This is my first post so I'm not too sure how this works or if I'll even get any responses but I just have some questions/concerns and wondering if anyone is experiencing the same as me ? So I have been clean for 2 months and 2 days from a (roughly) 2+ gram a day habit for 2 years. (Only snorted, never injected - insane fear of needles). But back to the topic, I started by going about 36 hours cold turkey and then took suboxone (for fear of precip. withdrawals), and started taking suboxone given to me by a friend. My mom freaked out and didn't know what to do and tweaked that I was buying suboxone "illegally" (eyeroll) so she forced me to go to a clinic that specializes in bupe meds. Since I don't have insurance, I was given a few weeks prescriptions of zubsolv, subutex, and bunavail ( which bunavail actually made me have a CRAZY allergic reaction - swelled my face up and closed up my throat. Must have been allergic to some of the chemical fillers). But I was able to get about a month of these meds for free I was just taking what I could get, and since my boyfriend is going through the same situation with me he shares with me. So, trying to make a long story short (sorry), I was prescribed 2 12mg suboxone (or the equivalent of the other drugs) but never took that much and have gotten myself down to about 1 mg twice a day and sometimes even .5mg twice a day. But even at this low of a dose I am always soooo nauseous. I have lost about 50 pounds in the ~2 months that I have been off, and not in a healthy way. I am about 5'9-5'10 and weigh 104 pounds. I used to work out and weighed about 148, mostly muscle, then lost it all and now am just a weak, nimble f'n toothpick. I am just always nauseous, never have an appetite, and my doctor said it's because I swallow too much of the suboxone, but now I cut the pieces soo incredibly small and hold it in my mouth for literally like 20 minutes before swallowing anything so I really don't think it can be that? Could it be from bouncing around and switching from so many diff meds in such a short time period (even though they all have same basic ingredients, (bupe and/or naloxone)? Though, this last month, I have been strictly on subxone. I am prescribed xanax so I take that which, along with smoking weed, does help me to eat what very little that I do currently eat. I have panic attacks, however, and am not able to smoke everyday and can't smoke before work because I'll either have a panic attack, which will make me not eat anyways so totally defeats the purpose, or I'll just feel weird as hell all day. Weird right ? I can do heroin but my mind can't even handle smoking weed sometimes. So, sorry for this obnoxiously long af post but if anyone has read this far and had a similar situation or has any advice for nausea due to suboxone (or maybe it's something else altogether??) please comment. I appreciate anything in advance. Thank you :-D |
