I'm Adicted To Being A Prostitute Please Help
anna-1986
Posted: May 19, 2013, 12:38 PM







Please someone help me I don't know if this is a common problem or not but I think I'am addicted to being a prostitute I have been a prostitute since I was only 17 years old I'am 26 years old now I absolutely hate doing the actual job I hate the men I see and I hate doing it it fills me with dread when I know I'm about to do it and when I'm doing the job I feel horrible like I could literally rip the mans head off (or other things) it makes me angry and sad but I keep doing it I live in England and if I get caught doing it from home which I do then I will loose my council flat as you are not allowed to run a bussiness through a council flat I love my home and I would have no where to go if I lost this flat my whole life would be ruined I also have a dog and me and her are like a little family she's all I have and if I loose this flat I wouldn't have anywhere for us to live and I would just kick myself that should be a reason not for me to take the risk of prostituting I know I need to stop doing it I keep telling myself I will stop doing it but I never do does anyone know why? I don't even really need the money I don't take drugs any more I used to smoke a lot of weed and take coke and pills but I haven't done hard drugs for over a year and I haven't smoked weed for 8 months neither do I want too I have savings in my bank I have everything I need for me and my dog and basically everything I want a nice big t.v, sofa, bed, exercise machine, furniture I have a good life now and I hate being a prostitute so why do I do it? and how can I stop? For about 2 years now I've been telling myself don't be a prostitute and work from home you will get caught out and be arrested and what will happen to your dog you will be sitting in a prison cell thinking I would pay 10 grand to get out of here and go back to how it was before I got caught so why do I keep doing it sometimes not even for much money just like £40? I'd be grateful for anyones opinions and advice thanks
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Care4u
Posted: July 18, 2013, 8:36 AM







hey dont beat yourself up, i know its not much but try and cherish the good moments each day and KNOW that very soon your addiction will gradually diminish

Love your self dont hate yourself
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Addie
Posted: August 1, 2013, 9:50 PM







hi. i read your post and relate to it. I am a guy and I pay prostitutes regularly for their service. sometimes, i hate what i do with them because it is not normal. first because i have lost tons of money and still am. second, it seems as if i am only using their body to jerk off and there can't ever be a connection like in normal relationships. third, i am abusing a lady as i'm using her as an object for sexual gratification. i am sorry you have those feelings against the guys who visit you. it's not their fault either to seek prostitutes because there is a thing called 'sex addiction'. human brain easily gets addicted to many chemicals that rush through it when engaging in sex. chemicals such as adrenaline, dopamine, norepinephrine etc. are drugs that are released inside the brain and are called endorphines(two words=endo means built inside and morphine which is the name of a pain killer). so these are naturally created drugs that kill pain just like pharmacy drugs. but the difference is, these chemicals are horribly addictive as they get the stress and tension built in the brain away (only for a short while) and they give an instant feel good sensation. endorphines are thousand times more addictive than cocaine. they are also called the drug of the millinium and very very addictive. i have a lot of research and i am a sex addict myself. i know from personal experience and neuroscience research says it is really hard to stop despite the negative consequences or risks that are involved. most risks are even life threatening like AIDS, HIV and other nasty STDs.
looking at your circumstances, you seem to be addicted to sex. you could be a sex addict. nobody likes to be a sex addict but it helps to first admit it(to find out if u r one, try to stop prostitution for a month or two, if you can go without it for a year, you are ok, if not u could be one). like most sex addicts, you are also putting off change when there is still time. i know of many cases that this addiction has had taken lives, families, carriers, friends, freedom, everything. sex addicts seldom make a change when there is still time before they hit rock bottom and that means coming to a point where nothing is left in life to live for, only then it hits us so hard to make a sincere decision to start doing something about it. please, do not put off your recovery from this. there is still time, you are young and you could make a good family one day, have a decent job, have a relationship, children, house, car, friends, etc. don't sell yourself short. you have a great potential, all human beings have, but we just make bad choices in life to end up somewhere undesirable.
there is hope to get out of this thing. there is a solution but it is a life long process to change. unfortunately there is no magic pill that will take it away instantly. it needs hard and consistent work to change but it is not impossible. it is a tough nut to crack on your own and you need help. there's plenty of help available only if you desire to seek it.
all the best
Addie
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anna-1986
Posted: August 11, 2013, 2:57 PM







