed any work. I hope you have a great day and I'll check back soon.

Happy Halloween everyone!😁☠️ Holy cow Christmas will be here before we know it!! Yikes!

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 1, 2017, 9:16 AM
Good morning randomperson:) This year is flying by for me and yes Christmas is right around the corner.( yikes!! ). I really love the holidays and look forward to them each year. Your doing so well on your taper. 5 weeks and one more day!!!!! That’s so 😎 cool. For me when I got that low I was able to continue my normal routine maybe just a little slower. When I jumped I continued like any normal day just slower. I agree with you on staying at 5ml for awhile longer. Your letting your body decide and not rushing your taper. You are in the home stretch this is so exciting!! Sending you good vibes..............peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 3, 2017, 10:31 AM
Good morning overfifty. I hope you are doing well. Yeah I am going a little longer at this dose because I'm feeling good and finally sleeping and I know when I drop again that will change so I'm just getting a few weeks of good sleep before I drop and it all starts again. I'll either drop this coming Tuesday or the one following. But overall I'm doing good. My daughter got sick again the day after Halloween but she is feeling better now and going to school today. I love the holidays too but I hate winter. Fall is my favorite time of year followed by spring then summer and well I don't like winter so it's last! Lol. The holidays make it bearable! Well I hope you have a great weekend and thank you for all your support. I will check back soon. Peace 😁

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 4, 2017, 11:07 AM
Good morning randomperson:) I'm enjoying my morning having a last cup of coffee. Today is 347 days off methadone. What an incredible journey this is. Your great at recognizing your body's needs. Your taper is reflective of that.😀 You'll go down when your prepared. The days are going by so fast before long you will be done. Are you gonna jump at 2.5ml or do a crumble to get to 1ml or there abouts? I did the crumbles for three days before I jumped. I didn't have a choice my pills ran out and my doctor retired. But it turned out fine no withdrawals. I'm a big baby too so that's saying something. Your really doing an incredible job. I hope you realize that your taper and how far you've come is a huge accomplishment. Keep up the fight!!....................peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 4, 2017, 2:11 PM
Hey overfifty I hope you're having a great morning! I am feeling really good and finally sleeping good and no anxiety to speak of. It's been so great. As far as my jump goes I'm not sure. I think I would like to go from 2.5 to 1 but not quite sure I will be able to get it right. I will probably try though. At this point I'm not sure what to expect when I finally jump. So far the worst of my symptoms have been insomnia and anxiety but they eventually fade after about 2 to 3 weeks. I hope when I jump off completely that I don't experience some of the other symptoms like restless legs, (whatever that is) vomiting or diarrhea! Or aches and pains! Thus far I've had none of that except I did feel achy when I went from 15 to 10 but I was cutting back 5mg every other week then. Since then I've been dropping by 2.5 mg every 3 to 4 weeks and I've been at my current dose for almost 6 weeks. I need to drop I'm staying here at 5mg too long and getting too comfortable! Lol I'm not in a hurry but I don't want to stall and lose momentum either! Staying connected to you and this site has been very significant in getting off. It both encourages me and reminds me how far I've come. You are such an inspiration you don't even know and I really don't know if I'd be doing as well if I hadn't found your thread!! I'm so proud of you for being off for almost a year! Crazy! Anyhow I'm rambling have a great Saturday and I'll check back soon. Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 5, 2017, 12:15 PM
Good morning randomperson:) Happy Sunday and an extra hour to sleep!! Me the non sleeper was up at 4:30 lol. I love mornings and being up early. Thank you for all the nice things you've said. Gosh I'm humbled. When my taper was ending I started sneezing multiple times a day. Are you sneezing at all? When I went from 2.5 to a crumble I knew it wasn't exact. But it was less than what I was taking so it made me feel better to take it. Towards the end of my taper I was anxious thinking about the day I would jump. I worried about the unknown. But I made it through with flying colors and you will too. IMO when you do a slow taper it reduces all symptoms to minimal if you even have them. I'm glad your getting sleep. That's so important. Your so low on your dose that your brain is functioning like it's off of methadone. Your almost through this. Your next jump is coming up real quick. I'm so excited for you. I have never had restless legs but I did have restless arms once when coming off heroin. I just kept punching the air. Chicken arms is what I call it. I believe this happened because I cold turkeyed it. Bathroom issues were fine when I tapered. My doctor prescribed me nausea medication clonadine and klonapin. Are you under doctors care for this? I know you have some meds for your detox. Benzos help a lot during this transition period IMO. As I've stated before I'm a big baby and don't like to feel sick AT ALL. Clonadine also helps anxiety. You sound very knowledgeable with your body symptoms and patterns. That's a plus and you know if your on track with each drop. Just keep listening to your body and you'll be fine. Have a wonderful day........peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 5, 2017, 7:54 PM
Hi overfifty thanks for all the good advice! I am hoping you're right about this almost being over for me! Sometimes it's hard to believe I've made it this far! I am under a doctors care and I have medication. In fact I have clonadine and klonapin and I've been taking a low dose of elevil and a low dose of Prozac. I have had some sneezing fits but very few. The only real symptoms I have had is anxiety and insomnia. Also I have less energy than normal but I knew that would happen. For the most part I feel very grateful to be doing so well! I know I owe a lot of that to this site and you. I think just connecting with others going through it or who have gone through it makes a huge difference. I was scared of the withdrawals at first too I was wondering how am I going to do this and still work and take care of my daughter but by going slow and taking my time I have been able to do it! I will probably drop again this Tuesday or next and then I'll be at 2.5!! I will probably try to get to one somehow before I jump though. Sounds like a good plan. Anyway I hope you're having a fabulous day! Thank you so much for all your help!🙂 I will check back soon.......Peace.

Posted by: WorriedMamma November 5, 2017, 11:33 PM
Hello to you on here. My name is Sue. I wanted to ask a question and I hope you can help me. My son has been on methadone for 9 years. He has decided he is going to come off it really soon, but he's at 9 grams a day. I see where you suggest waiting until lower to come off. My son won't wait he is going to come off it and it's a worry for me as I don't know what to expect. Can you please tell me what to buy to help with the sickness or what exactly will be happening to him. Thank you.

