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Posted by: svetochek August 16, 2017, 7:56 PM
Hi, everyone.... I'm sure I'm not the first person who is trying to find answers how to stop taking suboxone. Here is my short version of a long story...
I came to the United States over 10.5 years ago from Ukraine... I have never used any drugs before I came here. Sometime after 5 years into being here I started being unhappy and having some problems with my husband, who is very strongly opinionated person... anyway long story short, I started drinking first, then came some pain pills every now and then ... in 2015 I finally decided this is not helping me to figure out why I'm so unhappy and I decided to stop drinking or taking pills. Went through a hypnotherapy and , believe it or not it did help! I never thought hypnotherapy would help but it did the magic. One year went by and I was doing great but still not happy and being sober helped me to realize that I needed a change in my marriage. My husband at that time would not want to change and I knew it. He didn't want to go to the therapy either, saying it was my problem and not his. So.... after a while I asked him for a divorce..... very difficult period in my life. I didn't turn back to drinking but after a minor surgery I went back to pain pills. After a few months on them I wanted to stop and my now ex husband said his friend stopped pain killers by starting taking suboxone. Stupid me .... I fell for it... and my ex was the one who could get them for me avoiding having to deal with my regular doctor.
Anyway I have been taking Suboxone 8 mg a day for about 6 months now and decided I'm done and want to get myself back to who I was when I came to the United States 10.5 years ago.
I managed to cut my dose down to 2mg a day and ran out of pills last Sunday. I didn't want to deal with getting more from my ex and decided to just suck it up and just stop.
I took last dose August 14 at about 8am. I was fine for about half a day but then it hit me that I have no more of them and will have to go through WD .... I cried the rest of Sunday and woke up Monday morning very anxious and scared. I have one friend who knows what is going on and he gives me all the support he can but obviously he can not ease my WD symptoms.
I cried pretty much all Monday too... went to my office(I own a small business) and did just what I had to do and came back home.
I live alone, my daughter is at college and I don't have many friends.... It's very difficult to deal with WD by yourself. I started looking on the internet and reading about how to get off of Suboxone and what supplements to use... after reading about WD symptoms I realized I should have tapered off longer and possibly I wouldn't be suffering so much...? I still had hope. So I did call my ex asking if I could get 28mg for the last time and I came up with a plan(with internet schedule help) how to taper off.
I cut up pills into the pieces and marked them by dates.
I was having a very bad anxiety attacks since last Sunday so when I got my last 4 pills I took 1/4 to calm me down and get my head straight... I know, probably not the best decision..
I would really appreciate any input you guys all might have for me and any support you can give! I am very determined to do this and never ever touch this again !
Thank you for reading.

Posted by: UnsureWhatToDO August 16, 2017, 8:15 PM
Hello. I am going through a similar situation except I DID jump off at 2mg. I hadn't read all of the good information about tapering until I was already on like Day 3, and I didn't really want to go backwards. It has not been fun, but I am on Day 6, and have no interest in ever going back. I'm only responding to wish you luck, and so you don't feel as alone. I posted something on here and noone responded which kinda made me sad. I don't want you to feel the same. Hopefully even more people will encourage you! I'm proud of you, and I don't even know you!

Posted by: UnsureWhatToDO August 17, 2017, 1:13 PM
Hi... Thank you for replying to me! And good luck! I couldn't just stop so luckily for me I could get 4 more pills so I can taper off. I already cut them in doses and took 1.5 mg today. So far feeling ok but I know it will start wear off in the later afternoon. My biggest problem is anxiety and depression. I can tolerate any other physical symptoms but not the mental ones.
How are you doing? Please keep in touch! I'm so glad you replied!
By the way, my name is Lana.

Posted by: UnsureWhatToDo August 17, 2017, 6:50 PM
Hi again Lana. That is a pretty name! Good job figuring out a taper schedule for yourself. I hope you have an easy go of it all. For me, I have really had to make my brain super strong, set and sure. Stopping any thoughts that aren't conducive to staying off suboxone. I NEED to be done with it, and I know it, so I just keep reminding myself that it will never be any easier than it is today, so now is the time! I think all in all I've been pretty lucky/successful. It could have been much worse, and I suppose it could still become that way. I sure hope not. I'd like to think that at 7 days I have passed the most acute time of w/ds. Keep me posted!

Posted by: NyToFlorida August 17, 2017, 7:32 PM
re: crying - for all of us dealing with addiction, there is a grieving process.

