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Posted: February 18, 2016, 11:57 AM
How are you doing? Sorry I haven't checked in lately. Life's been keeping me pretty busy. Hope to see you post soon!
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Posted: February 28, 2016, 1:25 PM
You're sweet to think of me.
I'm okay. Clean :) Xoxo Skeeter | ||
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Posted: February 28, 2016, 4:43 PM
So glad to hear you are doing well. Stay strong! You can do this!
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Posted: March 13, 2016, 6:34 PM
I've decided to finally do something I've never done.
And papabear.....you'll be proud to hear this. I'm going to go to my first NA meeting Wednesday night. I'm going to try the 90 in 90. I've been fighting this battle for too long..... And my way doesn't work. I'm either on pills, in w/ds, or clean and sober. I'm never actively working on "recovery". I am not religious (not necessarily an atheist though--just not into the whole "big guy in the sky" thing, I don't like people for the most part, am pretty reserved in groups of strangers, etc. I've ignored so many suggestions on online forums to attend a meeting and try the 12 steps. I can come up with every possible excuse in the world to not go. But I'm tired of feeling so spiritually bankrupt. It can't hurt. Worse thing that could happen is I find its not for me - then oh well. At least I tried. But who know, it might change my outlook and attitude. We will see. I'll definitely update on my experience if it helps anyone out there. Any advice is welcomed. I've been told by my opiate recovery Reddit community to not hold any judgements and be open minded in the beginning. Wish me luck. Xoxoxox Skeeter | ||
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Posted: March 13, 2016, 7:49 PM
 This post has been edited by Papa Bear on March 13, 2016, 7:49 PM -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: March 14, 2016, 1:00 PM
Skeeter,
I think you will like and find that they are very open-minded and understanding. Doing the 90 in 90 will be very helpful. I did that 4 years ago. Once you start feeling better, keep going as much as you can and help others that are new. I stopped going and now I'm the same as what you said - on pills, in w/d's or clean, but not really in recovery. They talk about a higher power, for some people that was God, but for me, I had a hard time with that and I finally realized the power of the group was helping me. I'm not necessarily an atheist either, but I had a hard time with that. I do know that when I ask a Higher Power for help, I actually get it. Good luck and definitely let us know how your first meeting goes. Lulu | ||
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Posted: March 19, 2016, 10:36 AM
Well I had a delightful experience.
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Posted: March 19, 2016, 10:43 AM
"Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path"
It sounds like you are on the road to happy destiny !! Bob R. -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: March 21, 2016, 11:18 PM
Went to another meeting (different location) just to scope it out!
And it was wonderful! What the hell was I so afraid of? Xoxo papabear | ||
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Posted: March 24, 2016, 3:20 PM
It's so nice to go to different meetings around town.
I'm glad you went, I've been going too. No matter which meeting you go to, you know that they are all very welcoming, understanding and they are not judging you. At least, that's the way that I feel. | ||
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Posted: March 24, 2016, 4:00 PM
That's the way it works.
Get active in the group when you feel comfortable. It is very rewarding. Work the program and pass along your experience, strength and hope. All the best. Bob -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: May 29, 2016, 2:00 AM
Still attending meetings! :)
Love them! Life. Changing. Have an awesome sponsor. Feeling happy, joyous, and free. At last! Xoxox Skeeter | ||
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Posted: May 29, 2016, 8:21 AM
The Promises of AA from The Big Book:
"The Spiritual life is not a theory, we have to live it. If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and selfpity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.". Your life continues to improve as you work The Steps just like it is promised. All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do) | ||
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Posted: May 29, 2016, 10:19 AM
SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!
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