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Posted: May 23, 2011, 2:56 PM


Posts: 2945
Joined: January 11, 2006



"My spiritual health is excellent when I realize that the better I get, the more I discover how much help I need from others." Went to the 6 am meeting. I couldn't sleep spent most of the night ruling the world. I went to a speaker meeting last night and it was excellent. I am living and breathing AA right now. Then this morning I told my daughter to f*** off. Proud moment in my life. I think I need help from others. Namedly her dad. Just like with Ed, I am overwhelmed and I need him to step in. I can't do this on my own and I don't want to . He has never stepped up to the plate and I doubt he will now. I know right before I got divorced that I was completely overwhelmed and I just kept using drugs and running until he HAD to do it. And even then my mom did it. Not him. This is a repeating pattern. How do I change it? I can't see the answer please god show me the answer. I have been to many meetings I have prayed read wrote what is it that is your will for me? I cannot see the light right now.

(BTW I know my numbers are off when I log on to the smoking cessation board it says 60 I am gonna go with it)

Im not doing so hot today. Please god save me from me.

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My success story

Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy.
Human beings have the awesome ability
to take any experience of their lives
and create a meaning that disempowers them
or one that can literally save their lives.

- Anthony Robbins


Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says,
"This is going to take more than one night."


"Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."
-Leonard Cohen


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