Posted by: svetochek August 17, 2017, 8:36 PM
I'm doing ok so far but I also know that my 1.5 mg was added on top of whatever was left from my previous dose of 2mg. I finally set my mind to look at this situation just like I did when my doctor tapered me off antidepressants a while back. It's just a medication and a lot of withdrawal symptoms are mental. No one died from suboxone WDls.
I researched online about supplements that might help and went and bought them. Now I started taking them while tapering off suboxone.
Thank you so much for replying and supporting me. Everyone needs support during such a difficult time in life. I know it's possible to stop taking anything! You just need to really want it and set your mind on sticking to the schedule!

Posted by: UnsureWhatToDo August 17, 2017, 9:20 PM
Lana, it sounds like you have the perfect mindset! You can DO THIS!!!!! Woot woot! Soon you will be telling me how YOU feel on Day 7 w/o the horrific suboxone!!!! That said, I do think suboxone is WONDERFUL when used how, and for what it is intended. I just blew it!

Posted by: NyToFlorida August 17, 2017, 9:24 PM
check out helpful to read, maybe and suggestions and knowledge. sometimes knowing more information gives you power bc you know what is happening and not guessing or surprised.

Posted by: svetochek August 17, 2017, 10:31 PM
Thank you very much for the advice on those sites! I'll definitely check them out tonight πŸ‘πŸ»

Posted by: svetochek August 17, 2017, 10:34 PM
I've read lots of good stories where it helped people to get off other mess. Maybe suboxone is helpful but like you said, when used properly... just saying...
I'm really glad you responded to my post! I didn't think anyone would. Thank you and keep updating yours! πŸ˜‡

Posted by: svetochek August 18, 2017, 12:06 PM
Just a quick update.. last night I had a small headache but really not a big deal. I did a lot of personal errands and office work throughout the day yesterday and it was very encouraging! Woke up a few times at night but , again, not a big deal to me because I honestly haven't had normal sleep pattern ever since my divorce about a year and a half ago...
anyway, woke this morning a little bit anxious and have no appetite whatsoever. Went to see my friend early morning and he made me a very delicious smoothie which I had difficult time drinking but I did anyway. Came home, took some supplements I bought and still was feeling anxious. Anxiety is my biggest problem when I'm going through WDs. I didn't want to take my 1.5 mg so early in the morning so I waited until about 8:30 to take it. It's been about 30 minutes but still can't feel an affect from it. Hopefully will get feeling somewhat better in a while.
I hope it'll be strong enough to go through this. One of my big motivations is that I won't be dependent on my ex to get me those pills. It's like I've been giving him power over me...! And I want to take this power back! I have nowhere else to get them neither do I want to go find them elsewhere! I'm ready to be finished with all the pills for good. Thank you for everyone's support!

Posted by: svetochek August 20, 2017, 12:28 PM
Yesterday was a bit different for me ... I guess my body is starting catching up with lower dose. I felt anxious before I took my lower dose in the morning and after a while it started working and my anxiety went away however sometime between 1 and 2 pm it came back. Luckily for me I had a small trip planned and it helped me to get my mind off of things... it was just a day trip but it did the trick. I did sleep some at night but not until about 2 am .... I guess I'm having a Restless Leg Syndrome now... My legs feel on fire half a night until I finally put them under the cold water and put an ice pack on them. I really don't want to move them, they are just feel very very hot to touch! Can anyone tell me if it's RLS or something else? I really don't want to be taking more pills for it, I'd rather use some vitamins/herb remedies to help if possible. Tomorrow is my last day on 1.5mg and Tuesday I'm going to 1. I'm trying not to think about lowering my dose because I know a lot of WDs are cause because of our mental state and obsessing over it. I'll just try to go on with my day as usual and schedule some fun things to do.
This is my biggest advice to everyone - find one thing you really like doing and try to do it during the worst WDs days... I don't care what it is as long as it brings you pleasure, just do it!
For some people it's walking, exercising, art, music, even sex... when your brain is occupied it doesn't have time to think of anything else. Lets face it you can't be anxious or depressed while you are having an orgazm :)))) LOL
Good luck to all of you and I'll keep posting here hoping it will help someone ....

