Posted: May 20, 2016, 10:17 AM
How i wish it never occurred... lying down to think about my classmate discussion on porn. I felt it was normal since they can watch it, so could I. Then I made my move by first downloading and watching. I never knew I was killing my inner self. I got to enjoy watching porn every time I had the opportunity to. Then came my greatest mistake MASTURBATION, I thought of copying what was acted and so I did. It felt wrong but i loved it and it happened again and again for years. It all started 7years ago, how I wish I could stop on my own. I tried but failed to help myself get my life back. I have lost my life to porn. I want my life back, I feel guilt everytime I lose my dignity to watching porn.Sometimes, I hate my life to shame of losing myself. Sometimes, i desire death to come take me, sometimes i feel i deserve to go to Hell. I have never imagined myself been saved. I feel condemned, I desire Help and thats why i have desired to open up to seek Help from those who conquered from Addiction as mine.I can't afford to Fail, I can't allow Porn determine the degree of my Life.