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Posted: December 7, 2014, 7:33 AM
I was in this hell for last 16 yrs ....last 4 years were worst.... I tried to commit suicide three times, somehow alive with guilt and failure of life....... I am a regular porn viewer for 14-16 hrs per day, but still my my brain is extreamely thirsty for it. I become monster if I dont satisfy by brain, my brain becomes too tired but still the urge never goes off. Now I am suffering with many serious problems like permanent headache in my brain and body, suicidal tendency, depression, anxiety, I tried several times to stop it but failed. I lost my job, my family and my motive of life. My brain is extreamely hungry as I guess it gets high due to dopamine secreation increasing more hunger for it. Once I started, I cant stop until there is extreamely high boundation. I lost my carrier due to this. I want to beat this demon. kindly help me....... Its my second day when I didnt watched.......... I am trying to engage my brain with music which gives it little high........ I am the biggest loser of this world with useless life for everybody........ I am dead brain......
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Posted: December 8, 2014, 5:54 PM
Hi and welcome,
I'm also a addict. Don't feel your alone, your not! Maybe have a chat to a DR, they can help. Believe me they will have heard a lot more things then what you've just stated. Don't beat yourself up, addiction is a disease, you wouldn't scold a child for having cancer would you! Keep coming back, I used to have suicidal thoughts a lot, then my DR prescribed my a mild anti-depressant (after counselling). You will be ok, its not your fault. Reach out... mTm This post has been edited by mikethemight on December 8, 2014, 5:56 PM | ||
Posted: February 6, 2015, 4:50 AM
Porn destroyed my memory concentration brain damage. I do not know if its beyond repair. Last time i withdrawn for 87 days. Now i am going for 6 months
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