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Day By Day Addiction Recovery Update


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Joined: May 16, 2017


Posted: May 16, 2017, 3:21 PM
Please pray for me. I have been clean from viewing pornography for 5 days. I feel ashamed, embarrassed and alone. I feel like I can't share this struggle with anyone and I would like a group of people to be accountable to. My hope is to update this journal with progress daily as long as I am able to and in a place with internet connection.


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Posted: May 18, 2017, 9:41 PM
I'm doing good and have gotten accountability with my computer usage to help stay on the straight and narrow. Also, spending time with God in the morning and throughout the day to keep my mind focused.


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Posted: May 22, 2017, 11:04 PM
I'm still hanging in there. Been spending time in the morning with God and trying to focus on the family. Please pray for me.


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Posted: May 24, 2017, 10:35 PM
I felt a lot of shame for my past behavior today. I'm still standing, haven't messed up. I wish that I could change the past, but I'm stuck in the present moving forward. I'm planning on asking a close friend if he would be my accountability partner.... I'm embarrassed asking for help..


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Posted: May 28, 2017, 11:39 PM
I'm really struggling. I'm not struggling with viewing pornography though, but I feel like I'm internally freaking out. Everything seems wrong. I feel paranoid, obsessive, I'm having a lot of anxiety and I just want to cry. I'm trying to turn to Jesus but I'm having difficulty getting into the right state of mind. Please pray that I have the endurance to stand. Please pray for healing on my marriage. I want to be a good husband and a good father. I want to be a picture of the fruits of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control (Galations 5: 22-23)
I need God's help to show these things. Please help me Jesus.


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Posted: May 30, 2017, 12:51 PM
I'm still doing good. Haven't viewed anything in 19 days and I've been staying away from temptation... I've been pretty stressed out lately, but it is getting better with prayer and reading the Bible...

This post has been edited by CMP on May 30, 2017, 12:52 PM
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