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 6, 2017, 11:38 AM
Good morning Sue:) welcome!! I haven't always been successful in being methadone free. It took me several attempts. I found success when I tapered long and slow. 9ml isn't a large dose but it really depends on how long he's been tapering from his highest dose. With that said time is the real healer. Your brain requires time to heal and until that time you'll feel some symptoms of withdrawal. These can be sleeplessness, anxiety, nausea, bathroom issues, heightened sense of smell, mood swings, depression, restless legs, sweating, being cold among some others I forgot. Is your son under a doctors care or will you be doing over the counter? Many people do the thomas recipe for withdrawals.(please google it) and swear by it. If he's under a doctors care he could get clonadine, nausea medication, bathroom issues medication and some type of benzodiazepine.( valium, klonapin, xanax etc) I call these comfort meds. These help make your transition easier IMO. I hope I've touched base on your questions. Sending good vibes.......peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 10, 2017, 9:29 AM
Good morning:) and TGIF!! I’m at my daughters house today and up before everyone. If I were at my house I’d get up but over here I wait until it’s later. The days are going by so fast it’s almost thanksgiving. I’m going to be cooking at my daughters per usual. The holidays are very heartwarming for me. I love to cook and spend time with my family. My elbow looks all swollen but squishy to the touch. I have water on the elbow. It doesn’t hurt at all but looks funny. Grr another trip to doctor. I’m methadone free and have absolutely no complaints. I was taking methadone for pain and I feel no difference in pain now being off of it. I’m so grateful for everyday that I’m methadone free now. I’m so calm too. I don’t have to worry about being cut off a clinic closing or my doctor retiring and then thrown into cold turkey withdrawals. There is so much freedom in that. I didn’t realize how much until I was off of methadone. I really need coffee lol. No one gets up for about 45 minutes then I’ll get my coffee. I am just being courteous I could get up. It’s been really quiet on this board lately, Myself included. Wishing everyone a happy Friday!! How have you been randomperson? I’m thinking of you tapering and wishing you well. I’m getting up lol can’t wait any longer.........peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 10, 2017, 12:06 PM
Hey overfifty I'm sorry about your elbow that sure doesn't sound good. I'm glad you're at your daughter's it's good to be around family especially this time of year. I haven't posted because I was planning on dropping again on Tuesday but woke up feeling crappy so I didn't. Then I felt guilty and like I was dragging my feet...lol. So I dropped to 2.5mg on Wednesday! My daughter keeps getting sick and this time she got a cold/cough and I think she passed it on to me! Isn't she a sweetie? Anyway so between work and her being sick and me dropping again I just haven't had time to post. I'm off today cause it's a holiday .....Veterans day. Anyway so so proud of you for being off of this poison and finally being free! Not having to worry about a clinic closing, doing U/A, or your doctor retiring or any of the possible scenarios where you could be forced off. That has to be liberating! I hope I'll be close to a year free next year. I'm closer to my goal of being completely off. One day at a time. I hope by now you got your coffee.😁 I'm pretty worthless until I've had mine! I hope you have a great weekend and I'll check back soon. Peace 🙂

Posted by: Randomperson November 10, 2017, 12:16 PM
P.S. I see what you mean about the board being quiet. People Where Are You?! Itspossible? George? Mojo? Are y'all ok? Lol!

Posted by: itspossible November 10, 2017, 10:29 PM
hey yall. ive been really busy with my new job..sorry I haven't checked in..like overfifty says, time is flying..im also grateful..i haven't taken anything or drank anything in over a year and 3 months..im feeling good and thankfull for it..
I'm glad to see your still on your taper random person..your doing great..life is good free,that I cant promise you..
have a great night all..

Posted by: Randomperson November 11, 2017, 12:07 AM
Hi itspossible it's so good to hear from you!! Congratulations on your new job......that is awesome! I hope you're liking it and it pays well! You should feel very proud for getting a year and 3 months clean! That is such an accomplishment. You and Overfifty really inspire me! In fact all who can say that do. I'm hoping I'll be at zero by the New Year........fingers crossed. I'm at 2.5mg now dropped on Wednesday. Feeling good now but I know the anxiety and insomnia are coming. It's a journey for sure. So good to hear from you! Have a great weekend.😁 Peace

Posted by: George November 11, 2017, 12:15 AM
Hello Overfifty, Random and itspossible.Good to see your all doing good. I'm not much of a talker but I still come on and read. I like to see your all doing well. Random your doing so great! I'm so happy for you that you've stuck to your plan. I know Overfifty is such a encouragement. She gives us all hope and helps us see there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Peace to you all.

Posted by: Randomperson November 11, 2017, 12:07 PM
Hey George it's so good to hear from you! I'm so glad you're still reading. I get you about not being much of a talker. Unfortunately I don't have that problem.....in fact I probably talk too much! Lol😁 I just want you to know that I have been taking the vitamin D you suggested and I think it's helping with my energy. I was tested for it about a year ago and I was really low.......I was like 3 points away from being deficient and my doctor told me to start taking it but I had a breast cancer scare and in dealing with that I totally spaced it. Anyway I'm sticking to my taper and though I'm not going as fast as I thought I would be I am still hoping to be off by the New Year! Overfifty has been such a huge help ! I really don't think I would be doing as well without her. You all are helpful too! Just having you post is encouraging. Anyway take care and pop in every now and then😁 Have a great weekend. Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 11, 2017, 11:06 PM
Good evening randomperson,itspossible and George:) I'm glad everyone's doing good. Randomperson congratulations on going down to 2.5. Your doing so good. Itspossible I'm glad your job is going well. George thank you for your suggesting the vitamin d it's what I needed.Today is 355 days free. Feeling really tired.........peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 12, 2017, 11:23 AM
Hi overfifty I hope you're feeling better.......less tired. I'm doing ok. Again this is one of those drops I can really feel. I dropped on Wednesday and figured the insomnia and anxiety would kick in Monday or Tuesday but no its started sooner. I got anxiety later in the day yesterday and I basically got like 3 hours of sleep. I hate this part! I know it goes away but it's always so hard getting through it. Especially when I work full time! Anyway I'm hoping you had a better night. Did you ever have your sleep study done? If so what did it discover? Anyway thanks again for all your support and staying connected. You're so close to one year. That is a milestone! Peace🙂

Posted by: Mojo1 November 12, 2017, 2:54 PM
hey everyone, sorry been busy with work and getting g the house ready for the holidays. Please keep up the good work, remember do not read anything negative and drink a ton of water everyday and exercise 4-5 days per week!! Once your body gets used to the methadone being out of your body it will start to feel all natural again. The key for me was water, exercise and I wish I ate healthy food. I started on a ketosis diet in July and lost 35lbs and I hit the gym 6 days per week. I feel better than I have in 10 years.

Can't stress enough to drink water and exercise!!!! Opioids gives you a false energy but that type of energy can be reproduced by cardio in the gym.. I promise I am living proof!!

