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Posted: May 21, 2020, 11:11 AM
Welp. Ready to do this one more day. A smoke still sounds really good. I think thats probably the addiciton talking. The reality is- it will not lead me to the life I want to have. I keep doing this internal dialogue where I hear someone old who is going to smoke and I think see... he /she smokes and they lived to be old. Like I am trying to tell myself it really would be ok. That is not new either I have been doing that for a while. In the mean time my own dad sufferes from COPD and he does suffer. Its so sad to see him struggle to breathe he was and is a hard working man worked as a union welder for years. Anyways. ITs not what I logically want to do. But I sitll do. it just so relaxxing and yummy. Its just the addiction talking
Im still SMober & Sober some times gracefully some times not. Jane -------------------- My success story Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy. Human beings have the awesome ability to take any experience of their lives and create a meaning that disempowers them or one that can literally save their lives. - Anthony Robbins Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says, "This is going to take more than one night." "Ring the bells that still can ring. Forget your perfect offering. There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." -Leonard Cohen  | ||
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