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Posted: June 1, 2014, 7:53 PM
I drank to feel and the feelings were great whether I was alone or not. When the feelings began to wane, I drank to maintain the effect, that's why eventually due to tolerance I needed to drink larger quantities to maintain my desired levels.
My desired levels were engendered by pain relief, that's why alcohol felt so great. I was in emotional pain from early childhood, but I didn't realize it until I educated myself in addiction psychology. Some are aware why they drink, e.g. loss of a love one or a job or some sort of tragedy, etc. My recovery began with my first drink and alcohol helped me cope with my emotional feelings of confusion and pain for years until it stopped working. But, the alcoholism recovery process has a purpose from the beginning when I first drank to the end when I recovered. The purpose is recovery, and not JUST from alcoholism, recovery from alcoholism is the start, it just scratches the surface. Besides it's the symptom (indicator) of the problem. Recovery from the issues why I became addicted is the crux of the problem. I'm where I'm at today due to this process. Therefore, the alcoholism process is a delivery system into reality. | ||
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Posted: June 2, 2014, 5:39 PM
Hello Iconoclast44
I drank for 40 ?+ years and quit innumerable times. I didn't have trouble stopping, but I had major problems staying stopped. AA changed that. For the first year AA helped me to stay stopped. Since then it has also told me how to live a better life. And that life keeps on getting better and better. I don't care if some of the things I learn are not AA dogma. If they work and I can also live a better life, I will use them. I have heard many helpful things in AA meetings that are not mentioned in the Big Book or the 12 & 12. What makes me feel the best? makes me sure I am doing the "right" things? That's when I help some suffering alcoholic and they get past some sticking point. The smile, the look of amazement, the look of gratitude, the "I GET IT" moment is a blessing to see and makes my heart swell. This program of AA or of recovery has been a fantastic blessing to me. I like the way MY program works. I have no plans to or see no need to change it. But I have to work it. I wish you good luck and sincere serenity in your program. E -------------------- Let me love and serve and teach, Those who come within my reach. For miracles begin that way! Author: Sally Deford | ||
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