5 Months.
Posted: August 24, 2011, 12:32 PM

Posts: 3007
Joined: January 11, 2006

Wow. The reading at my early morning AA was something on the spiritual experiences and how it works ?? Who the hell knows how it works. That too is baffeling. I mean really. It makes you start to believe ya know? I mean all I did was suit up and show up. Pray. Sponsor. Work with others. and suddenly here I am. I haven't arrived by any means. But can you believe this s***?? Another thing. I am fairly serene most days. And my life is bizarre right now, and not how I wanted it to be either. But I haven't drank or smoked in 5 months. I have had a higher power and the universe conspiring to make me live differently and better for many years now. For some reason after 6 or 7 years of comming to this sight I took a suggestion. From a friend. I like the changes that have occured in me since. I'm here that is a miracle.

My success story

Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy.
Human beings have the awesome ability
to take any experience of their lives
and create a meaning that disempowers them
or one that can literally save their lives.

- Anthony Robbins

Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says,
"This is going to take more than one night."

"Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."
-Leonard Cohen

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Posted: September 12, 2011, 7:50 PM

hi i am starting day 2 of my quit---it's the 100th time i quit ----ny motivation or advice would b great...i not NEVER TAKE NOTHER PUFF later tmrw
Posted: September 12, 2011, 9:52 PM

Posts: 8675
Joined: April 24, 2007

Our day comes when it comes, Jane...6 years or 6 days...we never know when it is that we will choose to do something differently. I remember my day so clearly...I was desperate, so desperate to be able to stop obsessing, stop worrying, just stop. I had read something here about writing a short note to my HP and then burning it or just tossing it...letting it go metaphorically I suppose. I was SO exhausted from doing it my way that I wrote the note on a tiny post-it note sitting at my desk in my 4th grade classroom while my kids took a test. I t was addressed to my HP and asked for a very specific outcome and for some peace for myself...and you know what? It happened EXACTLY as I asked for it to happen, and without a single bit of energy expended from me. That was a changing moment for me...I was relieved of my obsession. A few times thereafter I chose to revisit the craziness, but knowing I could differently made me stop each time that happened...that little note had restored me to faith and sanity.

Pretty cool, right?

Peace ~ M&M

You will not change what you are willing to tolerate.

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