Finally Sober And Not Suicadal
Posted: November 17, 2015, 9:19 PM


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Joined: November 17, 2015



Over the past four years I've used marijuana, alcohol, cigarettes, numerous prescription drugs, ecstasy, cocaine, MDMA, salvia, DMT-40AC, pornography, masturbation, women, friends, family co-workers and myself.

I became addicted when I became lonely after my first real heartbreak as a teenager. I abused the prescription drugs I was on at the time along with marijuana to deal with my manic suicidal depression.
Eventually my addiction lost me my friends, family, job, home, lifestyle, and almost my life.
3 years ago I overdosed on multiple different kinds of prescription drugs while going through heavy clonazepam withdrawal.
I attempted to cut my throat, starve myself to death and overdose before and shortly after.
Psychosis made me become a threat to myself and society as I threatened my mothers life if she kicked me out. I was then put on a list of people to be arrested next time I got into criminal mischief.

I ran organized crime through my workplace for cheaper drugs and money pay offs. I eventually got caught and payed a fine or else I was going to court.
Been taking to the hospital to get drugs to reduce my anger, been interrogated, check up on, pointed guns at and personally spoken too by police officers.

I have had friends overdose, become hookers, and go to jail. None of this s*** is fun, and I am some lucky a** son of a b**** who just made it through with brain damage and a s***ty nose.

It has taken me four years to get sober off drugs and pornography. I am now working on my masturbation addiction so I can become more ambitious and spend less time chasing girls and start attracting women.

Life at this point in time to me is amazing. I thought I was going to die in my past, I thought I was going to be like that forever and have underestimated how far I could go from the start. I am going to keep moving forward, setting goals and pursuing an education in addiction recovery and mental health.



TO ANYONE STRUGGLING WITH SOBRIETY: I KNOW IT f***ING SUCKS BUT YOU WILL GO THROUGH MOMENTS OF ABSOLUTE BLISS ON YOUR WAY TO THE TOP. IT WILL FEEL AMAZING, YOU WILL BE ABLE TO BREATH AGAIN AND NOT WANT TO KILL PEOPLE OR YOURSELF! ITS A MARATHON NOT A SPRINT

This post has been edited by Dukkah on November 17, 2015, 9:26 PM
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