Posted by: Randomperson November 13, 2017, 12:05 AM
Hi Mojo! It's so good to hear from you. You should feel so proud for getting off of this stuff! I'm am so close to the finish line but currently I'm at 2.5mg. I dropped from 5mg on Wednesday. The first 3 days were fine but now the anxiety and insomnia are here. I so hate this part and it sucks because when I go to work it's dark and when I get home it's dark. I can't bike ride with my daughter when I get home now cause it's too dark. It's a mixed bag......on the one hand I'm super proud and determined......on the other hand I'm feeling frustrated by how long it's taking and just plain tired of the anxiety and insomnia! It seems like right when I'm feeling better it's time to drop again! Vicious cycle or Merry go round or whatever you call it. I appreciate so much you and Overfifty and itspossible and George and any an all who chime in with words of wisdom and encouragement. It makes all the difference in my journey. When I finally jump I'm going to start my own thread I think. I'm so jealous of you all cause you're done and I'm still trudging along and at a snails pace. I honestly thought I would be off by now. So much for that but I am closer. I'm rambling as usual. Thanks for all your advice and encouragement and keep checking in when you can. Peace🙂

Posted by: George November 13, 2017, 11:39 PM
Hey there guys! How you all doing?... Random, your doing great! Remember slow and steady wins the race. Look at Overfifty and how far she's come by just taking her time. There's a new year coming and your going to be starting a whole new life soon free of methadone. It's not too long to go and you'll be home free and clear...I'm cheering you girls all on! George.

Posted by: Randomperson November 14, 2017, 1:03 AM
Hey George I hope you're doing good tonight. Thank you so much for the uplifting words. I know I'll be off soon I was just having a bad day yesterday:-( I know that anxiety and insomnia are part of the process of getting off but sometimes it really sucks! Your words are just what I needed. Thank you!🙂 I hope you have a great night.

Overfifty I hope you're doing ok. Check in when you can.....I'm thinking of you and hope you're ok. Peace

Itspossible and Mojo have a good evening and thanks for all your encouragement!🙂

Posted by: George November 14, 2017, 11:27 PM
Hey Random, I know you've got this and I'm proud of you. I'm glad I can be of some help. I was wondering myself where Overfifty was just so used to seeing her here I guess. Maybe she needed time out. Sending you all good vibes.Have a great day tomorrow. Thinking of you all. Peace and Love.

Posted by: Randomperson November 15, 2017, 10:41 AM
Hey George.......it's one week today at 2.5mg.! I'm feeling better today but I do still have anxiety and insomnia. Probably for another week or so. I sure hope that all this tapering helps when I jump. Maybe overfifty is sick...... in her last post she said she was feeling tired. I know it's the time of year when the colds and flu gets you. She has like 8 more days to make a year off Methadone! I'm so proud of her. I'm praying that she is ok and hope to hear from her soon. Thank you for your encouragement and Happy Wednesday! 🙂 I'll check in soon. Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 15, 2017, 2:39 PM
Good morning:) I’m doing well and enjoying my granddaughters. Randomperson you are doing an amazing job tapering. How are you feeling at that dose? Your so close to making the transition. But hey take your time and listen to your body. I know you know that. I’ve had writers block and can’t seem to finish my posts. George thank you for your kind words. I just seem to go blank and figure I’ll get back to it later but don’t. Itspossible how your new job going? Mojo1 I have been trying to drink more water and do some excersising. It’s not always easy but it makes me feel better. I had to reschedule my sleep study appt it will be after the holidays. I’m thrilled to almost have a year. The days keep flying by. Have a beautiful Wednesday ........peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 15, 2017, 11:46 PM
Hi overfifty. It's so good to hear from you and glad to know you're not sick! Spending time with your granddaughters sounds like a good day! 🙂 I can't believe in like 7 days you'll have a year free of Methadone!! That is so awesome and a huge accomplishment! It does seem like time flies but for me it seems to be dragging sometimes. You know I was thinking I'd be off by now but well you know how it goes......the lower you get the slower you go! I'm both anxious and proud. I'm feeling ok at 2.5mg but I have the insomnia and anxiety as usual. I'm hoping that will fade soon and then at some point I may try to get to 1mg and then I want to be off by the New Year! It seems like a reasonable goal. I also feel so grateful for you and George and itspossible and Mojo......the support and connection I feel has been critical in my success so far. I am grateful that I found you and this site:-). I'm like the little engine that could chugging along to my coveted goal! I'm glad you posted and I hope you have a wonderful evening! I'll check back soon. Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 17, 2017, 11:30 AM
Good morning randomperson:). Well I go back to my house today leaving at 7:00 AM. I’ve been over here a little longer than usual . It’s raining super hard and I’ve been listening to it for awhile. I love the sound. Your doing an amazing job in your taper. 2.5 is so low and you’ll be done in no time:). How are you doing ? Is your anxiety and insomnia doing any subsiding? Your working too that is fabulous. Ah the coffee is getting made I need to get up. Need to get ready to go home too. I can’t believe I almost have a year. I remember my first day and how amazed I was that I felt so good. Okay I’m getting up I’m in a sitting position now lol. I’m UP!! I bring my cat with me and she’s wanting to be fed rubbing up against me. My cat is my therapy animal she’s my baby. Yes I am the cat lady lol I’m home now. Have a wonderful Friday TGIF.......peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 17, 2017, 1:06 PM
Hi overfifty good morning to you! So you're back at home now huh? Well next week is Thanksgiving so you'll be back with your family soon enough. It's hard to be alone........family is so important and it's good that you're so close to yours. I too love the sound of the rain it's very soothing. We got a lot of rain yesterday as well and we sure need it because we we're in a severe drought. I hope it keeps up! Anyway you can't be called "the cat lady" if you only have one cat...lol. You need at least two more! I have two cats and they are very funny. One is still young and spunky and the other is older and affectionate. Animals are very therapeutic and there was a study done that found that people with pets live longer. Animals are great companions.....especially dogs. Anyway I slept good last night which surprised me but I still have anxiety. I'm just rolling with it because I know it will fade and I'm trying to stay focused on my goal of getting completely off. I can't believe I'm down to 2.5mg! It's taking longer than I expected but I have been able to work and do my everyday things while tapering and that makes it worth it to me. I'm rambling again!:-). I hope you have a wonderful day and thanks for all your support! I'll check back soon 🙂 Peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 18, 2017, 1:12 PM
Good morning randomperson:) Thought I'd share something I read. Always remember that your present situation is not your final destination. The best is yet to come. Your at 2.5 and before long you will make that jump. You should be proud of yourself for sticking to your taper. I'm glad you got a good night's sleep. That helps so much. Have you taken any of your comfort meds yet? Clonadine really helped my anxiety and general discomforts. Although I didn't suffer to much probably due to weed. It helped me a lot. I know you don't smoke that's why I mentioned comfort meds. Your doing remarkable and working that's a huge accomplishment. Hey itspossible haven't heard from you in awhile and I'm thinking of you. How's the new job? Happy Saturday.........peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 18, 2017, 3:46 PM
Hi overfifty.........thanks for the inspirational message! I needed that. So I slept pretty good again last night but I'm struggling really bad with anxiety. It is really really bad and I'm not sure if it's from the drop or just from stress and other things going on. I hate it!! I do have clonidine but I'm not taking it. I also have Xanax but it's not helping so I didn't take it today. I also have klonipin and I have been taking that every night along with a low dose of Elavil and I'm guessing that is why I've been able to sleep. I try not to take anything during the day because I work and have to care for my daughter. Maybe it's just the time of year and upcoming Holidays that is causing it or maybe it's the knowledge that my jump is coming up IDK. Whatever is causing it I'm having a hard time.:-). But I know it will pass. Thank you so much for all your support and encouragement it means so much!:-). You're almost to one year free!!! You should feel so very proud! I'm jealous!:-). Take care and I'll check back soon. Peace

