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Posted: December 18, 2013, 1:46 AM
Need 2 change I definitely want 2 change just don't know how.
I usually do 2-3 weeks off the s*** then it go's wrong an i end up on a 5-7day bender!!!! | ||
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Posted: December 18, 2013, 4:50 AM
Hi Mark, I know what you mean. I was on such a downhill spiral I didn't have much hope of giving up drinking, even though I knew it was destroying my life, relationships, marriage, career, my health, everything. Fortunately for me, my daughter refused to see me again until I got and stayed sober. She did the tough luv thing. lol so glad she had the courage to do that. They say you can't quit for someone else, don't know about that, it's been over a year and a half now, no desire whatsoever to drink. What happened was, I came here started reading, someone told me to ask God to help me. Well, I do believe in God, but I just couldn't ask Him, maybe I was embarrassed, dunno, He knows everything about me already, but drunks don't make much sense I guess. Anyhow, I was desperate, heartbroken, lost, afraid, confused, at the worst of my life and that's sayin something. I got on my knees and asked. I asked God to take away my desire to drink. He heard me, He took away my desire and put joy in my heart! Since then I've learned what it really means to have a relationship, and life.
Now you may not believe in a higher power, or you may just simply not know what you believe. AA tells us to think about it. Certainly there must be something more powerful than ourselves. Maybe nature, I don't know, but you must think on a power higher than yourself and draw strength from it. Read the Big Book, there's a wealth of knowledge there, and personal stories you probably can relate to, I know I did. Bottom line is you're not alone. There are lot's of people who have learned to live without alcohol and we all have one thing in common. We do it one day at a time. Keep posting, let it all out, that helps. You can put your boot right down on that demon alcohol if only you believe you can.:) Don't listen to what that alcohol tells ya, it's a damn lier! | ||
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Posted: December 18, 2013, 10:44 AM
Mark, please Google and read "AA HOW IT WORKS". That simple 1 page document can change your life.
It changed mine in 1989 and continues to work today. It works for millions. Your post here suggests your way isn't working so well now ..... I know how you feel. All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: December 18, 2013, 7:32 PM
Hi Mark.....I can relate.. there is a solution and if you are willing to pursue it then you will find a new way of living that does not include alcohol and you will have a brand new life.....all it takes to begin is an open mind,a phone call and an AA meeting. The rest will fall into place one day at a time..By living one day at a time and working the program I have achieved 3 years and 4 months of sobriety. by living in the solution instead of existing in the problem I now have a new life , a new attitude and a whole lot of gratitude and appreciation for my sobriety and the ones who helped me along the way..You can too.. please keep coming back ,you will find friends and support here.
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