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Posted: November 10, 2016, 5:46 PM
Thanks..never heard that one before..im..well was doing/feeling back to my normal. Then dropped the gaba another 100 yesterday..feeling it now..everything feels surreal. I just gotta remember that people are going through far worse..I've been through far worse..so will pass. Memory shot right now..s*** so..oh yeah don't say we are insane...i thjnk the more we put that in our heads..we engrave it so the cycle of doing s*** to make us crazy continues..if that makes sense. I have no music now...which bad sign..hopefully later!!
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Posted: November 10, 2016, 10:11 PM
https://youtu.be/Lin-a2lTelg didn't exactly wanna think of song this way..RIP
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Posted: November 11, 2016, 4:42 AM
Ouch Mk...ya...100 drop gotta screw up your wires some...I feel for you....that's a head mess....im sorry....headphone time maybe....narrow the world down some....and...yes...it will pass...sending calm vibes and cosmic giggles....excellent pick..btw...perfect.!.. | ||
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 6:25 AM
Morning girls :) little something from me on this rainy Saturday! Not big fun of rainy days as those keeps me inside and been confided to room is not good for me as it makes me have bad thoughts! Still struglling but for now winning , taking each day as it comes. | ||
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 6:28 AM
Marykat what is Gaba? Pills?
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 7:02 AM
Hey B....oooohhh...old school....like it...nice pick....ya...struggling seems to be the name of the game here...lol...I'm glad you're hanging in there. ..I'm surfacing from the last run...try again now. ..
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 7:27 AM
Con what else we can do/? We fall we get up brush and continue where we left. I am happy to be clean even just for short period , any clean time is good time, cant plan cos when I plan usually things goes wrong and if I use today I am still happy if is only £10 bag especially if is not day after day ... I am learning not to beat myself up if I fail but to try and be stronger next time, hope it makes sense. Its so easy to give in. Older we get harder it is! I seen you had your little "indiscretion" if we can call it that and I see you are trying your best to stay clean once again. I believe you can do it, I believe I can do it , we just need to want this change hard enough ! Wishing you painless and smooth recovery if that is possibile :)
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 8:45 AM
I don't know anyone who has a painless recovery. I believe pain is necessary. -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 11:09 AM
RIP Leonard (a great (??!!) Canadian) - one of us.......
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-0lV5qs1Qw "Johnny Walker wisdom runnin' high" All the best. Bob This post has been edited by Papa Bear on November 12, 2016, 11:12 AM -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 12:08 PM
Whoa....PB....wicked pick ...wicked wicked pick...👍..
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 12:28 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WirxqAn7Ck8
-------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 1:47 PM
Ok....back at ya.... 😊
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Posted: November 12, 2016, 8:47 PM
Con..yeah 100mg sounds alot but actually lowest dose i believe..but still felt it. Bonnie..its neurotin/gabapentin an anti convulsunt..jeez can't spell right now..anyway given for many off label uses..opiate w/d big one. I started taking as 'mood stabalizer' but definitley taking too much got a high from initially...and tried to keep that going i guess..and got myself where im at. Im in process of stepping off. Its what it is. so i just spent a long time just now listening to boyfriends friend talk about aa...im proud of where hes got..hes the one that introduced my b/f to heroin....he is happy where hes at and so good to see..idk where im going with this..my brain not working great..anyway you all here is another beautiful one from leonard... https://youtu.be/gjCvFNVzIrc
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Posted: November 13, 2016, 3:51 AM
...its hard to hold the hand of anyone who is reaching for the sky just to surrender...
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Posted: November 13, 2016, 6:09 AM
Mk...that was intense...story of my life...."told you I was a stranger"...ya...i was a dealer...and the words struck a chord .
and B...ya...that line is so true...damn...another one of his songs " you want it darker?" would fit here right about now...lol...yes...music is my voice too...always has been...and I'm glad we can throw out what we're feeling in a song here ...so hope its ok... to throw something else out today ...lighten it up...so speaking of AA mk...you all probably know this guy already but I didn't..ya..I'm slow like that....listened to it at 3 this morning and ended up laughing so hard and wanting to cry at same time it was crazy.....so I'm passing it on....and...hopefully it will make you all laugh too...PB special... https://youtu.be/mbhOGIdoQNE Your turn B...post us a song..😊 | ||
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Posted: November 13, 2016, 5:41 PM
No con..this is the dark and depressing only music thread!! What are you trying to do making people laugh??😄 i've never heard of him..hard to hear without headphones..I'll listen later. Was actually gonna post something from one of my favorite comedians other day..but couldn't decide. But yes lets lighten this sh!t up for a minute...after last night i could definitley use it!!! Today is alright though..hope the same for you guys or better 😊
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Posted: November 13, 2016, 6:02 PM
You go, Con !!
You're spending time in the solution rather than the problem o:) -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: November 15, 2016, 12:51 PM
LOL...you both crack me up !!
MK, better day ? Hope your doing ok...sending good vibes PB, think my ears fallin off listening ..but smiling ! This post has been edited by constantine on November 15, 2016, 12:54 PM | ||
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Posted: November 15, 2016, 1:25 PM
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Posted: November 15, 2016, 3:57 PM
Off the fcking hook B !!! ....I want her coat ....God she sounds like Amy...hope your not reflecting and everything ok...though must say....lovely way to get even..!....
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