Posted by: huss brash August 20, 2017, 12:39 PM
Hello, I am seeing all these post of people saying that they started feeling better after 6 days and 7 days. I am 43 yrs old and been taking suboxone atleast 4mg and more if possible. I also take nuerotins along with them cause they boost the effects (4 a lil while, then its just another money pit addiction. I am on my 1st day without both. I have NEVER tried 2 quit both at the same time b4.I have been on suboxone for over 3 yrs everyday without fail. I was in a suboxone clinic from Oct. '16 til April of '17 til I was terminated for having klonopin in my system. The last time I tried to quit something it was the nuerotins. I went 12 days without and still felt like death. Now I am going 2 have 2 quit both at the same time. I am scared 2 death and there is nothing I can do. I have no money 2 go buy any and no 1 who will help me. I am afraid I am going 2 dy from this. People try and say you can't die from withdrawal, but I been in jail a couple times and seen guys who came in and didn't live but 3 or maybe 4 days. Some would go into seizures and fall off thier bunks onto the floor and we would holler for the guards 2 come , but time they would get there the people would have laid there and died! I wish 1 week is all it would take 2 quit. That would be a cake walk. The last time I seriously tried quitting suboxone has been about 6 yrs ago and then I went 11 days and still felt as bad as I did on the 3rd. I figure I am looking at a minimum of 2 weeks and that is if I am lucky, and can survive it here on my own with no 1 2 look after me!

Posted by: svetochek August 20, 2017, 3:40 PM
Hi, there. I know you are scared and if you have some health issues I guess it will get things even worse once WD symptoms come. Is there any way you can taper off those pills you are taking? I tried to stop jumping off 4mg a day after being on Suboxone only for about less than a year and I couldn't do it. I was so cold, depressed and anxious all the time... I went and got 4 pills from someone and found a taper calculator online, split those pills and just sticking to my schedule no matter what! I know everyone is different and prior history with substance abuse means a lot. I know if I had a person who would live with me while I'm going through this and was literally holding me in his hand pretty much all day long trying to comfort me while I cried I would feel a lot better... but the reality is I live alone and have two dogs... so I have to figure out how to get through this alone. I'm only on my day 4 and down to 1.5 mg a day. So far not too bad if I keep myself occupied during the day which is not easy and requires lots of effort!
Hang in there and if you are really concerned about your health please get yourself to the doctor!
Write me and ask any questions. I'll try to help you as much as I can. Good luck

Posted by: huss brash August 21, 2017, 5:11 PM
Thank you 4 taking the time 2 talk 2 me and listen 2 my complaints. I dont know how 2 pronounce your alias. I assume it is an alias. Mine is my real knickname that I use, but thats getting off topic. Today I had about 1.3 mills. of Suboxone and a couple 400 mill. nuerotins. I am not feeling my best, but I'm off the toilet bowl and thats a start. For me, I'm 43 by the way, cant remember if I have said that yet or not but, I have been on and off this seesaw for the last 20 yrs. I was an alcoholic to begin with from age 14 on til about 34. Then, I don't know if it's because of the opiate usage starting around 28 when I was in a wreck and times where different. Back in the day you could go 2 the ER and they would write you 30 perks like it was nothing 4 a booboo ir sumthing. But now times have changed. I can't go 2 my local hospital and get any satisfactory treatment, even though they know I have ruptured disk and my teeth are broke off at the gum line and kill me most days. My teeth are really hurting me 2day. It takes work 2 get 2 see a dentist were i live. you have 2 show up at maybe 6am. and hope you are 1 of the 10 folks they pick 2 help that day, which is only on fri. and only 1 time a month. And being an addict I have no ride , no way 2 get there , and if i dont have a dose I aint going . So I live with the mouth pain all the time. But this time when I get off this s***....I'm staying off....I'm getting 2 old 4 this . Plus Im in a rural small town where every1 knows ever1 else beeswax. I'm not use 2 that. I was In a midsize city of about 55,000 for most of my adult life. Things are very different and much better. I was suckered into coming back here after a stint in prison. I had a job, a truck, a license, and a home. I have lost all of that because of dirty lawenforcement that You have 2 deal with here.I plan on getting out of this area. I have been in more fights here in the past 5 yrs than I was in in 3 yrs of prison. But the last I gave a good asswhipping 2 so too prove a point and hopefully be left The problems started when I hooked up with this crazy chick online. WE met and found we liked each other. But I didn't know her brother was a sherriff and her nephew a state police. I beat the s*** out of her brother at my parents house a few weeks ago and it was the nephew(state police) that came 2 the house and took the report. It was a joke. But I made my point. I just want 2 be left alone and deal with my problems. I dont bother no 1 but I am 2 the point that it dont take much 4 me 2 put my asskickin' boots on anmd handle my business. I live in a rough place. In a way its just a big prison. Every1 has lost there licenses and there are no jobs. Every1 is in and out of the clinics here because they ask 2 much of an addict. They wont treat you for opiates if you have any benzo's in you. Thank god I never developed a taste for benzo's, but I like 1 everynow and again if I please, but i dont take them every day. the only thing that has ever grabbed me that i cant kick are these dam opiates...I wish Id never seen the 1st 1. swear

