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Posted: November 27, 2020, 10:50 AM
So I have 10 months today right after I finish typing last week I got a phone call my brother put a pistol toys in a minute my family suffers from the disease of alcoholism and it’s been very painful and a very grieving time I hurt I’m on comfortable I’m sad and I’m SMober and sober. When my sister died of an overdose six years ago I picked up a cigarette after having quit for three years this time I decided not to pick up and just for today I’m not smoking life on life’s terms man sometimes hand out pretty stiff termsjane
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Posted: November 30, 2020, 2:53 PM
I used voice text on the previous post. I probably sounded crazy and I think I was at least still in shock. I might still be but I have access to my desk top today. So what that was ment to say is. . . Last month right after I had finished typing my check in for 9 months nicotine free. I no sooner closed the websit then I got a call from my sister in law. My brother took his own life. He put a pistol to his head and pulled the trigger. I cleaned up his blood. He went to his ranch sat in his favorite drinking chair and did the deed. Im so sad he was my Dads best friend. Not to mention his wife and kids. We have been grieving and mourning. I am still sober & SMober. I dont love life right now but I am not gonna end it.
I will see you next month right after Christmas and I will hopefully still be SMober and Sober. God willing I celebrate 9 years alcohol free on this coming Sunday. 16 years of drugs. My family is slowly dying from this disease. I will miss them incredibly -------------------- My success story Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy. Human beings have the awesome ability to take any experience of their lives and create a meaning that disempowers them or one that can literally save their lives. - Anthony Robbins Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says, "This is going to take more than one night." "Ring the bells that still can ring. Forget your perfect offering. There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." -Leonard Cohen | ||
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Posted: December 1, 2020, 12:59 AM
just Jane , I am very sorry this tragedy has happened to you, and your family. Life is not easy.
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Posted: December 2, 2020, 6:37 PM
NyToFlorida thank you so much . Its been difficult
-------------------- My success story Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy. Human beings have the awesome ability to take any experience of their lives and create a meaning that disempowers them or one that can literally save their lives. - Anthony Robbins Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says, "This is going to take more than one night." "Ring the bells that still can ring. Forget your perfect offering. There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." -Leonard Cohen | ||
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