Descent Back Into Hell...
Posted: March 29, 2016, 9:14 AM

Posts: 1439
Joined: January 5, 2005

My heart is soooo incredibly heavy with pain, but I will hang onto hope, because what else is there? I am so tired of this battle - within myself. Going up and down in my thoughts and fears for my daughter. Yes, she relapsed and I'm not sure if she is really clean or not and I know it is not my place to obsess, but I do...or I have. I almost relapsed in my obsessing, I almost wanted to do all those things I used to do, like continually call her with fake reasons to call just to know she was still alive...I slipped a little, but I'm ok. Sad, but ok. Living with the pain ... but living...and laughing, a little...and almost happy.

"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1
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