18 Year Meth Addiction
PLJH
Posted: September 8, 2016, 2:39 PM







I have been using meth for at least 18 years, started out snorting it and now I smoke it. I have injected it but smoking is my deal. I have been thru all the bulls*** that goes with using meth and I have managed to stay quite healthy as I sleep and eat and take my vitamins. I am almost 50 yrs old and I do not live the meth lifestyle anymore, I work and keep my house and if you met me you would never guess that I am a meth user. My problem is I need the crap to function, if I dont have a little dope to smoke everyday then I have no drive or desire to do anything, and this problem does not go away with a couple weeks of sleeping and eating and coming down. I went for 11 months with no crank, I forced myself to get up and do something every day, yard work, a walk, excercise, and I never got my drive back,it is as if i have fried that part of my brain and I am not happy or positive or nice and I just do not care. Dopamine, right? my brain does not produce it anymore and I dont know what the hell to do. do i need to be medicated? is there a medication they can give meth users like me? or am i just going to one day quit or die and i will just never find pleasure in anything and spend my life in bed pissed off? Maintnance speed freak needs advice!!
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Posted: September 8, 2016, 5:03 PM


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PLJH
Posted: September 9, 2016, 10:31 AM







Yes I have bee to many NA meetings.I think it is great that NA and AA help people and support addicts but I have my issues with the program and if you do the research you will see NA's success rate is somewhere like 6% so that discourages me and i find meetings just kind of upset and annoy me plus i am in a real small town and there are no NA meetings here.
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