Posted by: itspossible November 19, 2017, 7:50 PM
Hello randomperson,
I know what your feeling all to well , and I can assure you that its just temporary..Your almost home, life is so much better after you finally break free..I constantly ask myself how could I have been so stupid..

Hello overfifty, my job is going very well, thanks for asking..Im gratefull to have it..I honestly feel better than I have in years..I hope your ready for the hoilidays and a big congrats on your incredible year coming up..Thats a milestone..

Hello George, hope all is well with you..

Hello to all the rest who are lurking in the shawdows...


Posted by: George November 20, 2017, 12:19 AM
Hey Itspossible, Random, Overfifty, Good to see you all. Random your doing great. The holidays put pressure on everyone. A person can only do the best they can do and that's what your doing. Everything your doing is going along as you planned and you've planned this really well. Be proud of yourself Random, we certainly are of you! You hang in there because your almost to the top of that hill and then it's going to be all downhill after that. What a great life for you and your daughter soon. Next year this time you'll be like Overfifty. Peace and love to you all. George

Posted by: Thomas November 20, 2017, 3:20 AM
If I can be inspiration to just one person, it will be worth telling my story. I was on methadone for 29 years. I slowly tapered off with out any withdrawal. I did suffer extreme fatigue for a couple of weeks, but that was nothing. This is how I did it. You have to get your head right or don’t bother trying. I was on 60mg. I came down 2.5 mg every 3 weeks. When I got to 25mg I stayed on dose for 4 weeks to let my body totally stabilise. I don’t care what Doctor or other patient says! you need at least 10 days between reductions especially above 10mg. After being on 25mg for 1 month I started the 2.5mg reductions again. Remember DON’T RUSH it. When I got down to 7.5mg, I reduced by 1.5mg to 6mg then 1mg down to 3mg. In Australia we can get 6 takeaways in 200ml bottles mixed with water per week. My next reduction was going to be .5mg. The dose I was now on was 2.5mg I was reducing every 2 weeks now. I went down to 2mg then 1.5mg, then 1mg then 0.5mg. The smallest dose you can get at the Chemist I went to was 0.5. I then reduced even further by removing 50ml from my 200ml takeaways, then 100ml so an so I was surprised how easy I did it. My advice. “slowly slowly catchy tiger”.

Posted by: Thomas November 20, 2017, 3:33 AM
Forgot to mention in above post been off it now for 4 weeks, and my no fatigue. I wake up every morning and the 1st thing I think is wow! I finally did it.

Posted by: rach48 November 20, 2017, 7:56 AM
i was on methadone for 15 years, been sober for 5 months, i weaned down to 20mgs then 10mgs and medically detoxed and went to Rehab for 28 days, biggest and best decision i ever made, the only thing i suffer with is sleeping all night and my energy is ok which i do work a 40 hr week job but when i get off i am done so i am hoping that gets better, Congrats to u..

Posted by: Randomperson November 20, 2017, 10:44 AM
Hi itspossible it's so good to hear from you and I'm glad you're doing so good and happy with your new job. I know you had it far worse than me so I appreciate everything you say. You always know how to encourage me.:-) The anxiety is bad right now but I think it's from more than just my last drop and I know it's temporary! Thanks for the encouragement!:-)

George thank you for the encouraging words! I really needed that! I feel like I'm in a little bit of a funk and what you said really hit home. I am sticking to this plan and I am in the home stretch.....it may be that it both amazes me and terrifies me. 13 years is a long time and I'm down to 2.5mg!! OMG!! Thank you!

Thomas thank you for sharing! You'll probably never know all the people you have helped by sharing your journey but just know that you have. And you have totally helped me! 29 years is a long time.....I'm so proud of you and you should feel super proud too. It's no small feat getting off this drug! You have just given me more motivation!:-)

Rach 5 months is a long time to be off you should feel so proud! 15 years is a long time to be on it.I know exactly what you mean by sleep issues and working. I've been working full time throughout my taper and I have a 9 year old. I feel exhausted a lot but now I'm taking vitamin D and it seems to help with the fatigue. Thank you for sharing!:-)

Overfifty......good morning to you! I hope you have a fabulous day! Thank you for your thread and all your support. I'm not sure I'd be doing as well without it. I still have the anxiety but I'm just rolling with it till it fades. Your year is almost up congrats!:-). I'll check back soon. Peace

Posted by: Thomas November 20, 2017, 5:22 PM
I did suffer from restless nights while sleeping, I would get between 3-6 hours sleep but I was by no means hanging out (ozi term for dope sick) It was the no energy that I hated. but was totally acceptable. I wont criticize methadone because it did save me back in 1988, No its not for everyone and would I do it again? Probably not. Methadone has a lot of hidden traps that were never explained to me about how it totally evens out all your emotions, Happiness, sadness, sex drive, to name a few.. then again 29 years is pretty much half my life. I had no-one to blame but my-self. It is beatable believe me.. good luck and thankyou for your reply's, from down under Tommy

Posted by: Thomas November 20, 2017, 5:54 PM
If anyone is interested

Not sure how methadone works in the states, but in OZ it is dispensed by Pharmacies not all pharmacies but enough, at least 3 per suburb. We pay between $80-$100 per month The money we pay is not for the methadone which is supplied free by the Gov, its a dispensing fee we pay to the chemist. The Doctor has to have a special licence to prescribe methadone and is tightly controlled by the Health Dep.


