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Posted: April 19, 2010, 5:51 PM


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Greetings To All,

Sorry I have not been here in a bit, computer time is limited and I have been chasing the dream, in a good way, kinda.
I have started day treatment, got my own apartment, didn't win my lawsuit against my ex-landlord, might have save my storage space and have made some new friends and qiute possibly lost some old ones.
So off to the food bank and then a meeting. Gotta love spring weather.
Best to All,
Larrylive

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Posted: April 19, 2010, 11:37 PM


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Congratulations Larry. You sound grounded. Nice to have you back here. Good luck and keep up the hard work.
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Posted: April 20, 2010, 12:31 AM


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Hello to both Larry and Rick...glad you are both doing well and moving forward. Enjoy the lovely weather (hope it's lovely where you are =)

Peace ~ MomNMore

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Posted: May 2, 2010, 2:33 PM


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Hello to all,

Well I could not have the last post on my thread be dated 4/20, inside joke for addicts ( and I wonder if it is regional ie; U.S. )
So Back to helping others.....
Regards,
Larrylive

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Posted: June 9, 2010, 3:58 PM


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Oddly enough....yes and no....good news and bad news

Well right around my last post my monies kicked in and of course I went out, although breifly. I am still in treatment, going to meetings and doing all the things I am supposed to, plus a couple extra ;)
The good news is it seems to be working. As I mentioned I started getting money and that first time it took 2 1/2 days before "Mr. Hyde" reared his ugly head.
I just went 5 days with a $20 bill in my pocket and no craving. I had to buy laundry detergent and a combonation lock so I am down to $10 and that doesn't count.
I have carried "pocket change" through out my addiction, but it has been many years since I was able to hold onto $20 for more than a couple hours without using.
I was enjoying the feeling of having that cash so much. Next time I shall be going for two weeks, unless I can get enough to buy sneakers and join the fitness center.
In the mean time I hope all is well with every one who passes this way. Remember...you have to keep your heads up to see where you're going.

Regards,
Larrylive

PS MnM thanks for the mention.

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Posted: September 14, 2010, 12:40 PM


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And still no crack, ha ha ha
That's right I am clean since then (?May 4?) and I still carry money (when I can get it) with out the urge/craving to use. Isn't God wonderful. Yes I blame God for taking the cravings away. And the funny thing is God don't mind.
But I have also been made privvy of a little secret- pain works too. It's called aversion therapy, but'cha gotta be careful, it don't take much. It's the timing that's important.
Anyway times up, gotta see my woman, that's right she's mine and I'm hers and we like it that way.
Be Good
Regards,
Larry

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Posted: September 14, 2010, 11:08 PM


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Larry, that's wonderful...I was thinking about you the other day and glad to hear you're well...sounding better than just 'well' actually. Go you...

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Posted: October 4, 2010, 3:58 PM


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5 Months and no crack...YAHOO. YIPEE. HOORAY
I am posting on MY laptop, in MY livingroom, with money in MY pocket and I will not spend it on crack. If it sounds like I am bragging, good. Cause I am darn proud. And there's a pretty lady napping on my couch and she ain't smoking crack either. I hope this last forever.

Larry

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Posted: October 4, 2010, 6:22 PM


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Yay, Larry! It will last as long as you want it to. Not that life will always be easy, but it has to be easier than scoring and using and killing yourself...has to be.

So good to hear from you, Larry...now if only RickC would check in, too.

Peace ~ M&M

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Posted: November 4, 2010, 10:38 PM


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SIX (6) Months.......NO crack......Yippy Ya-Hooey

Thanks be to God, because through percerverience and brow beating I kicked that shtuff.

$80.00 in my pocket, $50.00 at home- got coffee & cigarettes, a laptop and a beautiful woman. Food in the fridge, a new pair of shoes and a smile on my face. Life is grand.

And if some one tells you there is only one way to beat your addiction, and it ain't working, it's alright, they are wrong. There are many drugs and many types of people. We all deserve to discover who we are and what works for us. I pray you find you answer qiucker than I did. The suffering sucks, but it does get better. Never give up.

Larry


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Posted: November 6, 2010, 8:13 AM


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I totally agree...wherever you can find recovery is good....everyone is different and what works for one may not work for another...as long as we continue to fight our disease and do what is working for us...we are ok.
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Posted: November 29, 2010, 1:57 PM


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This recovered crackhead hopes everybody had a safe and FULL-filling Thanksgiving. I had 3.
That was not a typo. I volunteered at a local soup kitchen thurs. afternoon. Went to my sisters thurs. night. And then my girlfriends family's on Sat. Needless to say I am stuffed with turkey.
Still clean, still happy and loving every minute of life.

Larry

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Posted: December 6, 2010, 12:14 PM


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Just passing by to brag....yes that's right this former crackhead now has 7 months clean and once again I have money in my pocket, with no where to be and no one to answer to, except God and myself. Oh what a joy it is to be relieved of that nagging compulsion. I think I shall do a bit of Christmas shopping, it's been a few years since I could do so peacefully.

Be Well,
Larry

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Posted: December 6, 2010, 2:17 PM


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:)....enjoy!!!!

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Posted: January 25, 2011, 5:23 PM


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A brand new year, and a new outlook on life to go with it. I am npw trying to reinvent myself and perhaps return to the world some of the good things I have been blessed with. If you don't have a higher power, please feel free to use mine, it's got more love and kindness than the world knows what to do with.

Larry

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Posted: January 26, 2011, 9:53 PM


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Hi Larry. I want to first thank you for replying to my post about my husband. I am still not sure how to handle this- here I am in a foreign country and it's definately a completely different culture...! I come from a tiny little michigan town and this is a city of millions of people... At least I speak the language, but that isn't much comfort right now!
I am committed to my husband and I can't consider divorce- I read the replies here and another woman seemed to share my views on that- but she hasn't been here in awhile. My husband is a good man- and I made a covenant to love him no matter what. I knew his history, that he was a recovered addict, when I married him, and I chose him anyway. Right now, my resolve is being tested, but I will not give him up!!! God is bigger than this addiction!
I would like some input from you on how to NOT enable him. How do I support him and love him but still put bounderies in place when he knows I will not divorce him? I guess I feel pretty clueless about that part of this... Any advice would be greatly appreciated! Thanks and God bless and congrats on your time clean!!!
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Posted: January 27, 2011, 1:17 PM


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Larry do you know anything about using gabapentin to help with cravings and withdrawals?
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Posted: January 29, 2011, 12:53 AM


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Please see your thread, I went there first.

Oh and I forgot to say---take away his money. It's a start.

Larry

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Posted: April 17, 2011, 12:58 AM


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Since I am in the nieghborhood I thought I might forewarn every body that May 4th I will have 1 year since the compulsion to spend my hard earned money on crack has left me. I wish to thank the God of my understanding, which is the same as the God of Your understanding we just have different perspectives and names for him.

PBWY,
Larry

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Posted: May 6, 2011, 10:37 AM


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Guess what.......
One friggin Glorious year has past and I am so grateful to have developed the relationships I have. first and foremost my higher power whom I call Lord, but a rose by any other name would still fill my heart and soul with comfort and love.

Trust me it's worth the effort.

Larry


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