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7 Months

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Joined: January 11, 2006

Posted: August 27, 2020, 10:16 AM
Ok one more month under my belt. I think for the most part things are straightening out. I still want a smoke occassionally. However, the thought that I dont want to smoke supercedes the thought that this time could be different. I am chubby. It was my fear. Now I am here I am at least up 20 pounds. I haven't been running. Doesnt that sound odd that I would not run when I quit smoking ?! I can't make sense of it. The thing it would do is my carrot on the stick to get me out there. When I say I haven't been running. I ran a half last week and I am running one this weekend. I jsut havent been doing any training runs in between. My perseptions are skewed. Anyways. Checking in and letting you'all know I am still SMober & Sober. I am grateful girl. I wrote in my journal last night how happy and normal I feel. THen I slept like total s*** and I fill like I am in a fog. The sleep thing will pass. I have for the most part been sleeping pretty good. I never sleep super good. Life is good and I hope to live a little more quality life bc I put donw my smokes.

My success story

Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy.
Human beings have the awesome ability
to take any experience of their lives
and create a meaning that disempowers them
or one that can literally save their lives.

- Anthony Robbins

Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says,
"This is going to take more than one night."

"Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."
-Leonard Cohen

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