Posted by: svetochek August 22, 2017, 11:43 AM
Looks like you need to make a huge change in your life. Maybe move to a different city... if it makes you happier... but the thing us, unfortunately, none of the life changes will help you until you decide to change inside yourself. I don't mean to sound not encouraging but it's true. I finally realized it myself. Nothing makes us happy until we find happiness inside ourselves. Have an internal piece is very important. First step would be to truly forgive yourself for whatever you've done in your life that makes you ashamed. Once you forgive yourself don't look back and try to be a better person in life. We all have our past but it doesn't mean we stay the same through out our life! People change all the time and we can change to be a better person or go to the opposite direction and become an awful person. This depends on the choices we make.
So please start making better choices for yourself! No one can do this for you! I'm going to be 41 and life doesn't end here unless YOU choose to do so. Do I have difficult life? Probably comparing to some other people I don't but it's difficult for me. Looking through my own glasses it is very difficult! Being a very loving and caring person have I ever thought I'd be living alone...? It's just killings me! But the facts are staying the same: I'm alone at the moment and can either choose to give up or to get up and make my life better. And that's the choices you have to make for yourself. Do you want to be addicted to this sh***? Or do you want to make a decision to change your life and make it different? This is the choice only you can make! No one else can force you to do it because frankly it won't work if it's not your decision.....

Posted by: svetochek August 23, 2017, 1:13 PM
Not so good day for me today... I can't stop crying... feeling very upset and emotional.. just laying in bed and don't want to get up or do anything

Posted by: NyToFlorida August 23, 2017, 11:06 PM
sorry to hear you are not feeling well today. one day at a time - I'm sure you will go thru ups and downs. sometimes we expect too much to fast and then feel disappointment that we did not reach our self imposed goals...

try seeing a naturopathic - for supplements and natural things to support the body/immune system or homeopathic dr - gives homeopathic remedy based on your symptoms or functional medicine dr - analyzes blood work to see what parts of your body need help and will prescribe medication, diet, exercise that fits with what your body needs.

also - pay attention to diet - more protein and salad, vegetables - the green ones are best - less to no sugar, flour products, carbs. drink water, water, water, not soda, limit caffeine
ie - chicken, salmon, tuna, spinage, kale

it does feel like a grief when we are breaking habits. we don't always want to, but we know what is best for us. we know we are leaving parts of our life behind and can not go back. it is a tough place. hope you are feeling better soon!

Posted by: svetochek August 24, 2017, 2:44 PM
I have bought me lots of supplements after doing a research online about what your body needs while in WDs. And I have been taking them regularly. I didn't expect a miracle from any of them. What us literally killing me is my mood swings and crying 24/7.... this is my second day of crying so far... I just can't stop and have a unbearable migraine for two days. Any advice? Please...

Posted by: svetochek September 4, 2017, 8:50 PM
I haven't been here for a while and just want to update whoever is reading this about my progress. I'm tapering off suboxone with a schedule I found online. I'm currently taking .75mg per day. Today is my second day on this lower dose. What I've noticed is that second day when tapering to the lower dose is the most difficult for me emotionally and physically. I feel like my emotions are all over the place and I'm having anxiety throughout the day. Other than that I have no other physical symptoms of withdrawals. I suppose I need to consider myself a lucky one... the problem is I'd rather have to tolerate physical symptoms than mental ones. I have very little support where I live. My best friend who knows everything is out of town. He usually took me places to have fun and let me forget about things but this is out of the picture for another week. Thanks to a friend I made through this site I don't feel completely alone. She knows who she is if she is reading this 😊
I'm not sure I'm making it easier on myself by tapering.... maybe I should have stopped it all at once.... any thoughts anyone?