No I'am not addicted to the sex I hate the sex and the experience of sleeping with men for money I'am addicted to the money if one of the clients said do you want to take the money and not do anything with him I would straight away ok from a prostitutes point of view and this might help you and put you off? Every time I see a client even if he's nice enough my skin crawls when he touches me it feels so horrible the whole time I'm thinking hurry up hurry up so this can be over and thinking about how much I hate the man but I want the money I've been doing this for about 8 years and become addicted to the money if someone invites me out or I want something all I have to do is see a client all I have to do I say but it kills me inside but I want the money I hate it but I want the money I think because I've been doing it for so long I'm so addicted to the money I can't stop although I know I should and want too. Next time you see a working girl remember that this girl hates you and is so desperate for the money she feels she has no option some girls are in an even worse position to me that actually have no choice as they have drug addictions to feed that's even worse! so you really want to have sex with someone who you are making their skin crawl just by touching them? can't you get a blow up doll or something!!! I don't mean to be offensive I'm just telling you what it's like from the point of view of the girl and hopefully it will make you think next time!!
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Lacy
Posted: September 1, 2013, 11:47 PM







When I was reading your post I was thinking wow, this girl is exactly like me. I've been an escort for about 10 years now and for the last couple years I keep telling myself and the people close to me that I'm going to stop but there's always an excuse, oh I have to pay this bill or I have to pay that bill or after I move I'll stop or when I start school I'll stop, there's always an excuse and I can never seem to quit what I'm doing. Just like you I hate it also, I used to become very angry and want to hurt the guys that are touching me, now I've become somewhat numb. I don't get as enraged as I used to but sometimes I still do and it takes everything in me to just let them do their thing without fighting it. I am not addicted to sex either, I hate it. I hate what I'm doing but I just can't seem to quit. I've been given every opportunity to get out of the business. I have finally got accepted into school and it's an amazing opportunity but every day I am contemplating on quitting so that I can work full time and even when I am in school I still work as often as I can. This is a very addicting lifestyle and it's hard to get out of. I know that my life is in danger, I've had quite a few close calls already and I'm sure that if I continue to do this I will get killed sooner then later from one of these a*******. I don't really have friends anymore because I've become so angry that nobody can handle me anymore. It hurts to live this type of life, especially when you do it sober. I have been sober and haven't touched drugs or alcohol in almost 9 years so almost every single call I've done I've had to endure it being fully conscientious of what I'm going through. It's nice to find somebody else like me, maybe we can talk more through email. I always wish I had somebody to talk to about this but I have nobody. Hope to hear from you.
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Posted: September 2, 2013, 5:51 PM


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Damn that hits hard. Sober to boot?? That's chilling stuff sister. You seem like a bright, intelligent woman and would bet you'd thrive once you find your happiness. You need to stop this yesterday. Rooting for you sister. Be well. Be safe.

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Guest
Posted: September 5, 2013, 9:07 AM







addie? Addicted to sex? Errrrrrm, no. No offense, and you have been candid with your own addiction, but women and some men that are out there working who have sold their soul to men like you don't want to be there. What they need to do is pay bills, feed their kids, make the rent.

Prayers and care sent to you ladies.
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Guest
Posted: September 5, 2013, 9:13 AM







anna, please, please know my heart breaks for you.

Honestly I do not believe you're addicted to prostitution. You're "addicted" to the money. It's what you know. Kind of like a waitress. They know them tips at the end of the night. They have that money in their hand and they know how to get good tips because usually they've been doing it since they were 17 years old like you.

Your pup needs you. You need you. You're obviously a very intelligent young woman and have survived this ugly world so far on your own.

Is there any outreach services where you live? Even try and call a crisis line like RAINN or Women Organized Afainst Rape and they could point you in a direction that can get you help.

