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tryinghard2 Posts: 281 Joined: January 14, 2015 Posted: August 31, 2015, 6:23 PM I have never felt like this in any attemp to get clean..i feel so bad. I have no apppetite what so ever, i know i have to try and eat...but when i do im left with terrible chest and stomach pains! I have the sorest back.. to the point i cant lay down on it any more, i have been smashed by a freight train this time and im scared recovery is going to take a lot longer ( if i even last that long) but by the way my chest and stomach hurt, i dont wanna touch another pill again...i cant stand for long periods of time either...i feel woozy...this is only day three..its very early..but come on guy a gal some slack...
Persephone Posts: 206 Joined: July 27, 2015 Posted: August 31, 2015, 11:35 PM Best wishes... I wish you peace and comfort. Your soul is worth what your body is enduring right now. Don't give up. -------------------- " Many times I sought the lighthouse The familiar beam in the dark Looking for the comfort Radiating from its spark; Today I turn that inward No longer am I the seeker I am not just the lighthouse I am the light - And lighthouse keeper. "
tryinghard2 Posts: 281 Joined: January 14, 2015 Posted: September 1, 2015, 12:06 AM Thank you...i am in AGON..its almost unbearable...ive done this many a time...nothing as bad as this...i cant even look after my children...im a wreck and in tears constantly...i hate myself for this!!!
First Steps Posts: 18 Joined: August 17, 2015 Posted: September 1, 2015, 7:04 AM Keep going...it will be so worth it on the other side!!! Thursday will be my 3 week mark!!!! If I can do this so can anyone. Keep your head up and use this board...also checkout Calm Support on Youtube. The guy who runs it (Ryan) puts up short videos on a regular basis - he talks about all things addiction related!! His videos helped me so much...and continue to do so as I check in with him every day! Good luck - you got this
Papa Bear Posts: 1906 Joined: October 23, 2011 Posted: September 1, 2015, 8:51 AM th2: I've posted this before and Iâ€™ll post it again as it may save your life. If you can walk away from this mess then do it. Many can and that is great. If you can't (like me and millions of other addict/alcoholics) then go to NA/AA. I have a spiritual/ emotional/ mental disease that is treated daily by The 12 Steps.... the drug of choice was just a symptom, not the root cause. The ones that can walk away will kill the alcoholic/addict with their methods without even knowing it. Many addict/alcoholics die every day trying to quit using like the ones who can quit. A good read here http://bigbooksponsorship.org/artic...rinkers-fakers/ You have to admit which one you are and take the appropriate treatment. All the best. Bob R -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do)
tryinghard2 Posts: 281 Joined: January 14, 2015 Posted: September 2, 2015, 8:37 PM Thanks papa...i do know your right, im just to afraid to rock up to a meeting on my own...its tough...its bad enough feeling like s***..but to be put in an uncomfortable position while feeling this bad is not something i want to tackle right now...im start of day 5 today and still feel the pits managing small amounts of food...no bloody sleep and im still happier on the lounge...anyway i will post more in my thread....
Papa Bear Posts: 1906 Joined: October 23, 2011 Posted: September 2, 2015, 9:38 PM We all come to our first meeting at the lowest point in our lives. Some let their pride and ego keep them away and they miss a golden opportunity. Many die. All the best. Bob -------------------- Serenity Prayer God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Free copy of AA's Big Book on-line: http://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoh...olics-anonymous Free copy of NA's Big Book on-line: Copy & Paste coastalcarolinaarea.org/literature/books/b_t.pdf AA's HOW IT WORKS: Copy & paste www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10_howitworks.pdf NA's HOW IT WORKS: http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf ---------------------------------------------------------------- --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. ---there are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest. ... I need AA more than it needs me. --- I fight recovery tooth and nail.... I'm not used to being sane, it just doesn't seem natural. ...... According to the great spiritual teachers, ignorance does not result from what we don’t know; ignorance results from what we think we do know. ---Some think that 2+2=5 and believe it. Some know that 2+2=4 and can't stand it. --- I didn't have a very happy childhood but I sure am having a long one ! ---Dry since 1989 working daily on getting/staying SOBER. ---If you want to drink, that's your business ...If you want to quit, that's AA's business. ... Tell me, I'll forget; ... Show me, I'll remember; ... Engage me, I'll understand. ---Most problems are psychological. Most solutions are spiritual . "If we try to change our ego with the help of our ego, we only have a better-disguised ego." --Richard Rohr WWBWD (What Would Bill W. Do)

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