Posted by: Overfifty55 November 21, 2017, 10:53 AM
Good morning:)"I will persist until I succeed. Always will I take another step. If that is of no avail I will take another, and yet another. In truth, one step at a time is not to difficult. I know that small attempts, repeated, will complete any undertaking." Og Mandino. This quote spoke to me I thought I would share. It took me several attempts before I got completely off methadone. I went super slow this last time and for me slow wins the race. Daily I am grateful for this gift of freedom. This site has helped me so much. I want to thank everyone who shares their stories, you have helped me reach new heights. Randomperson more days have passed how are you doing? Your getting closer daily. 2.5 is so low before long you'll be jumping. You should be very proud of yourself. Itspossible I'm glad your liking your job. How are you doing? I know your busy especially with the holidays and work. Hey Thomas your doing wonderful. Four weeks and feeling great is so inspiring. Keep up the good fight!! Rach48 five months is awesome. I'm glad your doing good. Your journey is amazing.

Doing a quick check in with George and mojo1:) hi happy Tuesday!! Gobble gobble..............peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 21, 2017, 11:09 AM
Hey rach48 I re-read your post and you stated your having a hard time sleeping and low energy. I still have sleep issues. My energy is still low but I think it's my age and the damage drugs have done to my body. I used for a long time. I'm very impressed with your five months that's awesome. Your doing good keep it up!!!

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 22, 2017, 9:41 AM
One year today!!!!! I am celebrating with a prime rib dinner at my daughters. I’m doing good with no complaints. Have a beautiful Wednesday....:::.:::::peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 22, 2017, 10:23 AM
Good morning overfifty, congratulations on your one year mark!!! That is a milestone and a huge accomplishment! You did it!!:-). I'm so proud of you! I hope you really enjoy your dinner. I'm sending a hug your way. Today is two weeks for me at 2.5mg! My anxiety is a little better and I have been sleeping but I had a mini meltdown yesterday and it was not fun!:-( Just stress and fatigue and anxiety might have made me crack just a little! I'm feeling better today so that is good. I loved your quote and it was on point for me......one step at a time, one day at a time. I'm hoping by next Wednesday I"ll be feeling much better and I will have 3 weeks under my belt. Wishing you and itspossible, George, Mojo, Thomas and Rach a great day. I will try to check in tomorrow but if I don't Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!:-). Peace

Posted by: itspossible November 22, 2017, 7:24 PM
high fives to you overfifty on your one year..its a day that is really special and you should feel proud..you have accomplished a great feat, welcome to the club..

@randomperson--we are waiting for you here on the other side.. Don't feel alone with your mini meltdown, its completely normal and will pass..I had several full blown meltdowns early on..At about a month off I tried to start a fight in Walmart,with several people, FOR NO REASON WHATSOEVER..And I'm a naturally laid back,easy going person, hadn't even had words with anybody for many years..I asked a guy in line did he want to fight me..lol,too funny actually..Point being,the stuff messes with your emotions,it will pass..

Happy thanksgiving to all !!!!

Posted by: George November 23, 2017, 12:12 AM
Hi All! Congrats Overfifty on your one year. I'll bet your daughter is proud of you. Great job!! Random and Itspossible, your doing great too! Next year we should all meet up again to celebrate. I'm going to be gone over the holiday season so I just came on to say Happy Thanksgiving to all on the board here, I wish you all health, wealth and happiness!!

Posted by: Mojo1 November 23, 2017, 7:22 PM
Overfifty - Congrads one year is a big deal. I tell everyone when you get off this stuff just take one day at a time, then 1 week, then 1 month pretty soon 1 year comes.

Posted by: Overfifty55 November 27, 2017, 10:17 AM
Good morning:) Thank you everyone for congratulating my year mark. Your support means the world to me. My life is so much easier without a monkey on my back. I had a quiet thanksgiving was back in my house early afternoon. Randomperson how are you feeling? Your doing awesome in your taper. Your so close to jumping and I am so excited for you. Having a peppy morning and lots to do.....gotta go..............peace

Posted by: Randomperson November 28, 2017, 12:31 AM
Hi overfifty I'm glad you had a nice Thanksgiving! Mine was good as well. I'm feeling much better and I have less anxiety although I still have it. Also I'm sleeping pretty decent so that is huge. I think for me it's just the anxiety and low energy that has me down. Anyway Wednesday will be three weeks at 2.5mg. Not sure when I will try to go to 1mg but I think I'm going to jump New Year's Day............it seems like a reasonable and appropriate goal. Then next year I'll have a year free. Hopefully my energy will be back and my anxiety gone! I'm proud of you for getting off and staying off. Your story means a lot and we're all grateful that you shared. I hope you have a great evening.

@itspossible thank you for sharing! I don't know when I've laughed so hard....totally trying to picture it and I can totally relate.:-). I have been more emotional and a little on edge but I take deep breaths and tell myself this too shall pass. I hope you had a great Thanksgiving.

To mojo and George( I know you're on holiday) I hope you both had a great Thanksgiving and appreciate all your kind words and good advice. I don't know what I'd do without you all! Peace

Posted by: itspossible November 28, 2017, 7:01 PM
I'm checking on ya randomperson..Good to see that your doing a little better than you were..Your in a very good spot right now to be successful, and I KNOW YOU WILL BE..Yeah , those emotions aint no joke..They will level off to more normal after awhile..I stand behind you if you need anything ill be in and out..


overfifty-- A year under your belt now, two is up next, although I'm not rushing time..Have a good night all..

Posted by: Randomperson November 29, 2017, 10:22 AM
Hey overfifty and itspossible today is 3 weeks at 2.5mg!! I'm doing ok. I'm sleeping so that I'm grateful for. I still have mild anxiety but I think some of that is due to the time of year and other stresses. Overall I'm feeling as well as can be expected. I'm proud of both of you for getting off of this drug and I know that the communication I have with you is a huge help and keeps me motivated. You really have to be determined and have strong willpower to do it this way. But I have stuck to my taper and I'm hoping in two weeks I will try to get to 1mg or thereabouts and then jump on New Year's Day. I really expected to be off before Christmas but it is what it is. I hope you both have a wonderful day and thank you so much for all your support.........it means a lot!-:-). I'll check back soon. Peace

Posted by: George November 30, 2017, 10:34 PM
Hi Overfifty, itspossible, Mojo and Random, I'm so happy to see you all again and glad you had a nice thanksgiving! I did too. I have decided I love turkey! Lol. I swear I could eat it all year long if you let me. Random I just wanted to say to you that I'm proud of you and your an inspiration now too! Look at you after all this time your going to be free and able to live a normal life again. The new year will be your new beginning. A bright new future. Now isn't that a wonderful thought? I have every bit of faith in you to be able fight that anxiety and come through this a winner. It's full speed ahead, January here we come!! Peace and love to all.