Stand tall, sweetie. Know you are cared for. Know you're a good momma to your doggie. Know there's a way out.
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anna-1986
Posted: September 13, 2013, 2:30 PM







Thank you for your kind words everyone I wrote this post ages ago and no one replied for a while and I didn't think anyone would then I looked again today and loads of people have replied thank you, Lacy I feel angry all the time too and snap at the littlest things I just thought that was the way I was but maybe it is because of the prostitution? I always write a list of everything I need then say I will stop after that but I still always end up writing another list of things I need a week later it's not about greed I think it's about security I have lost everything before and I lost my last dog when I was only 19 because I couldn't afford rent and to look after him it was a really traumatic time as I really loved him I think because I couldn't go through having that happen to me again with my dog now that's why I keep doing it so we can be secure but I've got my council flat now I can't be kicked out of here and if I'm not working my rent will be paid in housing benefits so I don't have to worry about loosing my home me and my dog have a roof over our heads that's the main thing there's more of a chance I'll loose my home if I carry on doing it I really need to stop doing it!! my life has gone wrong so many times I just panic that it could happen again and having money is the only way I can try and keep mine and my dogs life secure I suppose the thing is I haven't told my doctor or anyone I'm doing this job as it's illegal so I don't want to get in trouble but I think I do need some help as for years now I've been wanting to stop but can't
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Rebecca
Posted: October 27, 2013, 6:24 AM







Hi, I just came across this post & I can empathise with you! I've been a prostitute for 10 years with a couple of year-long breaks when I had boyfriends. There are three things which I think make me addicted to prostitution, 1.The speed at which decent cash can be made. 2 - The thrill of a) the experience (not all), b) the shower after the booking, c) knowing that booking is over, d) knowing I've got money. And 3 - feeling alone, lost without prostitution, confused about my identity, desiring romantic love, and general boredom.... "So I may as well just do it!"
Can you identify with any of these feelings? We can eliminate the first one now, as you say you don't really need the money. Do you like the THRLL of it in some way? (not the sex, but the speed of the $, the 'double life' etc) Are you lonely, have low self-esteem and/or are bored?
Is it for MONEY, THRILL or TO FILL A VOID in your life? Perhaps you could further identify this, then seek professional help? A sex therapist could be a good bet, rather than a general psychologist. Maybe read some 'prostitute survivors' blogs too! They've helped me recently! Good luck babe! Xx
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deen
Posted: November 15, 2013, 11:59 AM







Dear Anna/Rebecca and all
Yes I do frequent sex parlours, not quite addicted. I too am in a good loving relationship but... there are times one wishes for something extra, on the side, exciting whatever term you may wish to use. I also wish to break this habit but we all do it for a reason , you for the money, I for the gratification. There is guilt on both sides but at the end of the day we have to remain safe. I treat the ladies with utmost respect and care and I can only hope that no one comes to harm. I wonder sometime if women to have the same urge as men and there was a similar ease of access to sex as men have. The money is good. You do provide a valuable service.
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Roxanne
Posted: December 5, 2013, 7:52 PM







Hi, thought I would write a post as the comments are recent ish and I feel the same way. I have been working 5years and I to feel that it is to hard for some reason to stop working. The money mainly, and I am to doing it sober for 3months before that I was quite heavy working on drink, coke, mdna, weed.. Now I just smoke outside work but I do feel alot of anger towards the clients no matter how nice they are I just wish the time end sooner... Even make sure am out in 15 unless he is a clock watcher lol. Anyway I can't figure out why I still work this type of job when I clearly can't stand the Actual job. I wouldn't think I am a sex addict as the work sex is s*** n I mean s***.. Am good there s*** - not to be big headed lol. I absoluty love the sex with my bf and strangly enough he knows and excepts I work.. Which most working gurls bfs know, clients are shocked that a working girl can be in a relationship with the bf that knows they work but yeah he knows, I met him in a parlour not as a client but as the door man of a parlour we both worked in - both dismissed from there. Problem is tho deep down he wants me to stop, deep down I want to stop... I can't even stop for him.. And it's only a matter of time before he has had enough and finds someone else. I keep planning and saying to myself that I need to stop and work legit and forget about being a prostitute and better myself. I have stopped a few tyms but not more than 2months and I was bored, I missed the gurls and the money me the conversations you have when you meet new people, you get to know alot of people when working gurls, receptionists, clients, security, bosses. Especially if you work in parlour and move to different ones. I know for a fact that I can go into any parlour in manchester and will know 1 girl on that shift and within a week of working there would of seen clients from other parlours. So I guess I like the social bit of working then.. So the sex is s***, the money good and th social good.. The drugs bad bad bad, spiralled right out of my control when is world while on drugs as the shift is a chill and makes ya even more annoyed with clients especially if there dry. I would carry on after work and tx privates or other working gurls or odd mates that party with working girls to carry on the drugs and make abit extra cash aswel seeing them. Then wen lunch time finises nxt day am looking s***, feeling s***, feeling depressed should I say be wanting my bed, once in bed the guilt and pure heavy emotions rattle my brain how I got so mash up After work.. Then retrace to getting mashed at work... Work was the party and I made the after party after work.. Pathetic that I found it so hard to just work get my money and head home.. Instead the routine would continue. That was 3 months ago and now my mind is clearing up from that grey dirty cloud. All I want to so is stop working, get a nice legit job, stay with my bf and enjoy life pretending I never was a prostitue... Just need to get rid of my fear of loosing the prostitue life I don't want for the better stable life we need. Sorry to rabbit on just expressing myself to those who can connect xx roxanneRoxanne.tayeb1@icloud.com

