Pot And Ritalin
Posted: November 12, 2019, 7:09 PM


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I really like this forum it has turned into a habit for me to come and check regularly even when I was still using. I'm one month and a half clean off pot I used to abuse alot of Ritalin too. For me the most horrible effect of these addictions was that I can not enjoy the good stuff in natural ways like normal people and I know from now on I will have the burden of temptation with me forever. I tried to drink a little wine and it gave me such an awful depression afterwards so I know recovery means staying away from alcohol too like forever. This notion of forever clean seems like a really depressing future or everafter and I'm sure the effects of my addictions have altered my life and my relationships forever. Im kind of down today. I now know that the hardest part is to stay clean. I will be happy if someone shares their tips on staying clean.
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Posted: November 12, 2019, 7:22 PM


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I must admit that kicking Ritalin was way harder cause I adored it the bitter taste the focus and energy it gave me was unbelievable I would smoke afterwards and it gave so much pleasure that I would do anything to get them. This madness started four or five years ago and I thought I would become a great poet or writer definitely a fabulous artist. But all I did was ruining healthy relationship only to spend time with people I considered cool because of their addiction and to be honest I didn't become anything. I can't cope with the anger and frustration of thinking about my mistakes. I really need to get help.
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Posted: November 27, 2019, 7:47 AM


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I'm really depressed today. I think I'm going to relapse soon. Right now all I can think of is taking a xanax and I know where it's going to lead me. It's like a suicide note. I don't want to go around family and friends and bore them with my misery.
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Posted: November 27, 2019, 10:12 PM


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I managed to stay clean thank god. I just overate and has to do more exercise today. I hope I manage to stay like this in times of frustration
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Posted: November 29, 2019, 10:04 PM


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It's sad its getting vacant here.
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Posted: December 1, 2019, 11:56 PM


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Joined: November 30, 2019



Are you still clean?

There are a so many other highs in life other than drugs... I found a high in having my son and watching him play and laugh when he was young, I found a high in getting married to the love of my life and enjoying the tender moments together, I found a high in talking to my elderly mother about her childhood and how mischievous she was which totally took me by surprise, I found a high in the love that my savior has for me.

I hope that you find your high in life away from drugs and look around at other things... faith, family and real friends.

Go to a meeting and look around where people are right there for you and with you.

HopeMom
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Posted: December 2, 2019, 4:37 AM


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Joined: October 6, 2019



Hope mom, thank you so much for the reply. Fortunately yes I'm still clean. If my English sounds a little bit weird its because my first language is farsi. Your reply really made me glad. I had already started to read other recovery forums, it's always helpful when I read other recovery stories. I should definitely find a meeting to attend I have post poned it since I feel awkward socially but I know its a very powerful tool and I'm going to find one soon. 😍
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