Posted by: Randomperson December 1, 2017, 11:59 AM
Hi George it's good to hear from you. I'm glad you had a great Thanksgiving ..........I had a nice one too. I'm with you on loving turkey so much! It's probably because we only really get it on Thanksgiving or at least I do. Thank you for the encouragement I needed that. I'm feeling ok but this damn anxiety is dragging me down! Other than that and some fatigue I feel fine but the anxiety is just wearing me down! Today is December 1st and I plan on jumping New Year's Day so that means either this coming Wednesday or the following I need to drop again to 1mg or thereabouts. Fingers crossed I can do it! All of your support has made the difference I don't think I would have done as well without it! I hope you have a fabulous day!:-)

Itspossible I hope you are doing well and thank you for all your encouragement and support you always lift my spirits and I hope you have a great day!:-)

Overfifty you rock! I'm so, so glad I found this thread.......it kind of feels like our own special community of support. I hope you're doing great and I hope you have a fabulous day! :-)

Mojo hope all is well with you and that you had a nice Thanksgiving with your family!

Rach and Thomas if you're still around I hope you both had a great Thanksgiving and hope you post again soon. It's encouraging to hear your journey's.:-).

Love and peace to you all! P.S. Christmas is in 24 days!!!! OMG!

Posted by: George December 1, 2017, 4:43 PM
Hi Random, It doesn't matter if it's the first of January or the middle or end of January. It just matters that you eventually get there when you think your good and ready. Once a week reward yourself with something nice. Doesn't have to be big and elaborate, but something! When I want a treat I buy myself a large coffee colatta and a butternut donut from Dunkin' Donuts. Yum!! Now I want one. Hang in there! We've got you!!

Posted by: Randomperson December 2, 2017, 12:49 PM
Hi George thank you for the post. I really appreciate it. I know it's not a race but I just feel like it's taking sooooo long! I started my taper on June 13th and now it's December 2nd that's almost 6 months!!! I feel like I just need to do it........you know what I mean. If I can't get off by New Year's Day I know it's not the end of the world or anything but I'll be very disappointed in myself. :-(
Anyway I love your idea of treating myself once a week.:-) I think I'm going to start doing that! I appreciate all your support and I hope you have a fabulous weekend! If you haven't already got your coffee and donut from DD get it today and think of me! Peace

Hi itspossible and overfifty I hope you guys have a great weekend!

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 2, 2017, 6:45 PM
Hello:) can't believe it's already December. Time is just flying by. The elf on the shelf came out yesterday at my daughter's. Randomperson your doing amazing on your taper. I'm so proud of you. Before long you'll have this behind you. I like Georges idea of treating yourself. Make your journey as fun and comfortable as you can. I can't tell you enough how great your doing!!!

Happy December..................Fa la la la



P.S. Happy holidays itspossible, George, mojo1, and randomperson:)

Posted by: Randomperson December 3, 2017, 1:10 PM
Good morning overfifty! It looks like someone has Christmas fever! Fa,la,la,la,la,la la,la laaaaa! I've got a touch of it myself:-). We're going to put up our tree today! That is something that always lifts my spirits and my daughter loves it of course! I really appreciate all your support........it helps so much. I love this group especially. It's always a pleasure to come here and find words of encouragement and support. I'm so proud of you for all you've accomplished this last year and I'm proud of myself too for getting to 2.5mg while working and taking care of my daughter and all that goes along with that. I do have help, but still my daughter is closest to me.....her mommy. Anyway.......have a fabulous day and Deck the halls with boughs of holly fa,la,la,la,la,la,la,la,laaaaaa! :-)

Itspossible, mojo and George has your Christmas spirit come out yet? Tis the season to be jolly! You know what comes next........fa,la,la,la,la,la,la,la,laaaaaa!:-)

Posted by: George December 4, 2017, 6:58 PM
Hahaha! Listening to your song in my head really gave me a good laugh Random as I pictured you singing it too. I'm glad to see that the Christmas Spirit has visited you and cheered you up some. That's great! Hope your anxiety is getting better. Remember everyone..Santa is watching you all. I hope you are on his nice list and not the naughty one or it will be a lump of coal you'll be getting. Haha! Have a good day to all.

Posted by: Randomperson December 5, 2017, 1:31 AM
Ha George I was singing as I typed it! Don't blame me for my Christmas spirit..........overfifty started it! Lol.:-). Anyway still have some anxiety but putting up the tree yesterday really lifted my spirits and got me in the Christmas groove. It's hard to believe that Christmas is 20 days away! Yikes! Are you ready for it? lol I've still got shopping to do.....OMG I'm falling behind........that's what coming off Methadone does......it messes with your head and your sleep so you lose track of time and the next thing you know it's Christmas!! Double yikes:-). Have a good night and I'll check back soon.

Hey overfifty and itspossible.......are you ready for it???😁

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 5, 2017, 1:14 PM
Hi ho ho ho happy holidays:). I am in the Christmas spirit!! I love this time of the year. We haven’t gotten a tree yet over at my daughters. I spend most of the holidays over there. I even take my cat. Everyday that passes is another day under your belt randomperson. Your doing the work and it’s paying off. That’s how it is before you know it’s over and your on the other side. There is so much to celebrate everyday because your getting closer to your goal. I look back and can’t believe I have a year and some change. It all began with a desire to get off of methadone and my journey began. Kinda got sidetracked.......just want you to know your doing fantastic and everyday is a big deal!!!! I’m feeling very festive merry Christmas 🎄 to all.........peace

Posted by: Randomperson December 6, 2017, 10:56 AM
Good morning overfifty! 20 days till Christmas!! It's hard to believe the year is almost over!! I'm going to try and drop to 1mg tomorrow. I was planning on doing it today but I didn't so hopefully I'll be able to tomorrow. I still have mild anxiety but I don't think it's because of my last drop. I've been sleeping pretty good lately so I'm hoping my drop tomorrow will go ok. We shall see. Have a great day and I'll check back soon.

20 days till Christmas!!!😲 P.S. Happy shopping!

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 6, 2017, 12:47 PM
Good morning randomperson:) That’s exciting that your going to drop to 1ml. I’m so happy for you. It’s a big deal getting off this stuff and your doing it!! Wow 20 days till Christmas it will pass by lickety split. You’ll also have 20 more days under your belt too:) I’m at my daughters and enjoying seeing my granddaughters so excited for Christmas. Seeing them hunt for the elf on the shelf each morning warms my heart. Then they do their advent calendar and get their piece of chocolate. Every morning until Christmas they will repeat this ritual. I never tire of their enthusiasm for the holidays. I’m glad your getting sleep that helps so much. I think it helps with managing anxiety too. Your doing amazing!! Well better get my day going.........I’m a rambling on...............ho ho ho Merry Christmas!!!