Posted by: svetochek September 7, 2017, 11:47 AM
Still staying on .75mg for three more days. I had to listen to my body and let it adjust to the lower dose. I don't feel great throughout the day but pretty manageable. I don't have any stomach problems nor sleeping problems. Whoever is reading this, please but you an Elimidrol! It helps me sleep(night time formula) I do have restless legs in the beginning on the night and I usually just put a wet cold towel over them and it helps to calm them down. I get very tired during the day but fortunately for me I'm my own boss and just go home if I feel too tired to work. But I think sometimes it would be better if I had a job where I had to work no matter what. This would help to get my mind off of the withdrawals. Having support would help a lot but it's not my case. I'm doing this all by myself without anyone knowing what's going on... actually only one friend does know but he is in Europe and has been there for two weeks now so I've been alone all night his time. Unfortunately no one is replying to me here either so I truly am alone in this. And it's very hard! My emotions are all over the place and it's hard not to cry a few times a day and anxiety is not pleasant symptom too... I wish there was something that could help with emotional stability and anxiety besides another prescription medication. I don't want to start taking any prescriptions for those two symptoms... I hope someone replies to me .... if not good luck to everyone who is going through the same thing
P.S. By the way, it's all b*****t that you have no cravings on suboxone! I have HUGE cravings for more suboxone! I want to take just a bit more than what I'm currently taking because I know I'll feel great! But I just have to stop myself from thinking about this. Otherwise I'll never get off of those pills

Posted by: svetochek September 8, 2017, 4:12 PM
Just wanted to write an update. I wasn't feeling good for the last three or four days and this morning it felt like I have fog in my head. Couldn't think clearly or do any work at all. I'm totally against taking any pain mess to help with suboxone WDs but I did have a few at my house and finally took one norco about 30 minutes ago. I just couldn't take it anymore. I haven't got any work done at my office for the last week and just couldn't stand being like a zombie anymore. I know it's very bad to do what I did but my head is completely clear now and I can and will get lots of work done. I'm not going to take more of norcos today and even tomorrow and will keep them only for when I completely can't stand my WDs

Posted by: svetochek September 11, 2017, 11:13 AM
I'm very disappointed with not getting any replies either to my post or to the other people posts I replied to... I see people are reading this but hardly no one takes their time to reply...

Posted by: itspossible September 11, 2017, 11:47 AM
It can be discouraging when your going through low points in your life and you seem to be by yourself..I can assure you though, your not by yourself, I'm right here..
How are you making out today?

Posted by: svetochek September 11, 2017, 2:54 PM
Thank you for replying! It really helps a lot to talk to someone. I truly am alone almost 24/7. I'm not married, my daughter lives in different town going to college and I don't have a boyfriend. A few friends I have don't know about my drug use. So really thank you very much for writing to me!
Today is the usual day like it's been for the last week... I started taking.50mg yesterday and today but after an hour of taking this dose I ended up taking a very smart sliver additional to my dose. It seems at this point maybe I should just stop taking it at all and see how it goes... what's your opinion? I've been having a very bad migraine for the last three days and ibuprofen doesn't help with it. I don't want to take anything else for it. I did take 1 Norco last Friday and it helped my anxiety but again I don't want it to become my habit...
I don't have severe physical symptoms except anxiety! It's HUGE! It turns into panic atacks

Posted by: itspossible September 11, 2017, 9:24 PM
I have never taken suboxone and it would not be fair to you for me to try to give you advice..
I do know that people that sticks with their tapering to the end have it a lot easier than the ones that jump..
I am an all or nothing person and was never able to taper, and I really paid a price for my jump..

I do know of a FORMER sub user that used the listerine strips as a replacement as he tapered..A mental game he played with his self..Hes been off for years and is doing great..

I will check on you tomorrow..Have a good night

Posted by: svetochek September 11, 2017, 11:20 PM
The listerine strips πŸ€”That's a very clever idea to try to trick your brain. I might try that. Thank you for your idea!
I know that probably compared to others my withdrawals are very mild except anxiety and depression. And that's the reason I started taking suboxone. I was self medicating. I do know what my problem is. I'm just so lonely. If I had a boyfriend or a partner I wouldn't be so miserable. But I don't want to get in a relationship just to get over my depression. It wouldn't be fair to the other person. So here I am, trying to get off meds that were masking my loneliness... but am I ready to be all alone without them? I'm not sure I am. I don't know how to do it....

Posted by: itspossible September 12, 2017, 7:47 PM
good evening..dont be so hard on yourself..You are way stronger than you think you are,I know that and I don't even know you..Life has a cruel way of slapping us around sometimes..Life has put knots all over my head, it can be tough, but I can tell you that it don't rain everyday,sooner or later the sun comes back out..Your sunshine is right around the corner..Keep your head up..

