The Universal Language,i Hope You Will Be Inspired

5 years ago my two oldest children weren't speaking to me. My youngest daughter was very sick and not expected to survive and I relapsed several times after 19 months of sobriety. my marriage was falling apart and my life was on a downward spiral that only God could fix.. God can and would if sought . At present I am visiting my son and wife and my two precious grandchildren. Tomorrow I leave to go visit my other daughter and son in law and Today my youngest daughter started a new phase of her life by attending college to study and learn to help youths with problems. I have been sober for 4 years and life just keeps on improving.. whoever you are, wherever you are and whatever your addiction , there is a solution, there is help and there is recovery. Please do not give up before the miracle begins. There is hope and there is life after addiction. Thank God for his Grace, mercy and love.I am so blessed

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All my life I felt a void. an emptiness that I felt even as a child as if there was something missing in me. The first time I drank I felt as if that void was filled. I felt complete. Alcohol would be my friend and companion for many years. it would also rob me of a normal life. Bit by bit it controlled me and affected those around me. The fulfillment I felt through the bottle was an illusion and it would soon require more and more alcohol to achieve that feeling of contentment. The more I drank the worse my life became. I believe with all my heart that it is by Divine intervention that I am alive and well to carry the message of HOPE to others because it is through his Grace that I am sober and alive. Through all the trials, heartache and pain God never stopped loving me and he does the same for you. If you think nothing can help you please remember that you can be lifted by the love of God, the support of the people that will be put in your life and the void can and will be filled if God is sought.
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There are so many blessings I am grateful for.As you all know by now my love of music is great and a part of me just as much as the air I breathe. Just recently I got to see this woman perform live..A gift to me from my oldest daughter and son in law.It still amazes me how my life has changed since becoming sober. 5 years ago I was estranged from my daughter and 5 years later she has paid for a plane ticket and took me to see some of my fav performers at the CCMA 2014 awards. How awesome is that? I take nothing for granted. It is all God given and all because of his Grace and Mercy.Sobriety rocks!
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This post has been edited by pirate on September 10, 2014, 11:32 AM

I try my best to post a new song every 3rd day. I am a bit behind this time because I have been travelling and when I arrived home last night I was too tired to post but it is the first thing I am doing this morning because I was thinking about tthe fact that I was behind on my posting my song while on my way back. For each and every one of you who take the time to read my posts and listen to the songs I share I want you to know that you are important to me and that YOU DO MATTER. Sobriety has brought me many blessings not only to me but to other members of my family because addiction like a web entangles all who love us in it but so does sobriety. My actions when in active addition affected my loved ones and now my actions in sobreity affects my loved ones but in a more positive manner. I have many many blessings ,not because I am special but by God's Grace and mercy. That doesn't mean I don't have any problems..I do...but instead of turning to the bottle for escape I turn to the one who has made all this possible. when all else fails .try prayer..it works ,probably not in the way you expect or want but it will work. How do I know? I am here typing this post for you all to read and I am alive and SOBER. Never give up HOPE..never give up on YOU...God bless you all

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For many many years I struggled with my addiction, trying to pretend I was normal.the guilt at times was enormous and the nights of not being able to sleep because of the shame and the wondering who knew and who was talking about me and what had I said or done and on and on .remorse over the things I could remember and insomnia was a factor in what would become a pill addiction compounded with alcoholism.As my addiction progressed so did my insanity...writing notes to myself about who I talked to or what I had done and stuffing them in my pill bottles and my wallet where I knew I would find them. writing notes of where I bumped into things and how I got a bruise on a certain part of my body. notes of a lot of what i had done in a blackout so if questioned I would have some idea of what went on in my life the hours before I sobered up from a drunk when I had to go and face a new day.All of this I did in secret, not telling a soul... The empty bottles hidden all over the place..and the lies..This was not the life I had imagined for myself.. I relate so much to the song that is posted below.. I was a Karolina...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfgfTMlqQcI

This post has been edited by pirate on September 18, 2014, 7:38 PM

The past month has been one of many changes for me. Some people have left my life while new ones have entered out of the blue. A huge impact has been made on my life . It has left me in a state of confusion yet with a new sense of direction and in a weird way a freedom. My world has been changed along with my perception of what I believed to be real and true.I am trying to make sense of it all. I am amazed at the way God answers prayers in the most unexpected ways and places. we will receive an answer when we pray .It may be different than we expect or want but God has a way of surprising us by providing us what we need.

