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Posted: July 24, 2016, 8:11 PM
I'm a new member here but have been lurking reading people's posts pretty much constantly for the last fortnight.
My story is so similar to those I've seen here. I'm a 30 yr old addicted to nurofen plus. I have a 7 year old son and husband who I've been putting second to those pills for near on 6 years. It started when I had my son. We needed money and so when he was 4 months old I started doing full time night shift. I had postnatal depression and self medicated. I've always been good at ignoring problems, real head in sand talent and I ended up taking upwards of 52 a day. fast forward a couple of years I was swollen all over, dizzy and admitted for multiple blood transfusions and tests. Doctors couldn't work out why I was so anaemic and I didn't tell the truth. It scared me enough though to seek help from a drug service. ...I was put on subutex 8mg and it was magic for 2 years...then they put pressure on me to taper and fear of withdrawals while at work (now working full time days in another nursing role) sent me straight back on the nurofen plus. nearly 2 years on again and taking 32 a day. My body was shutting down. Tired cinstantly, hugely swollen all over my body, pain whenever I ate and frequent vomiting...I knew the oedema was my body shutting down, that my hb is in my boots. Couldn't walk upstairs without crawling to the top, had to hide my legs in long dresses at work. ..I knew this was the end game for me. Pretty sure there's an ulcer just bleeding out in there....and the guilt. The endless preoccupation, routine and just life revolving around this poison. So I decided it needs to end. I told my husband and parents everything. Knew I needed them and booked a week off work to go cold turkey. I'm teetotal, I don't smoke...the endless poisoning of my body with ibuprofen just didn't make sense. I'm now ten days free of all medication. I've admitted to myself I took them to avoid dealing with life and need to learn to do that now. I return to work tomorrow feeling stronger than I have for a long time. The oedema has gone and revealed a 10kg weight loss. I'm taking liquid iron, vitamin c, potassium supplements and b vitamins. I'm far from well completely. I get sweats and chills, headaches and breathless but I know it is short term and my family are being strong to help me. so now to why I'm saying thanks...Thanks because the many stories on here made me realise I'm not alone. That getting off the pills is possible. That I stood a chance too. I've been inspired by the strength of those who have posted so honestly before me. Those that made it first time and those that relapsed, especially those that relapsed because the strength to keep trying despite the difficulties truly inspired me. I have a talisman with me from my son to keep me strong. I read that here and it helps. I joined spotify and focusing on lyrics is helping. I have found my love for music again. I learnt that here too. Most of all I learnt to be honest with myself. So thank you. You may have just saved my life. | ||
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Posted: July 25, 2016, 9:04 AM
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Posted: January 25, 2017, 8:29 PM
It's been six months since I wrote this post and it remains as true as it did then. I remain off all medication. I'm not self medicating but recognised a need to do *something* for me...So I joined a gym and swim every other day. Physically I feel myself getting stronger. Mentally too.
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Posted: January 26, 2017, 11:39 AM
Great! keep up the vitamins and supplements. they really to help to keep the body at a good level with less ups and downs. the body needs the minerals and vitamins to keep up optimal function. also try some alternatives - massage once in a while helps the body feel better and then the mind feels better. massage would help get toxins out. LOTS of water flushes toxins out. if you come acrossed it - try homeopathic remedies if there is an opportunity to see a homeopath. the improvements are slow going, but more permant and helps the body and mind. sometimes a naturopath specializes in homeopathic consulting.
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Posted: January 28, 2017, 10:33 PM
Ps - the night shift is difficult. it changes your brain to a groggy feeling all of the time. because it is not normal for the brain and body to be awake all night. and you must stick to a early bed time schedule. which is hard to do if you want any social life. you were probably mostly sleep deprived while working night shift and taking care of an infant and all the other things a mother is expected to do. plus the pressure of being a nurse..... it is not easy. but the better road is the one with out self medication.
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