Posted by: Randomperson December 8, 2017, 12:07 AM
Hi overfifty I hope you're doing well tonight! Your tradition with your granddaughters sounds like a lot of fun for you and them! I love the holidays and the traditions that go along with them. We like to drive through certain parts of town and look at all the pretty lights.:-). Anyway I dropped to 1mg today or as close as I could get to 1mg. We'll see how it goes but I am hoping to jump New Years Day so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'm ready! I'm very tired these days so that and the anxiety is a nuisance but it is what it is and I know it will fade. Have a great night and I'll check back soon. Peace🙂

P.S. I hope George and itspossible are doing good!:-)

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 8, 2017, 8:46 AM
Good morning:). Randomperson that’s awesome that you are now at 1ml.!! I’m so proud of you hooray!! Your doing so good on your taper. Your almost done. This will all be a memory next year. I watched my granddaughters decorate the tree last night. I’m definitely in the Christmas spirit now. I’m grateful to be off of methadone. This was one of the most important accomplishments I’ve achieved during my life. It’s a big deal. You have your comfort meds to make the transition. Clonadine helped my anxiety more than the benzodiazepines. For me it was a wonder drug. It really will help you. I’m up before the animals and the coffee. My cat is curled up at my feet and I don’t want to disturb her. It’s friday and the weekend is almost here. More festivities to get ready for Santa. Ho ho ho Merry Christmas.........peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 9, 2017, 11:01 PM
Good evening:) Just watched a show on the opioid epidemic. It made me grateful to be off of all opiates. I have no cravings which is very nice. It makes it easier on me. It takes no effort anymore to stay off methadone. I don't take it for granted though. I have a grateful journal which I do every morning that keeps me grounded and humble. I participate more and am reliable. Something I never use to do. I've made little changes throughout this year because I'm off of methadone. When strung together those changes have become routine. I guess when I watched that show I realized I have changed so much. Enough rambling.........I'm doing good and enjoying all the decorations for Christmas. The weather has been very cold and I've been staying indoors. So I've been baking. How are you doing randomperson? Your down to a crumble now:) I'm so proud of you, your doing fantastic!!! Ho Ho Ho ......merry Christmas.............peace

Posted by: Randomperson December 10, 2017, 1:31 PM
Hi overfifty you should feel so proud you have accomplished a lot this year and getting off of Methadone is no small task! I'm proud of you and your journey has helped me sooo much. It has been very cold here too but I still have to go to work etc.:-(. I am down to 1mg or thereabouts and I'm feeling very tired and I have a lot of anxiety. I've also been having back pain but fortunately it's not too bad........still annoying though! It's day 4 for me and it seems like my last two drops brought the anxiety and a few other symptoms sooner. I'm determined though! I want to jump by New Year's Day or sooner if I'm up for it. My daughter is very excited for Christmas and her excitement rubs off on me. I'm very blessed to have her. Anyway now I'm rambling! Ho, ho, ho I've got to go.........and clean my house now:-(! I'll check back soon. Peace:-)

Posted by: George December 11, 2017, 12:15 AM
Hi Overfifty, Random,Itspossible, Good to read your doing well. Overfifty your "ho ho ho's" make me laugh! It's great we're all in the holiday mood and Random with her singing. Haha! Random I am truly amazed your down to 1mg. Your doing a great job! Like the others on here,I'm proud of you! Good news for you....Santa told me to tell you that he's taken you all off his naughty list. 🎶Fa la la la la la la la la🎶🎄

Posted by: Randomperson December 11, 2017, 11:37 AM
Hey George how are you doing?? You have no idea of the relief I feel knowing that I'm no longer on Santas naughty list! Lol. Apparently my singing works wonders. :-). Yes I'm down to 1mg or close enough ...........I have to cut the pill in a way that I think equals 1mg. It's practically nothing. I'm hoping that by doing it this way my jump will go pretty much how it has been going. Getting this low feels good but my goal is getting off. One day at a time. Thank you for all your support .........I can't put into words how much it helps.:-)

Overfifty I hope you have a fabulous day and enjoy the festivities of Christmas with your granddaughters and your daughter. At least your off of Santas naughty list per George! Thanks for all your support. :-)

Itspossible where the hell are you? Oops I mean where the heck are you.......I don't want to end back on the naughty list.:-). I'm sure you're busy with work and the holidays but I hope you're doing well..........check in when you can.

Deck the halls with boughs of holly fa la la la la la la la laaaaaa. Tis the season to be jolly .....you know what comes next.......wait for it........fa la la la la la la la laaaaa!

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 13, 2017, 7:50 PM
Good afternoon George and randomperson:)I’m over at my daughters fixing dinner. It’s a cold night we’ll be having chicken in biscuits. I’ve been wanting to make soup but haven’t gone to the store yet. Thank you George for taking me off the naughty list I’ve been good this year:) one less thing to worry about lol which list are you on George? Well more days have passed how are you randomperson? Woo hoo your down to a crumble!! I’m so very proud of your tenacity. Your doing this and before you know it you’ll be ready to jump. Better attend to my cooking.........ho ho ho.......Merry Christmas 🎄

Posted by: Randomperson December 14, 2017, 10:15 AM
Good morning overfifty it sounds like you're having fun with your granddaughters and daughter. It's so nice that you're so close. It has been 1 week today at 1mg and I'm feeling ok. A little tired and a little anxiety still but otherwise good. I am down to such a small amount now that I may just jump before the new year! We'll see. It's a busy time for me because I work and I still have much shopping to do...........Christmas is in like 11 days!!! OMG........No I'm not ready!!! I am hoping to get all my shopping done this weekend.........BUT I said that last weekend and clearly didn't pull it off. I think my mind is just out of sorts a little and I feel stuck on what to get.:-( Anyway ........time to buckle down and get it done. I hope all is well with you and that you're enjoying the holiday season. Take care and I'll check back soon. Peace:-)

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 14, 2017, 12:42 PM
Good morning randomperson:) when I jumped I was only at a crumble for three days. Then I jumped. I too felt more tired and moved slow during the transition. Your handling all of this very well....I’m impressed. I’m very glad I’m so close to my daughter it makes the holidays. I’m glad you have your daughter. The holidays are so fun with children IMO. I’ve not even started my shopping this weekend I will tackle that. I also don’t know what’s are Christmas dinner menu is. I have lots of planning to do. Ya randomperson you are so low in your dose that your body doesn’t need it really. It helps mentally more than anything at this point. That was my experience. Shhhhh I hear tiny footsteps on my roof........is it Santa........no it’s my cat lol Have a beautiful day............peace

Posted by: NeedHelp123 December 16, 2017, 10:57 AM
How’s everyone doing here? Haven’t spoken to many of you, but the fact that you have made it and slayed this beast makes me very proud! It’s a nice feeling, isn’t it?
Christmas is a little over a week away...crazy how fast it’s coming. Hope everyone’s got their Christmas shopping done :) Its such a blessing to be able to enjoy the holidays clear headed and off these drugs. Hope all is well!