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I have been going through a difficult time lately and some of it has been my own doings. I don't know if it a growth time or just self created drama but things have been kind of spiraling out of control and like most alcoholics I want to have control over everything . letting go and letting God is something I have to keep practicing and with the help of those who are willing to lend me an hand I am trying to find my direction and I am trying to let myself be guided to what is in God's will for me . not my will...


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I am going through a difficult time and the singer's voice in this song brings me comfort as it has many times in the past.I hope if i can pass on any kind of inspiration today it will be to let you know that it is possible to stay sober in difficult times and to be honest about your feelings because it is ok to not always feel great all the time and it is ok for us to admit that we are human who are flawed and make mistakes. I don't have to pretend that i know it all or feel great all the time to pass on any kind of inspirtion to anyone who is still suffering the effects of alcoholism.There is HOPE and there is a solution and just because life can be hard and difficult at times that dosen't give me the right to mess it up more for myself and everyone else by turning to the bottle.when life gets you down please turn to the people whom God have put in your life to help you along the way and pray to your HP and whatever we may be going through please keep in mind that this too shall pass.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VE1Pu28KZM8

This post has been edited by pirate on September 27, 2014, 6:35 AM

I am still struggling through a tough time but telling myself it is a
growth of some kind that i am going through and a lesson to be
learned..I will get through it and I am staying sober because I know
there is nothing that can happen to me that a drink won't make worse. I
am only human and I have human emotions and expierences. I don't pretend
to be perfect nor would I want to be so I am not going to come here and
post that life is a bed of roses all the time because I am sober.I have
my ups and downs and flaws like everyone else but I have learned that
if I ride through the storms and not take that first drink that after a
while it passes and life becomes good again and I stand a chance of
making it in this world. If I drink I lose it all so instead of reaching
for the bottle I reach out to those who are a part of my recovery and I
work my program and I tell on myself and I do my best to make it
through one day at a time. Just for today all I have to do is make the right choice .One day at at time we can get through anything. Keep the faith and keep walking the recovery road no matter how many bumps there may be and don't beat yourself up just because you are human...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2X43XF8247E

This post has been edited by pirate on September 30, 2014, 5:56 AM

Still struggling with emotions ,thoughts and feelings .still learning, still trying to make sense of some of things,STILL SOBER.but believe it is part of a spiritual growth that i need to go through in order to become the person I am meant to be... If you are struggling with something in your life today remember that you are not alone. also remember that you do not have to use or drink over it.we can conquer mountains or we can let them fall on us.I choose to make the climb.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1MDU55opPI

This post has been edited by pirate on October 3, 2014, 4:09 AM

As always music brings me comfort. i think of all i do in my recovery that i get the most peace and inspiration from listening to the songs that speak to me. which I believe are the words and wisdom of our creator, carried by the gifted ones he has chosen to share one of the greatest gifts given to us...music.... There is healing in music, there is love in music, there is inspiration.. and if you listen there is the voice of God...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sG94EKGDcU

This post has been edited by pirate on October 5, 2014, 6:57 PM

Been a difficult couple of weeks. things behind me now . moving forward, sober and grateful....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsYJ6egqNHk

It is thanksgiving here in Canada this weekend.. 4 years ago I was spending thanksgiving at a treatment center. By the Grace of God I am still sober and I have much to be thankful for. step by step I walk the recovery road but I do not walk it alone..

