post new topic |
Posted: November 22, 2014, 8:37 PM
I just wanted to share than I am a lady who has infact stopped taking drugs.
I started at 14,,I became a heroin addict and later a methadone addict. Heroin to me was a way of life, I felt differently,,it gave me confidence and I honestly came to think I was able to be more of a normal person under the influence of this drug. I became confident ,,sociable,,happy,,everything was taken care of,,noone noticed cause i could afford it..and all was well for me. It helped me control emotions/feelings that at the time I was unable to handle,that swept my life away cause some feelings were so painful , the hurt was too much. This drug helped me put aside my feelings and hurting to enable me to continue what it was a day after day. I remember thinking to myself,,this is how I should always feel, but without having to take it. when ur body gets used to a regular intake , in the end the dosage needs to be increased in order to keep it at a leval. This becomes a problem the more u need the more u spend. I tried to stop it but the withdraw symptoms I would fear and it was never the right time for me to be prepared,,so I ended up seeing a Dr and going on to perscribed Methadone,,After 5 years of heroin addiction I was happy,,but then it was methadone,,I was on for 3 years and lowered my mg slowly by weekly alone,,withdraw symptoms nearly killed me,but i had to do it,,Hated that I NEEDED it ..( clean 3 years ). |
|
post new topic |