Posted by: svetochek September 12, 2017, 11:32 PM
Thank you so much for your kind and uplifting words! Most of the time I do believe the same... it's only sometimes when I'm down I don't see the light .
Today was a better day for me. I went hiking early morning with two of my friends and it let me get over my usual morning anxiety. I also came up with a plan for me. I'm going to stabilize on the dose I feel most comfortable, which is between.50 and.75 mg and if I can get lower before Friday I will otherwise Friday will be my last day of taking suboxone. I just want it to be over with. Let's withdrawals start , no matter what intensity they are going to be. I just don't have anymore pills to stretch out my taper nor do I want to.
I'll keep posting here. I do appreciate very much you checking on me. Even e few words help!

Posted by: itspossible September 13, 2017, 8:33 PM
how you doing today svetochek? Stay strong, your doing a great job..I know its not easy but anything worth doing never is..Sunshine and blue skys await my friend..

Posted by: svetochek September 13, 2017, 10:08 PM
Hi and thank you for checking on me. Today is a better day for me but I think it's because my daughter came to visit me and I'm not alone all day long. I honestly think company makes me feel better and I'm not just sitting home or my office alone letting myself think about myself 24/7.
I'm going to try to drop my dose tomorrow and see maybe I can get under what I'm currently on ... good luck to me

Posted by: svetochek September 14, 2017, 12:07 PM
Well I'm coming to the end of my available amount of suboxone. I'm not able to drop below.75 mg and only have two more days worth.... Friday and Saturday and that's it. After that I have no other choice but just quit. I'm very anxious about it and not really looking forward to the withdrawal symptoms but at the same time I'm just sick and tired waking up in the morning thinking about taking my dose while I feel anxiety anyway. My point about all of this is why do I want to taper any lower anyway if I already feel withdrawals and don't feel good. I just want to start the day when suboxone starts getting out of my system completely!

Posted by: svetochek September 15, 2017, 1:47 PM
God help me to go through this! I took my last .75 mg of suboxone this morning. Of course I'm feeling fine now and will be fine until tomorrow morning. I'm just praying I will have strength to get through the first week of withdrawals! Whoever is reading this and if you believe in Jesus Christ please pray for me πŸ™

Posted by: svetochek September 16, 2017, 1:53 PM
Well, aren't we all stubborn and want to do what is on our mind?
I took my dose yesterday and decided that's it for me. Don't want to taper anymore and want to be off this devil meds. I took .75mg yesterday around 8am and I still have one little crumb left just in case I need it in the next few days. So far I'm feeling fine better than I did for the last few mornings. Usually I'd wake up with anxiety and this morning I have none. It doesn't mean it won't come later but it's so nice not to feel it even though I haven't taken anything this morning. Is it because I had an awesome relaxing evening yesterday and my brain cells were filled with happiness? I wish I could have evenings like that every day but it's not the case. I'm just hoping this boost of happiness in my brain will last me through today. It's been only 27 hours since my last dose and besides a few sneezes I have no other symptoms. Actually feel a bit better this morning compared to the mornings during the last week. Fingers crossed 🀞

Posted by: itspossible September 16, 2017, 4:30 PM
Your doing great svetochek!!! DO NOT TALK YOURSELF INTO FEELING BAD..Do anything that you feel helps or keeps your mind occupied..try to keep got this..

Posted by: svetochek September 16, 2017, 6:04 PM
Thank you! I'm trying to move and not just lay in bed. I love riding my bike and haven't done that for about three weeks due to a terrible fires in my area and air quality being dangerous. But for the last few days it got better so I might try it this evening if I decide not to go to a small gathering I've been invited to... either way it'll get me out of the house doing something. I wanted to say thank you for responding to my posts. Even a few words mean a lot to me!

Posted by: itspossible September 18, 2017, 9:48 PM
hows it going svetochek? just checking in on you..

Posted by: svetochek September 19, 2017, 12:05 AM
Hi there. Actually not too bad except I'm very tired and have no motivation to do anything. But no other symptoms so I'm quite happy about it😊 Thanks for checking on me 😊

Posted by: itspossible September 19, 2017, 5:53 AM
that's great!! the laziness is part of the healing process..

Posted by: svetochek September 21, 2017, 7:02 PM
A quick update on my progress... doing good. Having some chills throughout my day and feeling tired a lot but otherwise there's no other symptoms. Depression kind of comes and goes bringing some bad thoughts about my current personal situation but I knew I'd have to deal with it after I stopped masking it with pills. I just have to accept that I'm going to be living alone for quite some time and stop obsessing about it. Easier said than done but I have no other choice...
not taking any pills now except vitamins.... hopefully I can find a way to get my life more busy otherwise it'll be very difficult for me to cope with my loneliness