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Peace is returning again after my struggles that I have been experiencing lately.. as I have learned in the past sometimes all it takes for the doom to be lifted is one comment tthat strikes a nerve within me to set me back on the right path...I have been so focused on me the last few weeks thinking only of self and again recently I felt I was handed yet another burden to bear,
not realizing that what I felt was a burden is indeed a blessing not only for me but for someone close to me. How selfish I have been and so self absorbed . all it took was one statement from someone to make me see the light.It has opened my eyes. I have been given a dose of humilty .. Again lessons learned and work to be done.Thank God it is progress and not perfection I seek because otherwise I would fail miserably..God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference..

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I am not sure if I posted this song before or not but it doesn't matter if I have because I am guided to post it again today so I am thinking there is someone out there who needs to see this.Today I had contact with a friend of mine who has relapsed again.I just hope and pray that for anyone who is a chronic relasper that you will never give up trying. In my time in recovery I have seen many go back out , there was a time I was one of them.I have also seen people die but I have also seen the miracles of people who recovered and went on to live normal happy lives...my choice today will determine if I will be a stastitic or if I will be a survivor of this disease . There is no right way or wrong way to get sober..whatever works for you will be the right way for you..It doesn't matter how you do it just as long as you do..Don't ever quit,Don't ever give up and always remember you are not alone..

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Be kind ,for everyone you meet is facing a battle of their own
This advice was given to me one time and I am sharing it today because we all need to be reminded that it is not all about us and we are not alone in the world of problems and battles.If we take the time to be kind and care we can see inside the heart of others and get away from self. I have learned when I am busy helping others I spend less time thinking about me and it gets me out of self pity and resentment.. We don't need money to help another. we just need to have a kind heart,a smile and some willingness to reach out.. It works wonders!

In life, you will realize that there is a role for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you, some will love you and some will teach you. But, the one's that are important are the one's who bring out the best in your. They're the rare and amazing people who remind you why it's worth it[/I] copied from shareinspirequotes.blogspot.ca

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This post has been edited by pirate on October 22, 2014, 8:10 AM

When I was in active addiction most of my hours were spent either thinking about drinking, drinking or getting over a drunk .Life was far from beautiful and I envied the people who did not drink or the ones who could drink normally. Sobriety has given me the beautiful life that i craved. I am not saying it is perfect it is not but the beauty of it is I remember what I say and do. my days are no longer filled with cunning ways to get booze or making up stories and telling lies to get my fix. The self loathing has disappeared and I am free to come and go as I please at a moments notice. I wake up instead of coming too and my family and friends have respect for me but most of all I have respect for myself.I no longer have to lie about my drinking and the mornings are the beginnings of a new day instead of a new drunk..I thank God for taking me back to simplicity of life.. for taking me back to the beautiful..................

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We are never alone not even in our darkness moments. Like most alcoholics I had spent many hours in the darkness feeling hopeless but here I am today on a recovery site passing along my experience , strenght and hope to others whom hopefully I will nspire to get help or to plant a seed that will lead someone to recovery. Even in my worst of moments God was watching over me. when I finally reached out I was given the strength, the help and the love to help me get sober. Looking back on my journey in the last 6 and half years has been amazing . There is no doubt in my mind that I was indeed watched over all along. If you are still suffering in your addiction please believe me when I tell you there is hope for you, there is love for you and there is recovery for you.. It all begins with admitting there is a problem and it begins when you reach out to the one who watches over you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u52_5VuwKVI

One of the most important lessons I have learned in recovery is to look at my problems as challenges instead of obstacles.\Be willing to do what it takes, stay away from the whys,the what ifs and why me.. whatever the situation it is what it is.It's only a mountain and you can climb it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxWayfx3p2s

This post has been edited by pirate on October 31, 2014, 9:33 AM

A man/woman takes a drink and sometimes a drink takes the man/woman. I relate to this song as I guess many do..one line stuck out for me...knife twisted up in his gut.. I felt that knife many times in the middle of the night when sleep would not come and would roll the sheets in a ball and lie on it and press it in to my stomach to try and ease the guilt,remorse and selfloathing from my own inflicted knife wound.God what an awful memory but one that will keep me sober today.

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