Posted: December 24, 2014, 12:31 PM
I am about a week and a half off synthetic marijuana, or spice. So I am calling it "going bland". I feel pretty good mentally. Physically, my withdrawal symptoms are gone. I found a wonderful thread on this site that helped me through the physical side of my withdrawals. Mentally I am still dealing with the horrors of my life, and what I have done to those who love and care about me, but like I said I am dealing with it. I know I am still and addict and always will be. But I don't have to be a user anymore. Using spice was a choice for me, nobody ever forced me to do it. Even though at times I would blame a person or situation for causing me to want to go buy and use even more, the reality is those were choices I made. So now I choose to walk away from using that crap. I don't want to be that person anymore.