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Posted: May 21, 2020, 11:11 AM
Welp. Ready to do this one more day. A smoke still sounds really good. I think thats probably the addiciton talking. The reality is- it will not lead me to the life I want to have. I keep doing this internal dialogue where I hear someone old who is going to smoke and I think see... he /she smokes and they lived to be old. Like I am trying to tell myself it really would be ok. That is not new either I have been doing that for a while. In the mean time my own dad sufferes from COPD and he does suffer. Its so sad to see him struggle to breathe he was and is a hard working man worked as a union welder for years. Anyways. ITs not what I logically want to do. But I sitll do. it just so relaxxing and yummy. Its just the addiction talking
Im still SMober & Sober some times gracefully some times not.

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Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy.
Human beings have the awesome ability
to take any experience of their lives
and create a meaning that disempowers them
or one that can literally save their lives.

- Anthony Robbins

Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder where I've gone wrong. Then a little voice inside my head says,
"This is going to take more than one night."

"Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."
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