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Andrea
Posted: December 9, 2013, 9:21 PM







Hi! Im in similar situation. I been working since i was 17 years old, im 22 now. Me ex bf introduced me to this, i used to give all my money to him and thought it was ok but after 1 year i realised it was wrong what i was doing and the fact that i was giving all my money to him so somehow i got rid of him i moved to a different city but i kept on being a prostitute. I just wanted to work for another year make some money and then quit...but it never happened. I wanted to quit so many times, i tried so many times but ended up in the same place. I had another bf that i met as a customer and he seemed to understand me.we been together for 1 and half year but now we split up he said he couldnt put up anymore with my job, he wanted me to stop.and i didnt.so he left me....he didnt respect me anymore. he said im doing it because im attention seeker but he never understood i hated the actual job, but i loved the money.Now im all alone, i have nobody. All i have is the girls at work and the customers which i hate them.i dont go out at night, i dont drink, i dont take drugs.when im not working i just stay home.it feels like im wasting my life. I just want someone to come along "save" me. I thought this guy was the one meant to take me out from there.but i guess its only me who can make this decision, not someone else. But i cant see a way out of this. I read the other posts and i can feel what you girls feel. We live in a fantasy world. We lie to people and we lie to ourselves.
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Posted: December 16, 2013, 5:03 PM


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Im sorry for the frustration. I think that addictions are very similar. They are chemical addictions in the brain. I think that getting outside help is best and learning how to manage your addiction will prove the best thing for you.

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Ivan
Posted: December 22, 2013, 10:42 AM







Hi Andrea,
Your story resonated with my current situation. I know this girl that works as a prostitute, we have known each other for more than 3 years, I am a regular client of her in a brothel in the Netherlands and I almost exclusively go with her. Over the years we have developed a close relationship and now she comes and visits me to my place every now and then just to spend time together without money involved. We have been discussing about her moving in with me and she claims that she wants to work for one more year after 9 years of working in this. I told her that it is ok with me as long that it is only one more year. I don't want her to keep working on this because I can clearly see that she hates it, but she thinks that she cannot do anything else. I keep telling her that she is very smart and that she can do anything she wants, but I can see that she has a low self-esteem. I am really trying to help her, but I don't know how.

Last week she came to visit me and we had a great time. When we woke up she was very happy and smiling, but then she realized that she had to go to work and was trying to cheer her up and suddenly she snapped at me. She said that she was not happy of going to have sex with other men ... I didn't know what to say. I wanted her to stay with me and don't go there ever again. But I also didn't want to put any pressure on her because it is a decision that she has to make by herself. In the end I told her that I didn't know what to say and she almost chew my head off and left really angry. I think that she wanted me to tell her not to go, and since I didn't she got really angry.

If in the end she moves in with me I really don't want her to work there anymore, not only because of the fact that she has sex with other men, but specially because I can see that this is too damaging for her.

Given that you had a similar experience, could you give me some advise? I really care about her.



