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Posted: March 24, 2016, 3:45 PM
I know and have accepted I am addicted to anti-anxiety meds. I do and do not want to get off the meds all at the same time
My mental health is in shambles, I can barely get through my day. I want to die but I don't want to be diagnosed with a disease. I love my wife but I want her to leave. I want to crawl into bed and take as many Librium tablets as is necessary just never wake up Does this sound familiar to anyone? Does anyone else feel like this? -------------------- Hellfish ''The more I read, the more I acquire, the more I certain I know nothing'' Voltaire 'madness is to think of too many things in secession too fast or of one thing too exclusively' Voltaire | ||
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Posted: March 24, 2016, 4:06 PM
I tried taking all my Valium in 1989. A friend found me and got me help.
When I reached the end of my rope .. when I had a gun to my head...... that's when I walked into recovery. I had to get to the point where I had nothing left to lose - at the "jumping off point" as AA calls it. Read some of the other posts where folks are attending meetings and loving it ... like Skeeter and Lulu. You could do that too, just make the call and show up. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Trust me. Now trust me to get into AA/NA. It will save your life as it did mine. All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: March 24, 2016, 4:32 PM
can I do this while still working my day Job?
-------------------- Hellfish ''The more I read, the more I acquire, the more I certain I know nothing'' Voltaire 'madness is to think of too many things in secession too fast or of one thing too exclusively' Voltaire | ||
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Posted: March 24, 2016, 4:42 PM
What is more important ?? Getting clean, sane and centred .... or working ??
If you don't get clean/sober you'll be unemployed/dead soon anyway. You'll need some help getting your priorities straight but AA/NA will address that. Bob This post has been edited by Papa Bear on March 24, 2016, 4:43 PM -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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