Posted by: itspossible December 17, 2017, 8:03 AM
happy holidays everybody.. just checking in..ive been stupid busy on my new job..that can be a good thing though with extra money..
I'm so proud of all of you and wish you a merry xmas..

Posted by: Randomperson December 17, 2017, 1:17 PM
Hi everyone! Itspossible so good to hear from you! Did you see I'm down to 1mg?? I'm planning on jumping very soon.........I mean how much can 1mg really be doing for me? I'm feeling pretty good, just a little tired these days and that damn nagging anxiety but otherwise good. I'm sleeping too! I hope all is well with you! Happy Holidays!

Needhelp I'm random and have been tapering ever so SLOWLY since June. I'm down to 1mg or thereabouts and am feeling pretty good considering. I would love to know your journey if you feel like sharing? I'm so close to being free.........it's sickening!:-). I plan on jumping New Year's Day or sooner. We'll see. Glad you came here to say hello:-)

Overfifty......are you ready for it? Christmas that is! I got 99% of my shopping done and will be wrapping (more like stuffing in bags) most of today. I hope you and your daughter, granddaughters and cat (Bella?) are doing good! I'm so grateful for all your help!

George........where are you? It's almost Christmas!! I hope all is well with you!

Love you all like family........Happy Holidays!! Have a Holly Jolly Christmas and in case you didn't hear, oh by golly have a holly jolly Christmas.......this YEAR! :-)

I'm looking forward to a New Year free of Methadone!!! Peace:-)

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 18, 2017, 1:48 PM
Good morning everyone:) Got my granddaughters off with another grandma so it’s a quiet day for me. I’m watching the cooking channel getting holiday ideas. Randomperson more days have passed!! Your doing this and very well if I might add. It’s good that your able to sleep. It helps so much. I’m almost ready Christmas just a few more things I need. Happy holidays itspossible it’s good your job is going well. Kudos to you. Hello needhelp123 thank you for your kind words. Ho ho ho George happy holidays!! Wishing everyone a wonderful Monday...............peace

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 20, 2017, 10:45 AM
Good morning:). I was reading my past posts this morning. Last year at this time I had 28 days of no methadone. I moved more slowly and was in pain. Today I don’t notice my pain as much. I still move slow but I think I move better than before. I have changed over this year. It makes me smile to see how far I’ve come. How are you doing randomperson? The days keep passing and your doing this:) I’m very proud of you. I’m up before the girls enjoying a cup of coffee. Well I spoke to soon lol the searching for the elf......the chocolate out of advent calendar.......ho ho ho have a great HUMP day......peace

Posted by: Randomperson December 20, 2017, 10:52 AM
Good morning overfifty......I hope you're doing well. It's 2weeks today at 1mg and I'm doing ok. I have been feeling tired a lot and couldn't sleep the last two nights but I think that has to do with Christmas coming and my upcoming jump.:-(. I can't believe how fast this year has gone! Anyway there is literally only 5 DAYS to CHRISTMAS!!! Wow! I hope you're ready for it. :-)


I will do my best to check back in before Christmas but if I can't.........I want to wish you all a very special Christmas! Y'all deserve it for all you have accomplished!! Enjoy the time with your family and friends and may you all experience the PEACE of the season! The closing of this chapter and the beginning of the next!! Love and peace to you all! :-)

P.S Yes I know I'm being sappy.

Posted by: NeedHelp123 December 20, 2017, 2:06 PM
Hey all! I hope everyone is doing well. Random, I don’t know you but damn if I’m not proud of you! You will be so successful with tapering the way you have. I, unfortunately didn’t taper down the way I should have and had a more difficult time post jump. I am now happy to say I have a year and a half next month. I still have some issues, but am pushing forward. I tried so hard to keep pushing through and prove my strength, that before I knew it, I was already well into it and couldn’t go back and try to taper correctly. Too much time had passed and I had to just go with it. Minor rls in the early a.m and sneezing aside...I’m doing very well, and so much better from months ago. Again, I am very impressed with you doing this the right way and not being impatient. You will do so well :) I’m truly happy for you.

I hope everyone has a great Christmas! It’s such a wonderful and kind time of year.
Best wishes to all of you!

Posted by: Randomperson December 22, 2017, 1:42 PM
Good morning overfifty I hope you and your family are enjoying the season. I'm sure your granddaughters are as excited about Christmas as my daughter.:-). You should feel very proud for the many accomplishments you made over this last year..........especially getting off Methadone! Well today is the day for me! I've decided I'm ready to jump and be done with it! Wish me luck!! You have been such an inspiration so THANK you! I hope you and your family enjoy the togetherness of the holidays and I wish you love and peace for 2018!

@ needhelp thank you for sharing and your vote of confidence! In many ways this board and the people on it have helped me to stick with my plan. without their motivation and encouragement (especially overfifty).....I'm not sure I would have done as well! I'm so proud of you for beating this devil.......it is no easy task!! And you should feel so proud of yourself......what an accomplishnent!! I get what you mean though about getting too far along to go back and try to taper. I'm so glad to know that you're doing better and I'm sure you will continue to improve the longer you're off. A year and a half is a long time to be off so hopefully only good days ahead for you! :-). I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and may 2018 be your year!!!

@itspossible......today is the day. I'm jumping........it's time. Wish me luck my friend and thanks for all your encouragement! It means the world.:-). I hope your job is going well and I wish you and your family a Merry Christmas! May 2018 be the best year yet for you and your family! :-)

George......where are you??? I'm jumping.....today!!! I hope you're doing ok. Thank you for all your support! Check in when you can. Merry Christmas to you and yours and may 2018 bring you peace, joy and love! :-)

Mojo if you're still reading these posts......Merry Christmas and thanks for all your help. I'm so proud of you for being off of this crap for two years!! I hope 2018 brings you wealth, health and most importantly happiness! You Rock! :-)

Posted by: Overfifty55 December 22, 2017, 8:44 PM
Woo hoo randomperson:). That is fantastic!! What a Christmas present to give yourself this year. Yes I’m in the holiday spirit and my granddaughters are so excited. Just went and bought Christmas dinner. (Prime rib) and all the fixings. I’m super busy so making this short. Merry Christmas 🎄🎁!!............,peace