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Gary
Posted: January 6, 2014, 10:31 PM







I would like to follow up on this post a little.
My problem is if you can call it that, Is I fell in love with a prostitute who is also addicted to H and C.
I can say that my love for her is strong enough to carry us through just about anything that comes our way. She has a 6yr old daughter living with her mom in another state.
She is 30 yrs old and started this life at 17 and has had a very hard life as im sure you can guess.
But we have been together for less then a year and she has already tried to quit two times, both the drugs and the work.
The has stoped the work because it was only for the habit, and has not stoped trying to stop that either, she is going longer and longer between fixes.
I guess my message is to both the client and the working lady.
Anything is possable,
To the ladies you never who you'll meet, he could be the man of your dreams or even just a man that can love you like no other man ever has.
And stick by you through good and bad, no matter what comes up.
To the men.
If you have been seeing a working girl its because you have something missing in your life, even if you are in a relationship, something is missing.
Remember that she is a person first, a women and she has feelings and they can be hurt.
If you are seeing her just as a worker you may be missing out on a love like you have never known and only dreamed of.
As I said my girlfriend is 30 and I am 62 but she was ready for love and a relationship and I thank God every day.
I was long over do for the way she makes me feel and can't believe that this beautiful women loves me enough to get out of that life.
And I can also thank God for that as well.

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Andrea
Posted: January 20, 2014, 8:25 PM







Hi Ivan!

I dont know if this will help you but i think you should tell your girlfriend to stop going there, try help her find another job where she can meet nicer people that she doesnt have to sleep with them. Maybe she cannot ask you for help, maybe she is too proud but you should reassure her that you will be there for her, show her love, maybe she is not strong enough to take a decision by herself. She might just need a bit pushed in the right direction. Tell her that you you dont like she is working there, tell her how you feel. She probably think you alright with that. Give her love and attention, is very important. And once she stop doing that job keep on showing her love, listen to her, try help her stay away from there. I dont know, i hope this will help. she got angry at you cause u didnt know what to say. Tell her u care abt her and you would like to have her only for yourself and not share her. It kills her inside she has to sleep with other people but she doesnt know any better. If u love her truly, be there for her. Good luck
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addict
Posted: January 24, 2014, 6:11 AM







This is a serious problem. It will be very hard to cure but you can just as long as you have patience and take one day at a time. I have had serious problems in my life related to this issue. first of all, i you have your health, you are so many steps ahead of so many other people who have ruined their health with addictions.

I think the best thing anyone can do in this situation is to change your life in other ways, and not bring the old back into the new. For example, if you have a chance to move, or go away for a while, do it, but don't bring your old habits with you. This will make it a lot easier. If you can't move or go away, then change other things about your life. find new friends, join a church, get a different job, etc. these things are not at all easy, but the challenges will help distract you as well.

You need to find something solid to hold onto spiritually as well. This can seem very hard, or even fake, but it's not. The fact that you suffer means that you are a spiritual being. Just remember that. And if you end up joining a church or something, don't get caught up in the details or what you don't like about it. Just be thankful you have people around you who may be complete strangers but they have compassion for you and you for them, and all of you are seeking a better relationship with God.

Eventually, you will meet someone who loves you and understands you and you will want to make the effort to do the same for that person. And that will also help you.
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sameer
Posted: April 9, 2014, 5:38 PM







Hey
Really sad for you girl!

But i would like to talk about one and only solution for this.

Start reading quran then further start reading namaz with sincere heart and connect to your creator.
Your entire programming with you will change, and Allah will convert your sins into good deeds.

Can you even think what is at stake, yes all your sins into good deeds and on judgement day instead of humiliation you will be honoured with paradise an eternal bliss. Even allah will provide honour to you in this world removing all your past hurts.
He is only master to entire human kind from first to last man and women. We invite trouble like this only when we disobey him. But there is always a way out as long as we have our life.

But if you dont, try every damn thing in this world you would end up in bed with man just using you as an object. No honour in this world as fire of hell in hereafter.

Satan plays with our ego to make us do things against our ownselves. I love you sister thus suggest you only way out.

Commit yourself to 1 year to this and believe me you will reply me with a message that you are the person given the best life in this world.

May Allah guide us all.
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xlily0x
Posted: April 13, 2014, 2:19 PM







I have been on and off prostituting since I was 19 years old (I am 25 now) and feel this exact same way. I hate the sex I hate the people, I was hooked on drugs but then got clean and thought that was the reason I still prostituted but it is not. I got hooked to the lifestyle. I dont even care about the money! I get a rush from taking the calls and feeling in charge. I sometimes root it back to confidence problems i have had. The more calls I get and the more money they give me and the compliments I get means thats how desirable I am. I get confidence from doing this because at the end of the day after I count up how many people i did and how much money I have that number reflects how much confidence I gained that day. I dont know if anyone else thinks this way.
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