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Posted: February 22, 2013, 8:16 PM
Yes! I'm going to my first meeting tonight. I've got just about everthing out of the house. I left one bed and a tv for me to use right now. Next week my stainless appliances and stained glass chandeliers go into storage as well. What hurts is my son said if I go back to work out of town he will disown me! That is my JOB! At first I was hurt now I'm sort of pissed off. This Meth has blown up my family. Hubby was blowing up my phone, till about 11 last night, now I have not heard one thing from him since. I'm figuring out that when he is high he doesn't call. I'm so tired of all of this. I'm angry and sad. I'm afraid to leave my house incase he comes and steals from me. It's awful. He is Furious he has been ordered to enter treatment, he knows probation is coming which means drug testing. He's furious about it all but I won't budge an inch and refuse to drop the order. I leave to go work 900 miles from here in about 2 weeks. I need to work to rebuild the savings he blew, my son is furious with me for that. But that's what I do! There are no jobs in town, I can't see me working for 12.00 an hour! I could not survive! I have a great job, earn a better than decent paycheck and he wants me to quit??? Sorry! No! I earn more in one month than most people earn in a year! I've worked my a** off for this job and I won't give it up! Especially now! I think getting away is what I need.
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Posted: February 22, 2013, 8:23 PM
Hubby has a pay as you go phone, so he calls me with a blocked number. I have to answer as the Sheriffs also call with blocked numbers. I'm getting more clear headed. The more I read and learn. What an ugly, ugly drug Meth is. I still cry at times and then other times I want to kill him! But, I'm finally accepting there is nothing I can do. The safest place for my belongings is storage, I'm nervous at home at times, I don't think he would hurt me again, but he is hanging with some nasty people! He can't be on the property whether I'm here or not. That pisses him off, I know he misses it. He cried to me how much he missed me and the house, then seconds later he's screaming at me calling me names, threatening to go stay with one of his whores, and selling our stuff for Meth! What is that all about? I hung up.
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Posted: February 23, 2013, 1:05 AM
I went to my first Al Anon meeting. I didn't say to much, listened mainly. It's so sad to hear what families are going through! The pain and hurt these Meth users cause is incredible! One woman has TWO children very far gone, it broke my heart for her and I cried with her. That poor family! Another had a daughter give birth to a baby who is not going to survive, the 'mother' of this baby up and left the hospital and left her dying new born with out even seeing her baby boy! Those two women needed to talk and share way more than I did. What a nasty ugly drug! Those two women are devestated, their selfish drug addled children have ruined families and the pain these families are suffer
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